that twilight just before first light. Blue world,,,,
Good lord, Looking for that link, my world went upside down,,,, Look at the prices of deadtree editions,,,,W! T! ever lovin’ F!!?!???
sigh,,, just another point that makes going indy and ebook that much easier,,,,
Anywhooos,,, I read that book back in the mid 90’s, not long after it was released, and it still lingers in parts of my cranium as ‘How I want to write,,,,’. The man took a really twisted set of events and wove them together so believably,,,,
and here I go digressing from my post,,,, apologies.
Its dark out there, looking at the weather liar page, not supposed to go over 36 today. Flat line temps until dusk when they drop deeper into the mercury. Kittehs are all IN HOUSE this morning,,,,, I guess there is only so much hormones can do to keep you out katting around when OlManWinter comes callin’.
Lord knows I am looking at that temp and thinking, ‘Maybe I wanna stay home and write, or read,,,,, I can make up the physical in the erg,,,,’
and yet, there is that part of me that says ‘the ergometer is like masturbating dude,,,, feels good but just not as satisfying as gettin’ wet!’
always little wars goin’ on in me head,,,, I don’t like bein’ that nervous Nellie, but I’m sort of addicted to breathing too. And that there is real potential for disaster in paddling in these temperatures can’t be argued. 3mm wetsuits, even if layered (thick and cumbersome), only give you minutes of protection at these temps. Some would say that my chance of capsize is so minimal, that I’m being silly: and yah, maybe a little, but I mitigate my risks. The wetsuits are only part of the equation and I KNOW, from experience, that capsizes DO HAPPEN and are never planned, so you plan FOR them.
Maybe I need a VR hood and play some paddling footage as I paddle my erg,,, LOL (there’s a thought there that isn’t facetious)
That drysuit can’t get here soon enough IMO,,,, Now that I have made the purchase, my mindset is shifting (what all of this is REALLY about,,,) (that real problem: I over analyze EVERYTHING,, )
Theres a thought here that is roaming the backbrain,,, not gelled up and very elusive like a wolf in the brush at twilight,,, Glimpses only, occasional twig snap; you know its there, but you can’t quite pin where,,,,
I don’t think I am going out today,,, Wanna, don’t wanna tug-o-war goin’ on, and that usually leads to other turmoil later down the road no matter which side wins. Its that time of year where the weather isn’t on my JUST DO IT side; proper gear will help that argument,
but not today
I wanna say that this year is already starting out rough, but its still early, that Get-er-Dun part of my mind may win out after the sun comes up and the day starts to look interminably long.
and its not like I don’t have a list of stuff I can do to keep me occupied,,, I just don’t like sittin’round for long these days: gets stiff and cranky, I do,,, especially when its cold out.
UPDATED: Getting out there, Kold be damned. If I don’t, gonna spend the next week pissed off at myself,,,, Not a good thing to be mad at the only person you live with, right?
