That was yesterday’s issue
Societal issues, personal property issues, work related issues, Da and Da issues, Time change issues causing depression issues fueled by winter weather. MY ISSUES, yada-yada-yada
Sometimes, doesn’t matter how stoic one is, something comes along and kicks your box of troubles just right and the whole mess explodes like a blown sewer line in the heat of summer.
Total.
Emotional.
Meltdown.
Took all day to get my shit straight again. I’d be moving along thinkin’ “I got this” and blam, here it came again,
Came home, sent out the missive I was takin’ the night off, and proceeded to deep deep vent mode. Turn the tunes up so my yelling at the ghosts couldn’t be made out across the hollar, drink enough to loosen the filters restraining said ghosts,
and I let it out.
Lanced the poisons that had been building by keeping mum about all the bullshit of the world, my troubles and frustrations dealing with “appalachian drives” (or should that be read ‘drivel’?)
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Ok, let me make some minor changes of characters here at the blogage. Bossman- formerly known as Son of Bossman.
The Old Man- Formerly ‘Bossman’.
everyone else purt much remains as labeled,,,
SO, this AM, I’m getting some tools together, some mine, some Bossmans, and I’m in his basement/office and I apologized for the meltdown. (it happened in his presccence, even due to such.) and he said “Hell Dio, I’ve wanted to have a meltdown like that for awhile, this world is getting right fucked in how everything is working, or ain’t workin’.” (or something to that effect,, Can’t quote him verbatim)
He and I aren’t exactly best of friends, but we have a comaraderie that borders family closeness. Heck, we are nearly the same age, only 9months difference. We are both caretaking our declining Fathers, and we both deal with much the same things, albeit his on a bigger financial ratio than mine, but same issues. We even deal with the same monkeys (with the exception that I am one of his monkeys too. You know what I mean LOL)
And of course, this monkey is held to a higher standard than the other monkeys. All good. They gave me a shot at this job 14 years ago, and I have pretty much made it my own. I know if I were drop off the face of the earth tomorrow, there would be several jobs he has, come to a grinding halt, because he has no one else capable. That was also part of my meltdown, because that’s a lot of weight on one little old monkey that sees better days in the rear view.
So yah, I came home, and ‘took a load off’. Cozzie, Elb’s and Mama decided ‘Daddy is having a psychotic episode, best be scarce’ and I didn’t see hide nor hair of any of them till this AM. I know I can be scary when I open the bypass to the filters.
So, thankee for not burning the shop to the ground, and to whomever prepped the coffee maker so all I had to do was turn it on; You are an angel in disguise.
Love y’all
Stay curious.
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