Dio not happy,,,
I wrote a post up last night for early publication, but, well, this’uns gotta take its place.
WHat the hell am I even doing these days. I have way more skills than this company can use, and I still struggle with meetiing ends.
Because I am not utilizing those skills, I hold cards close to my chest and I don’t know why. FEAR? Fear of failure? No, not that, fear of success?
theres something to that. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but that one started a ringing noize.
I do NOT want to go find another “J.O.B.” I’m sick of being at the mercy and whims of others for income. And ya, I know, going my own route, there are going to be peaks and valleys of Feast and Scratch, so whats the difference? Flexibility? As in, I get to say WHEN I will work, or not. Yeah, there is some freedom there, but, like right now, I’d likely take on something I shouldn’t just to have something coming in. So its a catch22 situation with the “flexibility’ thing.
There is also the fear of liability thing eating at my hindside. I can easily see someone, especially round hereabouts, deciding to get a lawyer involved and my situation hasn’t the protections of an LLC yet. There has been so much going on, and finances are so low that that, has been on the backburner as low precedence. Only, maybe it should have been the foremost. (property things and Da have been the foremost the last 4 months. )
Growth requires risk of some sort. I know that. I’ve taken quite a few risks with buying Bloo, repairing Bloo, fucking up in those repairs and learning hard lessons. Now comes ‘putting it into practice’ Risks,,, And I need to do something as those bills are still festering and NOT going away (not soon anyways, and definitely not as fast as I would prefer.)
Da came up yesterday and was telling me ‘this place is hiring welders‘ ; third hand information from bad cuz, take with a grain of salt. And I pointed out ‘that place has been taking applications for 2 years and still hasn’t opened its doors. They haven’t even paved the parking lot yet.‘ To which he cocked his head to one side, thinking. There have been more than a few of those companies here the last few years. Big Gov Grants to build,, a building goes up, doors never open, and three years in, a for sale sign at the gates. I know of three large buildings/complexes built locally, that are still empty after 10 years. Its just another grift for those in the club. I think Da finally put the numbers together when I said what I did. Ptomekin Businesses to make the numbers look good and keep the currents flowing, while lining a few ‘Good Ol’boys’ pockets.
I gotta make this work,,, And I am not doing that by sitting here on my ass typing away.
And there is still a part of me that says “not here”,,, That this is the last place in the world that I want to ‘go my own way’. Maybe thats part of my fear of success thing too. I don’t, and haven’t stated any other, that I ‘like’ this area. I call it the ‘Armpit of Kentucky’ for a reason. And if any of you have lived here for any length of time, you could concur that ‘the Hillbilly Mafia’ is real, and most definitely controlls WHO makes it off the floor. I don’t fit that list. Not that I even care about that list as I have no intention of ever running a company that will have dozens of employees or chase after some political/elected office. But I would still have to deal with those that do. I recall Son of Bossman attempting to get on to the Board of Education a few years back and running smack dab into that HBM thing. He’s never tried again. The Corruption runs DEEP and his take on it was “I’d never get the stink off”
I’m off. Gonna go out an put up Bizzy cards on all the corkboards at all of the places that allow self advertising. roll the dice, take the risk. Won’t pay today I know, but something has got to give, and it won’t be me (giving up).
LLLLL!!!
(, ‘)
Dio's Workshop 
NEVER Give Up (not that I’d think ya would)! The old saying that “ya pays yer $$ and ya takes yer chances” is actually a thing. An LLC is definitely the way to go.
The Biz Cards are a dam good start. Never know who gonna spot one and give ya a call.
Gotz enuff relatives ’round there, & been there enuff times while workin’ that I can say that the HBM is definitely a thing!
L’s!
Y’all take care,
Mike in FLA.
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Dood, don’t jump off the cliff like a deranged maniac. Ease into it, like an old man gets into a jacuzzi.
I had a full time job that was the best I ever had, but it was still just a “job”. You know, a place I had to be, doing stuff other people wanted me too, and for a specific amount of money no matter how good I did it.
I started doing small side jobs, nights, weekends. I knew how to do my job, now I was learning how to be in control. It takes time, and in that time you build confidence.
You’ll win a lot, and you’ll lose too. In all of it you find the learning experience so as to not make the same mistake again.
6 months in and I was making more money at my side job than my full time job. That’s when I mentally flipped the table and discovered my “job” was costing me money but prohibiting the amount of time I could spend on my business.
Over the next few months I turned in my resignation twice and backed out both times because I was scared. Then my projects became larger and more complex and more profitable and I simply couldn’t hold it all together.
I quit my job.
In hindsight I found my job had been a tether, a leash, a throttle, a limiter.
Untethered I was now able to soar. My only regret is that I didn’t start sooner, that I let the conditioned fear control me.
Have faith in yourself, and do your best in all things, and remember this, if you do a thing simply for the money the underlying dishonesty will burn you out. You have to really like what you do in order to do it well. Nobody likes to do stuff they don’t like.
Guten Lukken.
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ROFL,,, Thanks bro, but to ease your mind, I ain’t “jumpin’ off the cliff.” I am taking advantage of forced time off to do some self advertising. If people don’t know that I am out here, they don’t call; they don’t call, I don’t get the chance to make this into something.
Honestly, the best ‘Gig’ I ever had was Audio/production. I made a name for myself in the local arena, and took that name to the regional/national level. Until I burned my ears out. I loved that job and there were more than a few points where I didn’t get paid at all, because I just wanted to BE THERE,,, (like mixing Shooting Star at the Blue Note,,, Filled in for the house guy because he was sick)
Those days are long past though. Time for the other stuff I enjoy. Welding/fabrication, making old stuff work right, passing on what I know (which is why this blog continues and continues long past its ‘popular’ phase)
Win/lose,,,, thats life. I just want to start something I can control better than these 630am texts telling me to stay home when the world doesn’t give a rats ass about my income, only my outflow.
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20 years ago my little brother in Cape Coral Florida started his own handy man biz and did very well. I came up with a phrase and he put it on his business cards. My brothers name was Paul.
The phrase was, “Call Paul, That’s All”.
You seem to be a hands on type of dood, so I made a phrase for you.
“Let Dio Do It.”
Example:
“Got a job that needs done? Let Dio Do It!”
Then a condensed list of all the stuff you can do.
BOOM! You’ll be busier than a one legged dood in an ass kickin’ contest. lol
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