Indifference

So much going on,,, Fires destroying L.A.      The incoming Administration getting its ‘leaders’ in place, more shenanigans from the current Admin,,,,

And I find I am not giving a rats ass.   Not that I don’t care, I’m checking in trying to  stay one step ahead of whatever is coming at us sideways.

And you know it is, whatever it may be,,,   Black Swan event?   Economic collapse (we are already in a reccession, even if the voices of the world try to say otherwise.) An Assassination?   Who Frellin’ KNOWS,,, certainly not this one little fish in a great big sea,,, (or is that one small crayfish in the bottom of the cesspools????  There are days where that seems the more likely,,,)

I feel for those in California, that are finding out just what the hell they have been voting for the last few decades.   And I can see parallels of Maui, North Carolina etc in the events happening there.    And still, ‘no love’ from TPTB as they ship another sumpin’sumpin’ billy-yuns of dinero off to some other theater of pain,,,,    Someone is gonna make bank on the destruction, IT WON’T BE the homeowners out there.  Many are probably in need of selling off the property at pennies on the dollar of what it was worth before becoming an ashpit.  Other sites have far more information about the debacle of Insurance retreats form a year or more back, along with other aspects that are going to create a perfect storm of horror for property owners out there.  

And the destruction in NC and SETN are still ongoing.    I think it will take a few more years before things there return to what I recall from just this past August…   I could link to some of the feeds I get from that area, but its all private pages on Fakebuuk,,, You would need to subscribe to them and I know just how much my readers loooooooove Zuckers (sounds like ‘suckers!!!’) ‘Meta’ platform.    Seems he also had a ‘coming to God’ moment recently,,, More like ‘saw the way the world was turning and decided to switch sides before the axes started falling’ moment.    

We used to, in the Marines, call guys like that, ‘Buddies’.  

Its not a good term, trust me.  Buddies are the guys that will leave you hanging when y’all get caught red-handed, or in a pique of paranoia, rat ya out to the captain before hand.    Not someone that ‘has your back’ in otherwords.  (one of the reasons I like Farscape so much: they did a bang-up job showing the milquetoasts and ‘buddies’ that abound around those just trying to be left alone to get along in life.)

NO, right now, I have more on my plate ‘to get ahead’ to deal with.   The last couple of months have put a dent in my progress,,,,,,,, even slid me back in more than a couple of ways, and I ain’t at all happy about it.    I haven’t been venting about it too much since some of it was my own over-zealousness,  (the three fingers pointing back at me thing.)   I’ll get by, I always do, but its going to be a struggle, unless there is a major change in some things on my end.   No need to go into that, I just have to hold my cards close, and be ready to cut or slash when the opening arrives.   Burned bridges? Maybe,,,   Don’t really want to, but there comes a time where that is the best road to take.  Time will tell,,,

Am I selfish?   No, but as I told Burnout a time or two: If you aren’t taking care of ‘#1’, #1 can’t take care of anyone else either,,,,   Simple truth.    I certainly can’t be helping those in other places rebuild if I can’t pay my own bills, right?  (they are getting paid, but I don’t like the method I had to resort to this month to do so: felt far to close to how our Government pays its bills, by borrowing.)

And such is why I am indifferent to the goings on in the world.   My focus is on getting #1 back on track, and until then, the rest can hang.   I can’t fix it, Even on the best of days, and these ain’t the best of days.

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