GIGO, The New Years Day post,,,

Most of y’un’s should be familiar with that saying “Garbage in, Garbage out”: its from programmers education, but applies across the board in so many ways.   You get out what you put in,,,   Perfect practice makes perfect, etc etc,,,

I spent a large portion of the Eve of New Years, binge watching an old Series I enjoyed from the Aughts of this century.    One entire season in one day  (they move much faster without all the commercial interuptions)    There was one character on there that I ‘fell in lust with’ and I find I still get the warm fuzzies when I hear her voice,,,    Beside the point; just a brief mention,,,

Where I find myself this morning on the cusp of the new year, is “contemplative melencholy”,,,   We get out what we put in, and WE are responsible for how we handle EVERYTHING.   As I told Burnout when I handed him his ‘gift’ this year: “YOU have to do the work, no one else can or will”   (I gave him a fresh copy of Kwiks “Limitless” and a diary with a pen so he had no excuses to not do the ‘homework’.)  That applies to everything in ones life, doesn’t it?   We may not be, personally, at fault for the shape the world is in, but we are completely, personally, responsible for how WE deal with it (or even ‘don’t deal with it’, for that matter)   Far too many people in this world don’t want to accept that ‘responsibility’ and play the victim card every damned time,,,  No, it may not be your fault you were born into a shitty situation in life, but it IS up to you how you handle, or not, the cards you are dealt.   You can play the victim card and there are people that will try to assist you of their own free will, but if YOU DON’T DO THE WORK YOURSELF, you are never going to improve in a permanent fashion.   Take away the supports, and you WILL revert back to base stage.

How does my binge watching bring about these thoughts?   

Our brains never actually shut off.  There are levels of activity even when we are down for the count (until we are DOWN for the count and out of the game,,,)   When we go to sleep, that brainium is still cranking along, working on details, sorting the wheat from the chafe, trying to make sense of the billions of bits of information it collects through the waking hours (of which only a small portion are actually retained)   The point being, the garbage we ‘collect’ will be infused into the program, somehow, someway.   Garbage in, Garbage out.   

I watch my dream states; its called lucid dreaming.  I’ve discussed this here a time or two, and it isn’t easy, at first, because your conscious side wants to interfere,, It takes time to become the observer, without influencing the results (and I can’t say that is fact,, The observer always influences the results to some extent.  Schrodingers Cat and all,,,)   My dream states through the night had a definitive ‘serial show’ feel to them.  What the sub was processing was influenced by the input of yesterday.   Garbage In.

The garbage out?   Not sure yet.   Its already here, I just haven’t sorted out if its intellectual, or emotional garbage.   I think its emotional: a longing, loneliness, wishing for companionship is on me.   Thats not like me.   And I feel that has been influenced by the themes of those shows.   (for the curious, the show is Farscape,,,,   For the truly curious, the ‘lust’ is for the character Chiana,,,  that might illuminate something about me that I don’t need to share, eh?  LOL   like maybe, I’m a perfectly healthy MALE human with hormones in play still,,,)

Yeah, feeling a hollowness in my existence currently, self-induced over many moons,,, and one likely to NOT be rectified.   I am far too picky in my standards of companions, even more so for romantic ones.  Of course, that could be alleviated by actually getting out and meeting people, another of my foibles, “going out, meeting people, ewww!”.    What can I say; I’m an Introvert, a hermit, and a philosophical mess of ideas that don’t spread evenly in social ways.

How does one ‘correct’ the GIGO of daily living?    Well, if you are of the Christian bent, you already have the answer: Prayers.   If you aren’t saying your prayers to your God, you are allowing whatever the world is trying to infect you with, IN, before you settle down for the night.    In my case, I mediate; a form of prayer in a sense.   I didn’t do that last night: I shut off the dvd’s at the last, and went straight to bed, and the mind was awhirl with all these themes and images and the dreams took on that air, trying to make sense of what I had fed it.    Good dreams, nothing horrid, but NOT PRODUCTIVE either.   Not my normal routine: I usually spend 30 minutes to an hour, reflecting on the day, goals, desires, letting the mind wander at whim and cataloging thoughts into ‘useful, interesting, and junk’.   I reflect on my days ‘trials’ and how I did, could do better, or even celebrate the ‘wins’, which are few, to be honest.  

For me: No more binge watching garbage.   At least, no more of that, then diving into sleep.  ‘They call it programming for a reason’ .   How many of you do that,,, watch the toob then go to bed without a thought of anything else?    Do you find you struggle with thoughts that don’t feel like ‘yours’?    Not saying this if for everyone, but do give it a consideration.  Self-improvement doesn’t come from a book, and if you are looking there, you are already off the path,,, the book is a focus, not the source: that source is YOU.    (and don’t think this is an opening for theological debate,,, I won’t go there in this forum, only in meat space, face to face, Period, End Discussion,,,☆)(and with that last remark, I want to share a point of advice I gave my daughter many years ago: “if something I say makes you mad, don’t react; take a minute, five, an hour, THINK about what I said before you come back and confront me with it.  Think about WHY it made you mad before you go off the path and blow up.   As fluid and amorphic our language is, meanings can be misconstrued too easily: I strive for precise, but often miss the mark for lack of other inputs, like facial expression and tone of voice.)

LOL, what a way to start the year here at the shop, eh?   off the cuff mind wanderings,,,

Go, have a good day, blast the hang-over out of your system, or whatever might be giving you issue today.  My day is now headed to lake and water and cold breezes (there is snow in the mountains east of me,,, Winter is HERE.) and a conversation with Universe, Nudge, and IS.   Y’all take care

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