And kinda depressing at the same time. First off, its grey nasty scattered APRIL SHOWERS sort of weather, not that I am complaining about the weather or anything,,, It’s flipping SPRING and my fav-O-RITE season of all. NO, the depression kicked in while assisting Da with his lawnmower. I realized that I am becoming the teacher, where he had been mine,,, Kinda hard to express the entire event that brought it on, without making an entire story post about it, but I realized that our roles have switched a bit and it hit me a little hard.
I also realized (reinforced) where a lot of my self-doubt comes from, since I heard him saying things openly that I often say in my own head when I am struggling with confidence issues. And I was telling him the things I have learned to say to myself, when such times come about: “Shit like this happens, we are only human, and to be perfect would be boring,,,” etc etc etc. Yeah, lawnmower issues were a self inflicted wound and he was embarrassed by it. Shit happens; shrug it off and move on,,,
Took both Lizzy and BlueJean out today. about an hour for each,,, Lizzy first since she was left at home last weekend,,, Geez, I thought I had my sea-legs; HA!!!! She reminded me that she is REAL SEA KAYAK and that in her you had best keep your hips loose. I settled down after a bit, but that first 1/4 mile,,, EEK!!!! Found a rock and did some hip-snaps and that helped give my hips some wiggle room and settled the hind brain down a bit too.
Then I took BJ out just because I wanted to paddle and not need to think about it. What a confidence inspiring boat. Harry Tieken really nailed that design down pat. Slower, but damn, just point and go and don’t worry about a thing on the water. Y’all saw that pic of my busting through DamWave on the Elkhorn, It looks a whole lot more exciting than the reality of it,, I said she never wobbled and she didn’t. I would take that boat through Tide-surf and be as cool as a cucumber the whole time.
And now I am home, and considering loading camp gear into the boats ‘just in case’ I want to go out. No rush to do so, since I have a workweek ahead of me, but I am really wanting to do that Kayakamping thing and SOON…. There was a couple that had paddled to a point and were camping at the lake, and seeing them packing it up onto their sit on tops got my ‘wanderlust’ twitchy.
And I wish B and Fam and I lived closer together,,, I enjoyed the break of the weekend doldrums yesterday (two weekends in a row with friends,,, hot shit!!! I may be getting addicted to that,,,) and seeing Bub running around playing with the toy I picked out for him,,, Yeah,,, gives a godfather a warm fuzzy feel,,,
Been a good weekend. Highs and lows, without going to extremes in either case. Short one for me since I usually have three day weekends, but hey, theres seven hours towards my next paycheck already in the chute,,, that’s gonna help a bit on things here. (note, I payed off completely, one of my debts,,, It is a revolving account, but right now the debt shows ZERO and I intend on keeping it there for a while.)
But this drizzly warm afternoon and some physical activity has caught up to me and this ol’grumpy bod is sayin’ “NAP! NOW!”,,,, LOL.
Talkatcha’y’alll laters.
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