sort of a tryppy mornin’

woke in a lucid state, just coming from the dream worlds (Really rilly strange, do not recommend Tex-Mex then going to bed,,,) slowly coming into the real world just starin’ at the insides of my eyelids,,,

Not EXACT images of what I was seeing, but the impressions I recieved seeing them. were the same as looking at Escher’s works.

ONLY, as soon as I tried to ‘take them in’, the image would burst away and leave just some blurry cloud of solid color: reds, blues, some orange-ish not quite brown (I think its called burnt umber,,,,)  Like in quantum states, the observer effects the observed, and sometimes, the observed does the unexpected and changes state: detect a wave, but see a particle.

and then my minds eye recalled THIS,,,

and Escher wasn’t working from nothing there,,,   There is a much older form of that image, one that isn’t completely explained away by contemporary wisdom.    Let me explain what I mean there.  

The image,,,, Called the Flower of Life.

simple enough even if it looks extremely complex.   In reality, its a design any 7 year old with a compass could recreate with some focus and patience.

Whats strange about it is the places it has been found and the the detailed way it was formed in those places.   Some of the finds are quite the enigma of our modern world, appearing to have been laser etched into basalt: yet they are 5000 years old or more.   (and believe me, the Conspiracy theories ABOUND on how they were created.   Those mean little to me; just white noise in the stream of information, to be tucked away until supporting/contradictory information comes along.) 

There is another design that has been ‘haunting’ me of late as well.

This image means lots of things to lots of people, and is so simple, they are all correct.   What it means to me?   The duplicity of life.   Good/Evil, Light/Dark, Life/Death,  etc    And the path through it all is the Between, where the light and dark meet, and that there is a part of the other in each: Even the evil will sometimes do a good thing, and the Good will sometimes do something bad with the best of intentions.

And that path is NEVER a straight line.

Been doing deep dives into Alan Watts, and others and my meditations have started taking on some seriously tryppy bends.    I’ve noted that there are times where I am sitting here at home and suddenly realize, I have been watching a kitten or the runnybabbits playing with ZERO THOUGHTS for over an hour.   

This is NOT like me.   Usually my head is running at 10000rpm, bouncing off the redline, on multiple lines of thought.  But now, my focus isn’t on thought, but NO THOUGHT,

And its working.

This mornings tryppy vision was a reminder; the harder you try to see the path, the harder it is to find.  Let it go, it will find you.    When you are looking in the mirror asking “Who the hell am I?”, say ‘Hi!’ and introduce yourself. (and that  is something I have been doing for years and years and years; The asking ‘who am I?’,,, the introductions have been a more recent thing, but I think it helps.)

But the biggest thing that has been helping is “Forgiveness”.   I mentioned this in a linking post to Ho’oponopono recently.   IN the vid in that post Aarron mentions a bible quote; “Forgive them, for they know not what they do.”   To expand on that, Far too many in this world/reality/illusion of/school for the enlightenment/what ever you wanna call this,,,   Most wander through thier days in a dream state not aware of thier interconnectedness with everyone.  They do things, completely oblivious of downstream consequences, injuries they do to others, scarcities they create in their efforts to ‘stay alive’ in a world full of abundance.    Place rat-poison in a scrub pile to keep the packrats from moving onto your property, kill a neighbors cat when he eats one of those rats, doing what he does: being KAT.   They know nothing of how far reaching thier actions  go: You must forgive them their ignorance and self absorbed nature or you go crazy and they pull you lower down, back into the dream state that is more a nightmare. (yes, I found out what killed my Grizzy,,,)

But mostly, FORGIVENESS of ones self.   You have to let go the things that eat at your soul, the failures you had/did,   Learn from them YES, hold them and coddle them, HELL NO.   To harbor such is to build MORE; like attacts like in this quantum fueled world of illusions.   You want vibrancy, VIBRATE!  You want to keep scraping the dirt looking for gold you will never find: DIG!    Thats where my life is ‘In Between’.   I’m seeing clearer, sharper, but my thoughts are vaguer than ever; its not uncomfortable, but is ‘different’ and taking some getting used to.   Things that bothered me just a month ago aren’t even blips on my radar today.   Things that are bothering me now are seeing others in states that scream “I’m lost in this world” but no one can help them until they put their own feet on the path of help FIRST.    To try and help them only brings bad karma down upon the helper; “No good deed will go unpunished”.  

SO,  I smile, send them a prayer in Ho’oponopono, and go on my way, forgiving myself of being a judgemental shit (I am an INTJ,,, that last is Judgemental)

more laters

Keep on lovin’

And here I was thinking it was earlier,,, bcuz my day was short,   but,  the runnin’  Burnout around for his payday (to make sure I get my gasmonies!!) and this that the others,,,,

ah, but home now, stripped off the grubbies of work and in a pair of shorts and ready to figure out EXACTLY what I wanna do with myself this weekend,,,,

Update on the parts parody,,,   Email came in early (before lunch) that my parts had shipped out,,, Check the site, and see that this parcel wieghs in at 37.8lbs.   MUCH Better than the 12.4 of the last,,,   I am making the assumption that THIS kit is the correct one,

And I am gonna vid me opening the box JUST IN CASE it ain’t.   Not for prosterity or anything, more CYA (cover yon ass)  I will even have a grease pencil for counting the teeth of the gears to make sure ‘we’z good’.

but

that won’t be ’til Twosday,,,,    Good thing I am not stranded with a ‘hicle on jack stands waiting for parts,,, I might get a wee bit perturbed if that were the case.

BUT I am being quite cautious right now with the Buff.   That howling back side is driving me to distraction and I DO NOT TRUST IT currently.   She left me in the lurch once (and a HUGE thanks to y’all for helping pull my derrier out of that little camp fire,,,,) I have no intention of letting her do it twice. (but can’t do a danged thing without those parts in hand)(not totally true, been researching the shit out of Utoobies on proper install,,, and there are some real doozies out there that I watch and shake my head at,,,  but there are enough GOOD ones that make up for the WTF?! ones.)

Anywhoosits, freeday wrap-up, figure me heading out for it and RELAX

So has memes

Keep on livin’

I shipped out the ‘wrong product’ from the supplier yesterday.   They had sent me a Return label in email, and I printed that up and took to the FedEx place.

Waiting on word that they have shipped the correct products out.   twiddle thumbs twiddle thumbs.    Probably NOT going to have them in time for the weekend; in fact, I think I can lay good money on that fact.

Wanna go kayaking instead, but to be completely honest, the sounds I am hearing from the current rear end are troubling me, and I think it will be best to  sit this weekend out.   Gotz ta has wheels through the week and don’t wanna risk another locked up diff while I am trying to rebuild the one that did. 

Heck, I may just get the wirebrushes out and scrub the livin’hell outta that Axle housing and paint the bloody thing.   May as well, its gonna be basically ‘as new’ when I am done with it.

The company had no problems issueing that return label.    I am pretty sure that somewhere in their database is a list of known weights of various products and the one I ordered will be quite a bit more than the one they shipped to me originally.  A simple scan would verify that my complaint was legit without needing picture evidence.  I did send that, just to be safe.

At least it was the correct ratio,,,,  small grin,,,,   (for the curious 41/11   3.73)

Fingers crossed that the loader gets this shit right this time’round. (and a quick check on the website shows ‘Order status, at warehouse’, expected delivery Monday with deliver on Wednesday.  Here’s hoping this “Oops” is on its way out the door and I can get busy.)

Aproximately 80 years ago.    That there are ANY still ambulant enough to even walk in a parade ALONE,,,

The Body count on both sides was staggering, the stories from those there, unbelievable but true, the amount of material literally thrown into an all or nothing gambit; Material that 4  years prior, had not existed.  Material that was on both sides of the planet from home.  

This country geared up for war and was churning out mega-tons of gear, material, ammo, weapons, ships

And of course, an entire generation of MEN. (HT to Ragin’ Dave for the Patton Speech)

Look around you.  Could this Level of Commitment be replicated today?

Even with the increase in population between now and then, I can’t see it.   Our manufacturing base has been gutted for the almighty dollar and bottom line, our People are much much lazier, more sedentary in physiology as well as psychologically.  

And we are much much more tech driven where those guys were used to hard efforts and less than perfect ‘climate controlled’ conditions such as we have grown accustomed.

Admittedly, I had a laugh reading Pattons speech, where he was dogging his ‘boys’ to ‘get this job done so we can hit the Pacific before those Marines take all the glory’,, Dumb Jarhead pride here, The Devil Dawgs kicked butt in that theater.

I knew one man from that war, My Step-dad: Dempsey Ruggles.   He passed away a few years before my mother, and did not actually fight in the war, but was a merchant Marine and had his ship torpedoed out from under him in the Atlantic somewhere between the Canary Islands and Brazil.   He spent quite a time afloat in a life boat with several others of the crew, many of whom did not make it. 

I still hold one of his souvenirs from then.

One of several items;  but the image says all about the time it’s from, no?  He told me that the captain of the ‘Kraut sub’ that torpedoed them, gave each of those on the boat, one of those five pfenny coins, and pointed them to the nearest land they could reach considering weather and current patterns.    Just doing a job, nothing personal.   Far better than surfacing and machinegunning the boats, condemning them all to Davey Jones’ locker.

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That generation is fading into history, I can only hope the legends created that day, do not: in both forms, the personal stories passed down from father to son to son, and the fact that when the call was serious, this Country STOOD UP, and DELIVERED COPIOUS AMOUNTS OF EVERYTHING.

keep on livin’

Never have quite figured out how destroying all of our established institutions. Is supposed to MAGA..

in ONE word.

CORRUPTION.

Fact is, our ‘established institutions’ are not founded in our FOUNDATIONS, they are add ons as time progressed (that word again)

and as time has progressed, the laws of bureaucracy have applied, and the only ONLY function of these ‘institutions’ is now survival and growth at all costs.

much like a cancer cell that slowly kills its host.

Dead wieght that has been weaponized against the very people that make up the real country.   Why do IRS agents need guns?    Because the blinders are off and people know them for the highway robbers of old now.   Why does the FBI catch so much shit? Because they haven’t caugt ONE person from the Epstein clients list, but sure can turn a grandma saying prayers into a martyr in a jailcell.

Gut it down to the basics that are WRITTEN in the original wording, and nothing else,,, IF AT THAT TIME, we see a need for some agency or such, then we can do some work.   Yeah, its gonna be ‘different’ ‘rough’ and maybe a little wild at first, but it won’t be this Orwellian society that is rushing headlong into full blown Soviet styled tyranny.   I’d rather a  good businessman with bad styling, than some slicked out shyster like Gruesome or some pretty, vapid headed cut out barbie doll with an army of trolls running the show behind the scenes.  At least with our current ‘regime’ we know that the ‘cutout’ is just that, because the man can’t walk to the helo without, literally, shitting his pants. 

FFS, the man shit his pants visiting the POPE!!!!

Yeah,,, thats a great way to show your respect for a 2000 year old tradition,,,,,

but back to the original subject: CUT THE DEAD WEIGHT of agency that encumbers  us, use the budgets to support those to pay off the debts incurred, BE BRUTAL BUT NOT BIASED because every single one of those agencies is gonna have mutltidues of reasons why “it wasn’t us!!!”   AND Cut all foriegn AID indefinitely, to include to ‘Our greatest Ally EVAH!”.   Pull all of our troops home except those stationed at the Embassies, pull out Foriegn based military bases back to home,,, bring it all home where defending AMERICA would become a reality again.    (and we have plenty that needs defended right now,,, like a southern border,,,,,)  

This country can be fixed, but not by continueing to do the same ass shit we did yesteryear.  Thats insanity writ large: ‘TO keep doing the same things and expect different results” 

Is Trump the surgeon we need?  I have doubts,,,  He may be the ‘cutout’ to get the Conservative side to back down for a spell while the gears continue to grind and break up this country from the inside out.   Sure seems that I am not alone in that thought either.

Even those thing being said, I think the ‘revolution’ is well underway and the conservatives are NOT gonna let Trump Idle away the same way he did last time.   And I think he knows it.   

And either way this whole (S)election cycle pans out, I firmly believe that come next January, things WILL go Kinetic

all assuming that we don’t get our asses obliterated in a Nuclear Conflageration because some shitstains in STATE can’t get the hint that the BEAR isn’t playing games.  

All I can do is watch, and keep on livin’

and I suggest y’all do the same.  Livin’ being getting ready for when things aren’t as nice as they are now.

like me getting parts for the Buff while I can. (if the dag-blamed things would show UP)

more laters   Keep on Livin’

I was seriously hoping to share some excellent news witch’y’all,,,,

I ordered my parts for Buffalo in the wee hours of Muhnday morn, and they shipped out that day,

and kinda sorta arrived today,,,

yeah,,, a ring, and a pinion,,,,  

most certainly NOT $1300 worth of parts there, unless those two peices are made of Adamantium,,,

I started the dispute process, and the site says they will contact me in one business day,,, 

THIS image is what I should have received,,,,  quite a few missing parts there in the box that DID show up.   I’m hoping that there were two boxes and the FedEx guy screwed up, BUT, I didnt’ see ‘parcel one of two’ or anything like that on the box,,,   and the box was completely undamaged in anyway.

But I knew as soon as I picked it up that things weren’t right.

Just a touch dissappointed right now,,,   Not mad, just ‘meh!’,,,  Was sorta hoping to get a serious start on that rebuild tonight and now hanging in space/time twiddlin’ me thumbs.   Don’t want to mess with the box or parts incase I have to return them, and besides the fact: I really need the rest of those parts to even get started.

sigh,,,,     maybe this is universe telling me something,,,,

Keep on livin’

Where’s the time go???

Will have another post up today, later, with MORE pics, but completely different subject,,,  

  stay tuned