Some days, I just want the words to ‘turn off’. To experiance some blessed silence for a spell. Not the words of the world, those I can shut off fairly easily: I’m talkin’ the words in me head,,,
Long confession: I like psychedelics. LSD pharmacutical grade way back in the days (when I had access to univerisity chemlabs. no, didn’t make it, but knew a guy,,,) Shrooms on occasion, Seriously considering DMT of late¤. The alternative to Psychs is alcohol: readily available, but dangerous in the quantities needed to shut off the words. And not entirely effective either. At low levels, it only undoes the filters and I get chatty as FUCK! Brudda B and J can tell you how I ran an hours long Anti-Religion monologue at camp one time,,, Apologies brothers,,, I think I needed another triple shot to shut my ass up.
I don’t know what others experiance, but I hear the words die off, and the symbols those words replaced come to the foreground. Symbols that can be understood at levels words mask. I don’t ‘get high’: I attain a clarity I fail to reach in other ways. I have reached it during meditation on occasion, but the psychs get me there everytime. (and of course, some are better at it than others, and each ‘colors’ the effect in different ways. Shrooms make me more intune with emotional states, LSD takes me somewhere more spiritual. I hear DMT is even more ‘real’ )
And words,,, What a damned virus that separates the humans into tribes. Word ‘a’ in language “A” might have zero translation in Language “B” , and this is not uncommon at all. Cultures don’t operate in identical ways and some words that work ‘here’ don’t work anywhere else, and no amount of defining can make them work, or muddies the whole concept into meaninglessness. (*and the whole ‘lost in translation’ thing is why I side-eye formalized religions)
Words. spoken tongues. We created symbols to record the words in our heads so that the word virus could be sent to our progeny in the future. A good thing and a bad thing as can be seen in how we climbed out of ‘banging rocks together at the cave mouth’ to current day civilization.
But we never left the animal in us behind. in fact, that part of our brain still runs quite a bit of our daily lives. And that part our brain is what TPTwB know how to manipulate to their advantage The fear factor, cluttered with words designed to keep that fear cranked to 11. Shut the internal dialogue down and the animal mind can sort out the chafe and see ‘No danger’, and one can calm down. THEY don’t want us calmed down, they need us on the edge of our seats so they can maintain control. We stop freaking out, running for the latest greatest escape purchase, and we start to see through the bullshit. The bullshit that makes this world a frellin mess that benefits a (self)chosen few.
There is a reason I live alone on a hill in the middle of the armpit of KY. SILENCE. put the phone aside for awhile. and I can tone down the words some. SOME. I need help shutting them off. But I can alleviate the noise just by setting the phone down (usually leaving it plugged in, in the truck.) and getting away from it. There may come a day where I say to hell with it, Retire from the world at large and leave the phone on the shelf, unplugged and let it die, let the subscription plan expire, and UNPLUG ME from the matrix.
OMG, let me tell you, that sounds like HEAVEN to me right now. I can’t do that currently. I must be ‘reachable’ in this modern world.
And that right there is part of the problem, ain’t it? We are ALWAYS reachable now. Not like when we were growing up, and the phones were chained to the walls, not chained to us by ‘essential tool’ status. Where we could go DAYS without using a phone, but could tell you, without need of a rolodex or notebook, any phone number of someone we knew, or that of the local pizza joint that still delivered at 1am.
When AT&T started selling Cellphone plans back in the 90’s, I jumped on board fast. And it was a game changer. But that game changer evolved into a monster over the last 20 years. Even in the early aughts, when they were still ‘just phones’, not internet connected ‘lifelines’, we didn’t have the fourth monkey.
(and I’m pointing three fingers back at myself as I am looking into a phone while I type this out on a bluetooth keyboard.)
That fourth monkey, may not see hear or speak to anyone, but the dialogue in his head is not all his. THOSE are the words I want shut off. Not just the words that aren’t mine, but all of them so I can figure out which belong and which need purged.
more laters,,, its a long weekend after a weak week, and I will have plenty of time for wild thoughts to percolate to the surface.
Love y’all
LLLLL!
(, ‘)
¤ let me clarify: psychedelics are a rarity for me. Decades apart in usage. Definitely NOT an addiction issue.
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I got my first cell in 1994, a Sony, and it seems every 2 to 3 years since I have to get a new one because they just don’t last any longer.
About 15 years ago I ditched the “Plan” stuff and got a Tracfone (Samsung) from the HSH TV shopping show for about $125. It comes with 1500 mins, texts, and 1500gb of something I can’t remember right now.
2 weeks ago the battery swole up and I ordered another one. In the process I messed it up and now the phone don’t work. Ordered a new Samsung and guess what? You have to have a working phone to use in order to get the new phone to work. So i’m gonna have to pry my wifes phone from her cold dead fingers. I’ve been burned out on all technology for some time now. All of it seems to be a huge, tiresome time sink.
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Been at that tiresome level with computers since my last impotent Dwarf did the Blue screen of death on me with several gigs of memory of a book on it.
As for the phone, mine is a monthly plan ‘pay as I go’ no contract through China Mart. unlimited data and text and 30GB hotspot a month. I could go a little cheaper, but I use the hotspot for when Iam on the Mac (impotent dwarves replacement) Mostly for the now defunct (mothballed really) podcast thing.
Agree though, especially with everything turning to subscription services, Pay to play seems the norm now and I don’t like that setup at all. and needing a live phone to swap into a new one is a PITA, I keep my old phone alive for that very purpose, though I don’t use it for anything. Just sits desk drawer and occasionally gets thrown on charge to keep the battery. Found out the hard way when I sank one of my phones in the lake: replacing is easy if its a swap, PITA if ‘in the raw’.
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I am still in resistance to a smart phone. I’m on my fourth flip phone now lol. My wife keeps insisting that I get a smart phone though. Like I’d carry that big assed thing around all the time. Shit I break my flip phones so much , that it always just sits there beside the TV remote. So actually I rarely ever have a phone on me. Believe me the world doesn’t like me doing that, saying they can’t get ahold of me. I tell them to just messenger or send me an email, and I’ll get back to them sometime soon . As I do check the internet stuff in the am coffee time, then when I come in for lunch and again in the evening . The world bitches that I’m so difficult to git hold of. Tough,… my life, my rules of engagement eh.
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Tune out as far as you can. i do slip here and there. Pick one day a week. i prefer saturday. It does help and makes a difference.
i also have a few minutes each morning of some what alone time. First and foremost, ‘ Studying a few passages of His Word, Just He and i(very little i.) Attempting to learn His ways and His message outside of the wood and concrete jungle that the world has created. me son also leaving for work ( i enjoy this time also, saying our farewells etc. Dog will want out, short walk. All is good.
Surely you can back away from the world for one day? Stop looking at the black box of doom every few minutes. What did we used to do and think about before all this world of “KNOWLEDGE?”
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He warned us of this Tree of ‘knowledge’ way back in the begining. i think we should be even more aware of this in these days!
Have a good day, brother.
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things were summed up quite well in a meme I found on Sarahs site: We are drowning in a sea of information with very little wisdom to be found.
my filters need cleaned out now and again, hence my desire to ‘lose the words’. ALL words, just base symbology. I feel closest to the creator/universe/IS/ The All, whatever ‘word’ you choose to apply to the higher power, when I can lose the constant barrage of words in the world.
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An interesting point to bring up seeing how I am looking at losing the words in me head. BUT,,, Its also one in serious contention between early Christians and the Gnostics. Check that out sometime. I know you don’t follow my thinking on such things, but I think you would find the dive informative and reinforcing of what you think/feel.
I can tell you this one thing. EVERY Quantum scientist over the last 20 years started as an athiest and became serious followers of Christianity or some variation of it, usually within the first year of deep research. SO, They see something and only one thing answers it (or at least one thing in common circulation.)
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FYI, my comments got mixed up,, first comment on other commentary was meant as reply to this comment . WP delenda est!
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