Black coffee blues/Hallows eve

Just a funk of feelings this AM,,, Can’t describe it, probably something to do with last post, conversations at J.O.B., world at large, who knows,,,, Just this ‘gah, don’wanna’ feeling that is pervading my psyche today.

Black coffee Tuesday, All Hallow’s Eve,,, or Halloween to normal peeps,,, I don’t play the dress up thing for this date, but I do observe it, more in the pagan way,,, I leave it at that for now. Won’t see any Trick or Treaters here, we never do,, this hill is scary dark on cold Hallows eve nights, even with a waning full moon (which makes it look even scarier) Toss in cousins occasional bon fire and you would think the Druids of auld were holding rights up here or something,

Tonight I honor those long gone from this mortal coil,,, Remembrance, and pleas for guidance of my ancestors,

it does help,,,,

and with the world looking more and more like its entering the fourth (or fifth) round of Crusades,,, guidance is asked for whole-heartedly. Where do we go from here?

The world will carry on as it always does, people will continue doing the same old stupid shit they always do, but my pleas are more “how do I navigate this mess and come out better for it?” I can’t fix the world, and wouldn’t if I could: people don’t like meddlers,,,, BUT, I CAN fix me and even now, I know I am still broken in ways that I hide from the world in general. I’m only human after all,,,

Gonna let this meloncholy percolate today, then shuffle it off for later. Can’t let it rule my world, but gotta let it out everyonce in a while or it builds pressures that cause issues.

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