Goals not resolutions

I may be ‘resolved’, but these are not resolutions, they are stepping stone goals to other larger goals, and some of them are actually quite easy, just require mucho patience.

Bills.   Easy enough, some are recurring and will always be there (phone car insurance, etc.  Others have utilities, me notta so much.   Off grid advantage (but you pay that bill upfront in the building of it,,,)

Stop adding to the debt,    Also easy: just stop buying shit!!!  (more discipline,,,,  )

Get to the point where what you have been paying on the debt accumulates in the account and put it aside.  ( I already “pay myself” that 10%, this would be in addition to,,,)

And look elsewhere for that money making thing.   Thats the big-un.   If I play it right, I come out ahead on all accounts and my spirit will find some peace with the whole scene.

I kept my first goal alive today; “Shut my mouth and roll with it”, and didn’t have to bury a body to accomplish it.   No one caught a tonguelashing, nor did I allow the STOOPID to overwhelm me.

BUT

I most definitely need to get away from here.

“You are the average of the five people you most congregate with”

I need to spend more time with my friends, and away from the people here; I don’t congregate with them, I work with them, but I can FEEL the drawdown when I am around them.).  I just don’t understand how someone can make so many mistakes, beg for help from God, literally on his knees DAILY, even at work, then turn around and do the same stoopid ass shit AGAIN, that night and NOT SEE HOW INSANE HE IS ACTING.*  

I may be ‘begging for help’, but at least I am going through the mechanics of MAKING CHANGE to ease that process forward.   I may not like the exercise things that one needs to lose wieght, but I DO THEM, because to not do them and expect to ‘change’,,,,,   I DO get bored as hell playing on the ergometer every night, but I kick up the jams and keep at it, because I WANT to be ready for the race season, not sucking vacuum behind some one that HAD made the effort to be ready.

AND

I want my life to change for the better and doing something about that TOO.   

Tomorrow is New Years Eve.   ITs feeling like flippin spring time around here this week since our dip into the arctic freezer last weekend (61 out at 5:30,,,,) and this is supposed to stick with us till around next weekend, when the cold starts to creep back in.  No plans for this weekend, but I WILL be at the FOSTERGETTOGETHER next weekend as we all bring in the new year a week late.  ITs the only way we can all get together and not violate fams and other obs.  We are a patchwork group, but We has fun and actually LIKE each other, no fake stoopid posturing. I’ll have something up soon towards the New Year that is fast approaching,    Dunno what we have in store for the upcoming, and while I have some guesses, aint’ none of which are pretty, I am trying to keep that positive attitude because I need it INSIDE ME, or all of the opening parts of this post are moot.

* and said dude tries to ‘convert’ me every so often,,,   LOL.   Agnostic dood, not heretic,,,   with a little pagan and Buddhist tossed in for good measure,,,  AND I probably know the bible better than he does because its obvious he doesn’t know “GOD helps those that help themselves” or at least does not understand the concept,,,   (prolly grew up with Let Go, Let GOD!!!  )