Damn the notnews

After my last post yesterday, that was my take. I was in such a shit-mood, I started questioning literally everything. My motivations, my goals, even my self esteem.

Why?

Because, as I said in that last post, they want us to feel worthless and weak. They do this so they can win without need of going through the troubles Hitler and Stalin and Mao went through. Heck, I even think the whole Corona-chan shitte is part of the plan to wipe out a large percentage of the pop with a plausible deniability clause imbedded in it. (And its not working very well, hence the ratcheting up of the rhetoric and blatant lies)

I turned everything off and started writing, not on the Mac, but pad and paper writing, which is what I do when I need to hit all parts of my psyche. Admittedly, my being unemployed (by choice) isn’t helping my self esteem issues either, but thats an internal dialogue I’m slowly winning. All of the hyperbole of Kabul, the fringe response from a bullshit administration, the same admin that is directly responsible for the destruction of society (and they are destroying our society, but then, WE have been letting them,,,)

I had to step back and ask myself; “How does whats happening in Kabul directly effect YOU ?” And the short answer is; It doesn’t, unless I let it.

And it was effecting me as shown by my beginning to question my own premises. I’ll break it down for ya,,,

Know what YOU need in your life. (Health, home, happiness)

Effect change for the better that effects that first premise.(exercise, companionship, etc)

Everything else is bullshit. Full stop, end discussion, Peer-ee-odd!!!!

Yes, there are times where whats going on in the world will have direct effects on a bodies premises. Usually because a tiny majority of quantum shadows hold a different world view than you do (scamdemic lockdowns as example) but, unless you are an serious investor, the likelihood of a Wallstreet meltdown effecting you will be minimal compared to the guy with all his livelihood wrappped up in Wallstreet. You’ll ‘feel it’ down stream, but while said dood is jumping out a window, your life will carry one with barely a ripple. I’m quite certain that the people of Kabul are in shock and terror right now, and I send them prayers, but what is reality for them is nothing in my reality.

Now that could change in a heartbeat or two if our current Fraudulent admin decides they are done pulling strings, hoping we will fall in line, and start pulling triggers instead. Yeah, then the game changes. But we aren’t there yet. (Why not, I find myself flabbergasted to answer. We shoulda started shooting back in November IMO,,,) (woulda, coulda, shoulda. Water under the bridge now.) But right now, in MY here and now, I need to figure out how to effect a move, what I will take with and what will sell/donate/trash, and as Jung said, “empty my cup” for the next chapter.

Moved here to learn lessons, frustration from lessons learned but feeling stuck. Feel stuck due to anchors I BUILT.

Time to cut the lines and let the currents move me, but I am captain of this vessel and I choose the currents to travel. And the currents that have been trying to snag me are NOT the currents I would choose.