(warning: this post was written over several days, no real point up front.)

Y’all know my take on the quantum realms interacting with the physical realms that most people happily call reality it (it ain’t, but)  

I’ve been known to, in private conversation, to talk about ‘The Collective” and I am not going all Marxist in my thinking when I discuss this.   That “Big C” in my book is more akin to a God or some higher power,,,    And in my theory, is composed of particles of each of us, every single swinging richard that sucks atmo on this water covered rock that circles a two-bit star in an outer arm of this particular galaxy (one of many galaxies),,,   Parts of each and everyone of us makes up the collective.   We have no control over what that part does,,, well, not directly that is: we do have some control over it: by how we live and what we believe, but where it goes from there is not ours to decide.  

and with the collective being made up from peices from everyone else as well,,, what you get is a homogenized mess of thinking,,,

NOW,,, watching some videos from all the different factions that are making talking points in this krazed fucked up world we live in, I can see why my thinking is so damned fucked up right now.    I watch one, and the guy is going on and on about “the lies that they wouldn’t call out” and he wasn’t talking about Biden,,,, 

I hear the same thing from both sides.   THE EXACT SAME THING and yet no one is willing to sit the fuck down, and TALK,,,  they want thier point of view broadcast as widely as possible and no discussion  or debate (REAL debate, not those shams that the MSM put out and call debates.)  

Divorce seems inevitable.

Last night, while coming up through lucidity, Horrors came to the front.   Dunno if its just my Sub trying to figure out a “What if” or was precognitive/predicitve.    I was in a building, not anywhere familiar, when a shock wave rocked the ground and tossed the contents of the building.   MUCH bigger than conventional HE type booms, and definitely not naturallly seismic in origin,,, and then the atmospheric shock wave hit and it was obvious that we had been nuked.

Apologies for the digressions,,, lots of thinks, getting spread out over days, and my world and mind (same thing,,,) are not exactly coherent right now.

That collective mentality,,,, Look around you, how many people do you see on the day to day, that ‘ain’t quite right in the head’.   How many people are wandering around our little planet on psychotropics?  or mood stabilizing drugs?  Why is one of the number one prescribed meds in this country Xanex?   If you think you are feeling off, maybe its because ‘the Collective Mind’ is  drugged up and confused as well.   

as well as mal-educated in most of the younger versions.    Can’t say how many ‘public educated’ grads I bump into that have ZERO clue about some of the most mundane things.  And many can’t read cursive writing after graduation,,,,   Additionally, most act as drones: can’t do a damned thing without being told what, how, when, and need babysat through the whole process,,, How did we get here?

Human Nature.     Humans always want to take the path of least resistence,,, Hell, electricity wants to do the same thing so I can’t say human nature is ‘unnatural’,,,,   Laws of Entropy apply, even on societies.

We’ve gotten lazy,

no,,, let me  restate that

We’ve gotten LAZIER,,,,   and its always someone elses problem to deal with.   We absconded our duties to each other in pursuit of self interest.   There was a time, in this country, where we self policed our streets.   A criminal caught, would be held for judgment by the elders and may be pillaried or put into stocks(or worse) in the public square.   The example made for all to see.   The example that the parent could show the child.   We hide our criminals behind walls now, and they are glorified in art these days.    (leaving the fact that Trumped is now considered a felon, seeing that most of the charges are bogus and misrepresented, or even based on laws so fresh, the ink hadn’t dried on them, being applied as if there were no statute of limitations,,,   That whole situation was so blatantly “Weaponized Politics” it would make Hitler blush.)  

Ethics aren’t taught in schools (or they are, but the ones being taught now are warped and twisted and just ‘wrong’ on so many levels,,,)  Most parents have left education to the teachers, but have no idea what the kids are being taught; and no, that is not a new trend, but has become an evolutionary one, as the parents now, their parents were much the same way,,,   As a society, we ‘trusted’ where we should have been on alert.

We got lazier.   Each generation letting go a little more of what we should have held tight,

and its not all our fault.   We were never taught.  Those things stopped being taught when the schooling left the home and went generic.  A little here, a little there and “Progress”,,,,

I get to the point these days, where I just don’t see anything “I” can do,,, I teach as I can: occasionally here, often when I get the ear of someone local,

and yet, more often that nihilistic ‘what does it matter’ keeps rearing its head and want to load the boat with camp gear and head over the horizon. never look back.  

that way lies death.  Death in societal eyes, possibly death in other ways, much more final.

I care

I stick to it, despite the depressions and angst.   

I keep learning, hoping there is some puzzle peice I keep missing, one that locks the whole together and brings unity where there is only division now.(on that note, yeah, I still have liberal leanings, but I also have conservative learnings: that Utopia AIN’T all that.   But I do know that there are ways to live in peace, and that in most all cases in history of such, it was by getting rid of GOVERNMENT.  (Think the Christmas of 1917 with Brits, French and Germans playing soccer together, before returning to the trenches trying to kill one another.  Government was left in the mud that day, and those boys knew a peace, for a moment.)

I see now why Larken Rose has gone quiet over the last few years.

You can preach, and preach and preach, but the choir already knows it, and the congregation ain’t listenin’.(or present in most cases.)

I’m one person.  In the macroscopic level of reality (the one we think of as such) I am a brief spark of energy in a universe infinitely large.   Imagine if you will, the photon of energy projecting from the screen you are reading on, hitting your retina: That brief spark could represent any one of us in the big picture of the Universe.  

Hell, that may be all we are,,, one brief flash of thought in the neurons of God,,,,

So what does it matter that a bullet took off the top of someone’s right ear?   What does it matter that some grand scheme to steal an election, or even outright cancel one, will kick of a civil war in this country?   or that the power mongers hidden behind veils of secrecy are trying to find a way to burn the world, in such a way that they can point the fingers at others in blame: to maintain thier positions, you understand,,,,

Oh, I could keep going,,, my thinks of late are even darker than those written here.   

sigh.

It seems so pointless some days.   I keep getting up to make the donuts, pay the bills and put one foot in front of the other, and yet I feel like I am sliding downhlll into an abyss of despair, pain and loss.

I feel like I am going flat NUTZ some days.    It’s days such as yesterday, when I can get away from all the ‘worldly problems’ and plant my feet on something that was there long before me, and will be there long after I am dust, that I can see just how pointless the games we focus on, are.

“We are all here to learn a lesson or to have fun” and apparently I am here to learn, since I certainly am not having fun.   BUT, what that lesson may be??? not a frillin’ clue.    (or is it “figure out that none of this is real, so go have some fuckin’ fun, dumbass!”)

keep livin’ laughin’ and loadin’.

Nothing at all wrong with the world at large,,, the problem is much more ‘individual’,,,,

That last is from the water of the place I visited,,,,  I could camp there for a week and be content, and believe you me, TEMPTED!!!!!   Through the week the lake is danged near abandoned and I would be quite content just sitting on that little spit of land and doing nothing but get re-acquainted with ‘Mama’,,,,

Been feeling way to isolated and disconnected lately.   And the world events are not helpin’ me any.   And why I keep leaving this danged phone behind me (chose not to this trip since I wanted some pics to remind me later. BUT, once I get home, the thing sits on the desk as I go about my routines, WITHOUT IT!!!

And I have to say, I am KNOW I am not alone in how things are hitting me.    There is a new term running around

“The Great Enshittenment”

says it all, no?

anywhoos,,, Hope you can vicariously enjoy my escape today,,, It was seriously needed on my part,,, and I could have stayed there for days if had planned accordingly*****sigh******   I didn’t, obviously,,,   mehbe next time,,, like around fall when the lake REALLY gets quiet,,,,

ONE!

Phone going off in short order, boat getting loaded as soon as I hit Publish, going to go to the lake and find me an atoll far from the crowds (though not some of the fast movers, but they tend to keep thier distances.)

and DECOMPRESS.

The more I read, the more I see that nothing is what it seems, and that there are forces at work that are playing games for ‘all the cards’

and they are playing both sides of the table so that they can’t lose.

Only losers in this game are US: the tax slaves of the plantation that “THINK” we have choices.

Ugly thoughts in my head, sick and tired of people right now (happens when I am crew lead for too many days,,,) and in need of some ground and center time.

Can’t fix the world to my liking, (and why would I when there are 8Billion other individuals with their ideas of ‘fixed’ ) but I can fix my little corner of the Matrix to fit my comfort zone.

Fact, I just need to adjust the realm between my ears, so that ‘None of that’ swings my moods so sharply.  (taking a hint from BCE here)

Did I mention I am hating other people right now?   yeah,, that ain’t helpin my G&C right now,,,,

More laters,,,

Keep on livin’ laughin’ and loadin’     I’m personally workin’ on that laughin’ part.

thoughts from BCE Read and think about it,

THEN

From C.J. Hopkins

and a little quote from such;

Imagine, if the authorities in charge of a prison instigated a war between two prison gangs, who were actually fighting for dominance in the prison. The gangs are real. The war is real. When it is over, one of the gangs will be dominant among the prison population. However, everyone will still be in prison, probably under a state of lockdown, which is what happens after a prison riot.

Look to the southern border,,,, some of a wall, but not complete yet.

Look to the north, a gaurdian state that is more anti-individual than here.

look to the east and west,,, Protective bodies of water, that also serve as barriers to escape to all but the most intrepid and daring.

then look about the world,,,,   Where would you go anyway?

Dark minded thinks today: working on bringing some lightness and wonder into the brainium of mine,,,

more laters

maybe much laters

keep on livin’ laughin’ and loadin’

It’s only been 4 days, not even that really if you count the hours since ‘Shots Fired!’,,,

But the narrative has taken a distinct spin, one out of control of the lever pullers.   I don’t really do much on the social media sites, but the couple I dip my toe into, are all taking on a serious “NOT LEFT” air, and those that are still singing from the chior of Leftism are taking a shellacing in commentary.

Funny how that works.   You poke a Bear, ignore the growls, keep poking said Bear; Then when said Bear rips your fucking face off, you cry how unfair it all is. (looking at the events from 2014 to present day in Ukraine as example, but applies to The Home Front as well.   The sleeping Giant is not sleeping any more,,,,,)

People are pissed off.   And everything that side of the aisle is doing is only adding more fuel to the fire.   Calling for ‘cooling off’ is only adding to the angst: I’m hearing a lot of “We have been begging to be left alone for years, F*ck those rat bastards if they think I am going to tone it down NOW!!!”

And I can’t say’s I blame a one: We have been under the gaslights for years now, more than just those gaslights since 2016.  Those are just the more obvious ones these days.   

Tellin’ ya right now, if they attempt a repeat of the 2020 steal, the gloves of the NOT LEFT are going to come off: the level of ‘Righteously Pissed’ is that high IMO.

What would Henry Bowman do? comes to mind,,, Lots and lots of lone wolves out here in flyover land, lots and lots of people that lost livelihood and family over the Covid Debacles, lots and lots of people that have been on the recieving end of the Chevron Defense that is now null and void,

and lots and lots of patriots that have been sitting aside, silent as the Saxon, ice in their hearts, anger stewing into a concoction of destruction, just waiting to be unleashed.

THAT can is about to bust its seams if THE LEFT keep trying to hold onto what is not rightfully thiers to claim.  THEY ARE OUR EMPLOYEES, NOT OUR LEADERS,

and they had best start remembering that little detail. (and I would add that those in the GOP-e had better remember that as well.  That little club doesn’t exactly have a brilliant track record either,,,,)

Satyrday was a tipping point, but where the tip is aimed is anyones guess, but I feel strongly that whatever happens over the next few months/years, the historians will point back to July13 as the the day this country crossed the Rubicon,,,,

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as is, there is far too much information and speculation flowing to make anything but rough guesses of what really went down.  Conspiracy? Competence failures?  Communication breakdowns?

all of the above?

Only one thing is solidly obvious: whatever happened on Satyrday, was blowout from years of Name-calling the Conservative side of this country everything negative and evil, with no basis in reality.   There are enough mushy-headed individuals, with zero critical thinking skills and ethics broken by the educational system and the breakdown of our family values (thanks again to “Progressive movements”)  Such language will create the sort of monsters that think climbing up on a building and trying to eliminate ‘Hitler2.0’ is just another day at the gaming console.

Said dude from Satyrday found out there is no auto-regenerate system built in, and there is a family that is grieving for loss of their private hero,  in no small part because shooty-dude had no clue how his actions would reverberate

I won’t speculate on if dude was a broken wind up toy of some agency. (and we may never know anyways)   What I do know,

They missed

and now the anger is growing.   Still very reined in, but growing.   When the Saxon hates should send chills down anyone that held that “never trump” thought and shoved it down others throats.

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Take this addendum with a grain of salt.   After I posted the above, I took a bit to meditate (getting really good at it too, drop into sedate mode fast these days),,, While in that state, my thoughts didn’t revolve around the destruction of things to come or thoughts of what might turn out like,,,,

instead, I started seeing a parade of young’uns,,, little kids, all smiles and happy faced cherubs, many of ’em,,,,   This is NOT my usual type of ‘Vision’ while meditating.  Usually my ‘visions’ are of non-word visualizations of my day.

I think that was something from the quantum saying ‘this too shall pass and the world will be as young again’   Dunno, but it filled my spirit with calm and joy; that this is part of the plan and the future generations are going to be just fine.

Don’t let the troubles get you down.  Stick to your guns (literally and metaphorically) and when the pRogs wanna call for ‘cool down’ or ‘you need to temper your anger’, REMIND THEM, that this is all from YEARS of thier bullshit, and that Trump and a bullet are just analogies to the problems they have been creating.

keep on livin’, laughin’ and loadin’.

WAY TOO MUCH SPECULATION

not enough facts getting out

YET,,,,

But then, Kennedy was shot in the early sixties and we still don’t know FOR FACT what the really-deal was with all of that.  

MY TAKE, (YMMV)

This was just the first (second???  Seem to remember another attempt in 2016) and they are going to do ALL THEY CAN to make sure that man is a corpse before he EVER gets to sit behind Resolute again,,,,

And those that are still fence-sitting should start asking one question,,,

WHY?

Why do they want that man dead, so badly?  

Because the facade is busted and failing, and if/when Trumped takes the office, shit is gonna hit the fan and accountability will move back in (one  can hope!)

Not gonna dwell to much on things, the accellerator is stuck to the floorboards and the rev limiter is broken,,, Grab your popcorn and

keep on livin’, laughin’ and loadin’.

Keep on livin’

Keep on laughin’

You do NOT have enough ammo!