Decorum

So many times, I have read the writings of others, and asked myself, “did they really mean to dump the emotional wastebasket in public?”.  

I’m an introvert, public displays of emotional outbursts are the equivelant of being projectile vomited on during an intimate moment.  Gross only begins to describe the mental ‘Ick’ such thoughts instill in me.

Keep that in mind for what I’m going to say next. (no, I am not doing some emotional outburst on you.) 

My research of late has me feeling more than a bit on the lonely side, and I want to talk about it: I choose not to here for reasons best left out in detail.   Generally, they are not ‘mainstream’ and they can be quite controversial amongst the devoted.    People have died for these thoughts in the past, and I tread with caution in voicing them.    And that is as far as I am going to go on that,,,

But that is the explanation for my silence of late.   Wanting to talk, but knowing that what I have to say is likely going to drive 99% of what little audience I do have, Away: If not out right attacking me in comments.

Somethings seen, can not be unseen.   But that doesn’t mean I need to evangalize either; that path leads to suffering even greater than my current solitude. (self inflicted in most ways)

Heck, that solitude is what led me down this path.     Introspection is a mother of a path to follow, and I understand why so many avoid it.  Its not comfortable, nor is it always ‘nice’.   Truth rarely is.

The truth is not kind, and you said neither am I.

I’m gonna stop right there before I start going off on tangents that piss every one and their brother off.   I’ve already deleted two paragraphs that would have started that process.    

live

love

laugh

learn

LOAD cuz this illusion is damned persistent and annoying.