Lessons,,,,

I’m on the recieving end of a lesson right now.  I can feel it.

First, had some ‘issues’ that made last week a true drag.   Big fight that came about trying to do the right thing.   Getting T-boned in a company truck. Mama Kat giving birth (premmies I believe) with one being still born.

Then Grizzy passed out of my ‘reality’,,,,

and same day, one of Mamakats surviving kittens passed on.   Looks to be completely accidental, Mama laid on her and she suffocated; at least that’s what I can gather from where and how she was when I found her.   And I found her because Mama was doggedly trying to move the survivor to somewhere else.   (I think she wanted the living kitten away from the dead one, but didn’t know any other option )

LOSS.   I think that is my lesson here,,, something big is coming down the pike and Universe is giving me some preliminary lessons as preperation.  

I could be wrong too.

Seriously, the loss of the kitten shouldn’t have hit me the way it did because I have zero emotional attachment to them at this stage (other than the usual humanity ‘protection of life’ bend.)

Understand this: I have no fears of my own death.   I came to grips with that many many years ago, and there are times, even now, where I ‘just wanna go home’ and leave this school of Krazy,,,,    Not suicidal, just feeling worn out.  

But seeing the innocent die so easily and without reason,,,,

LOSS, LETTING GO, STOP BEING SO ATTACHED TO A WORLD THAT IS ILLUSION/ILLUSORY.  

Changes are never permanent, but Change is.

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its time to do the J.O.B. thing.    more laters.