Man, talk about fear of livin’!!!
I don’t want to quote the article, but I will link it. And don’t ask why I went down that little side road, doesn’t matter much but I did go there and the “Ick” I picked up from the writer was thick like Alien saliva and just as caustic.
ANnnndddddddd,,,,,,,,,, it all started when I busted out in song at work today (I do that when things are getting heavy and stressful,,, don’t ask.) I started singing this song.
SO, the article in question. (Click ‘More” at the top of the page, and you’ll see the article) I guess the take I picked up from the actual lyrics is right in line with my outlook on life since my split with the EX: LIVE LIFE!!! And yah, there are some in this world that will look at that outlook as dangerous and STOOPID. Sorry, I think I would rather take risks and fail than live in a stone fortress protecting me from everything and eventually being buried within it, having never breathed the air of life.
Look at Musk and his many different games. Like his rockets. He regularly blows up/vaporizes rockets: all in the name of research. Find out what went wrong, improve the breed. Just like evolution, but on a warp speed timeline. And the man is getting closer to getting off this damned rock, unlike some four letter agency that would shutter an entire project if things went south/blooiee. Same agency is getting left in the dust by other countries and PRIVATE INDUSTRY, and still rakes in BILLIONS of taxpayer dollars and hasn’t shown a decent return on it in ages. (with the exception of the Mars Rovers, which far exceeded anyones expectations, thanks to the scouring winds of Mars being able to clean off the solar panels and keep them alive longer. Something NO ONE predicted,,,)
Looking closer to home. Yeah, Introvert I am, but many that meet me would have no clue of it. Published writings, built my own home, never settled down,
Shooting star? No, but I sure don’t hide behind stone walls and cringe at the idea of living a life either.
I pity the author of that article. If there is any symblance of the writing to their actual life,,,
She was looking kinda dumb with her finger and her thumb in the shape of an L on her forehead,,,,
said author needs to look in a mirror and introduce themself to ‘the real loser’.
God is not in the temple, God is not in the mosque,,,
And that quote from a video set the mood for the day,,, NOTE: not saying there isn’t a God, only that the symbols do not equate to the being.)
who do you want to be today?
Lets trip down that rabbit hole, (caution, one hour plus, BUT, it will suck ya in fast and in fun ways.)
We all know this reality isn’t real, we have memories that ‘don’t fit’, things sometimes happen that aren’t explainable, not really.
I still have a dog in my life, that came to me after I looked to the skies and said, “I just wanna a dawg!” after holding a conversation with a scorpian under the Texas sun in July.
I get frustrated. I know this ‘reality’ is malleable as putty in a sculptors hands. Seen it. And yet, those little quarks like funky Carbs on mowers that don’t wanna function correctly without ‘work’, or differentials on trucks that whine and wheeze,,,, They sure make this ‘reality’ feel solid enough, don’t they.
Guess I am not some Yogi master yet,,,,
ROFLMAO,,, Yeah,,, as if,,,,,
(one can have goals though,,,,)
For some reason, the water didn’t call to me this week. Went,,, just no desire to paddle,
And I can say why,,, I didn’t want to be out there alone this week. I wanted to share it, (not with the burnout,,, he wouldn’t appreciate it correctly,,,) Because of that, the draw just wasn’t there. That’s alright, I will have other days where that is the ONLY thing I want: Away from every pendulating richard suckin atmo, silence except for paddle splash and the shoosh of a hull through waves, or hiss of rain on lake surface: me, alone with my thoughts, and little between me and Universe to interfere.
And life is good, my end of it anyways. I looked at the bank account and saw numbers that give me a warm fuzzy feeling. Nothing mindblowingly stellar; more like “Cushion”,,, (and this gets brought up in that video above, money brings it’s own problems. I know it, BTDT on a small level and remember the stress levels. ) yeah, even with the idea that I am going to be spending mad money on Buffalo here soon, not fretting about making the ends meet. (and if things go sideways, won’t worry about it then, and won’t be the only one. Will be far more worried about keeping mine MINE, and staying alive, then to worry about credit scores or some banker far away getting antsy about his failing numbers.)
yup, even without the water time this week, feeling pretty good about things.
Now if I could just learn to manipulate this reality to ‘fix’ carburators and wornout differentials, with my mind,,, not just tools and hands, (and money,,,)
Who do YOU want to be today?
I choose ME. (but who am I? LOL)
Keep on livin’
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