Mindless ramble podcast
No intro/outro music, just me jabberin’way,,,, Enjoy,,, Mirrored on my sub stack
Pulled the trigger, now, to see where the rounds land.
I’ve already mentioned that I was getting a new ‘puter, and it is on its way. Mentioned the urge to do a podcast thing, so pulled the trigger and bought a microphone, QUALITY microphone, so that my voice sounds better. I played with the microphones on the laptops and phones, and I would need to play some serious games to be comfortable throwing those into the mix.
So what do I sound like?
in Answer to Sammi: no, not Mike Rowe, I wish! LOL. But I have been told more times than not, my voice ‘carries weight’ and is always clear. What can I say, the lessons of grands struck deep: Clarity, enunciation, sibilance. Mumbling is anethema!!!
But un-interestingly enough, my voice carries ‘other’ traits as well: everyones does. When I am talking to my kids, its a different timbre, when I am speaking at work, another timbre. SO, what you will hear in my ‘cast’, may not be what you would hear when we were sharing a drink around a fire, and definitely NOT what you would hear if I were discussing with Mamakat why she isn’t permitted another helping of DedKow at 10:30pm.
I hate to tease, but its just something that you’ll have to wait for, since the gear isn’t in my hands, yet. The New to me Lappy is languishing in USPS hands currently. The mIcrophone is retained in a Zon warehouse, awaiting some small droid for fulfillment.
And I will need to play a bit. No Pitch Correction, just EQ and some compression, maybe a little reverb to bring the room alive (my house is acoustically dead, for the very reason ‘I want to hear it unfiltered and unadulterated’, but that makes vocal recording ‘flat and lifeless’.)
Yeah, I’ve done studio mixing as well as live. I prefered live since it was like combat without the bullets: Exciting and you only get one shot: fuck it up and you were on a plane going home.
and its been many a year since I have heard me own voice through a monitor,,, (Studio monitors or ‘cans’, not the tinny little speakers on my lappy, and I can’t stand the way I sound through those. Never have.)
Heres something I learned about my hearing. Its really not as much damage to the eardrum, as much as narrowing of the ear-canal. They call it Surfers ear and it can be treated (Surgery to open the canal back up). BUT, it makes my internal sensing of speaking sharper even though it makes hearing the world around me soft and fuzzy.
As a way of showing you what I mean, speak in a normal tone in a quiet room. NOW, repeat what you just said, but with your ears covered. Do you hear the difference? The second exhibit is how I HEAR,,,, Unconsciously, I become more soft spoken (because I think I am yelling.). That also causes me to speak differently than I did back when My Ears were good enough for my (then) Job.
I’ll be retraining myself in speaking again, as well as tweaking the knobs.
excuses? Uh-uh, letting you know that I AM working on this but it may be a bit. Fact is, I was rehearsing ‘my voice’ earlier today, and told myself “If you don’t do this now, you never will, and then you will always wonder’. I don’t want that sort of regret in my life, and in one sense, this is an extenuation of a dream I had when I was touring (and radio was still a thing, Think Limbaugh and such.)
Little story for ya: I even went to a broadcasting school at one point, not as a student, but as a potential student, and was asked by the Dean “Why would you want to step back to learning when you already know all of this stuff?” I knew the gear, I knew how to verbally read; not that deadpan ‘reading in front of the class’ that you recall as a kid, but putting emotion and drive behind the words AS I read them, without needing to rehearse!!!
That one question cut the cord for broadcasting (you need a license.) and propelled me further into live audio. Had I stuck to my guns, I could have aced that school, and had that license, and done ‘something’,
only, HINDSIGHT, right?
Like the writing thing: Self Publishing will likely not pay off at the same rate as getting picked up by a major publisher could, Self publshing music, SAME. Podcasting,,,
Luck of the dice, place and persistence. joe Rogan didn’t start as a Podcaster, but, how many millions was he paid recently on Spotify? He persisted through several evolutions. Mike Rowe started off selling geegaws on the Home Shopping Network (how many of us genX’ers recall that little tidbit from Cable TV?) There are bands that have never signed contracts with the labels, making damned good money on their terms, and touring the world; all because they published on Utoob. Writers that make decent livings, self-published on Zon or other avenues, yet never signed with a publisher and forced to write for the Editors personal leanings, or the publishers whim.
Time, Persistence, and maybe a toss of the dice,,,
And PROMOTION. thats the one area I have a knack at, FOR OTHERS, but rather suck at for myself. Call it vestigial vanity fear or something. I went into audio because I don’t like being on-stage, covered in the limelight, and EXPOSED, I don’t like getting my pictures taken either. Some people live for that: I cringe. Putting my words out is different somehow, but I still recoil at SELF-PROMOTION.
I used to tell the bands I worked with (when I was mixing clubs still) that “there are 30000 damned good lead guitarists, for every ONE guitar god you know the name of.” (choose your instrument, it still applies,,,,) It all comes down to self promotion and a little bit of luck.
And yet, Here I am, getting prepared to jump in, and see what happens. The big thing for me, is finding enough material to keep a monologue running for at least an hour. Anything less seems pointless to me. That was my reasoning for making this a once a week thing; Material. That might will evolve as I learn and grow,
And scrolling through podcasts on Spotify, I noted almost all of them are doing interviews, not just the big guys/gals. Even the up-n-comers are doing it. I may have to explore that option. Not interviewing celebs or such, but Joey Normal from the street sort of things. I think hearing from everyday Joe-blow about his feelings on the world at large might be more entertaining and impactful than me spouting at the mouth for an hour. I’ll have to explore that and see what I can get rolling. (fair warning to friends, I’m thinking you are my first guinea pigs for this,,,,)
I guess we all, you, me, my potential victims in interviews, get to see how this pans out.
More laters,,,, Hitting the lake since I can’t do much else on this idea just yet. Keep working that voice, talking to the fish and other wildlife. (Deer seem to like it when I talk to them, as long as I don’t get TOO close,,,,)
LIVE
LEARN
Laugh
Love
LOAD
God is not in the temple, God is not in the mosque,,,
And that quote from a video set the mood for the day,,, NOTE: not saying there isn’t a God, only that the symbols do not equate to the being.)
who do you want to be today?
Lets trip down that rabbit hole, (caution, one hour plus, BUT, it will suck ya in fast and in fun ways.)
We all know this reality isn’t real, we have memories that ‘don’t fit’, things sometimes happen that aren’t explainable, not really.
I still have a dog in my life, that came to me after I looked to the skies and said, “I just wanna a dawg!” after holding a conversation with a scorpian under the Texas sun in July.
I get frustrated. I know this ‘reality’ is malleable as putty in a sculptors hands. Seen it. And yet, those little quarks like funky Carbs on mowers that don’t wanna function correctly without ‘work’, or differentials on trucks that whine and wheeze,,,, They sure make this ‘reality’ feel solid enough, don’t they.
Guess I am not some Yogi master yet,,,,
ROFLMAO,,, Yeah,,, as if,,,,,
(one can have goals though,,,,)
For some reason, the water didn’t call to me this week. Went,,, just no desire to paddle,
And I can say why,,, I didn’t want to be out there alone this week. I wanted to share it, (not with the burnout,,, he wouldn’t appreciate it correctly,,,) Because of that, the draw just wasn’t there. That’s alright, I will have other days where that is the ONLY thing I want: Away from every pendulating richard suckin atmo, silence except for paddle splash and the shoosh of a hull through waves, or hiss of rain on lake surface: me, alone with my thoughts, and little between me and Universe to interfere.
And life is good, my end of it anyways. I looked at the bank account and saw numbers that give me a warm fuzzy feeling. Nothing mindblowingly stellar; more like “Cushion”,,, (and this gets brought up in that video above, money brings it’s own problems. I know it, BTDT on a small level and remember the stress levels. ) yeah, even with the idea that I am going to be spending mad money on Buffalo here soon, not fretting about making the ends meet. (and if things go sideways, won’t worry about it then, and won’t be the only one. Will be far more worried about keeping mine MINE, and staying alive, then to worry about credit scores or some banker far away getting antsy about his failing numbers.)
yup, even without the water time this week, feeling pretty good about things.
Now if I could just learn to manipulate this reality to ‘fix’ carburators and wornout differentials, with my mind,,, not just tools and hands, (and money,,,)
Who do YOU want to be today?
I choose ME. (but who am I? LOL)
Keep on livin’
sumpin a little different
(in honor of the holiday)
I’ve talked about my beliefs here a time or two. I would like to point you to a post by Francis first,,, GO read please
I’ve said I am more pagan than christian, and a lot of that has to do with how the Roman Catholics absconded certain holidays to ease reforming the pagan religions. Easter was spring rite, Hallows Eve was another,,, Saints day, same, you name, there is a pagan equivalant somewhere. Not going to go into that too much, just pointing out that there were some things like that in the faith that made me begin questioning the integrity of the whole.
Fact is, the whole argument is a negative assumption, not provable, not disprovable. Too many points where witnesses outnumber the written facts, but, as Francis points out in that article; those that would be writing down the events were under different constraints, different motives, different GOALS,,, Those that wrote the events as described in the bible and other records were the devote, and those that were not, might have been impelled to massage or outright quell the event ‘for reasons’,,,,
It wasn’t until I started diving into Quantum mechanics (and I am no expert by any degree, just an avid hobbiest at best) that I started to put some questions to myself that started to add up, along with the beliefs of the Christian faith to ‘THAT MAKES SENSE NOW’ There are still aspects that I take as “propaganda manipulation’ and I think I am justified in that since Religion in all its aspects is about as old as the human race is,,, some say the oldest profession ever (harlotry being the second,,,,) And why not, those that were smart enough to scare the tribal leaders, but weak enough that they needed an edge; sure, make up some mumbo jumbo about spirits that do evil if you don’t do this,,,etc etc etc,,,,
Funny how that works out to “maybe there IS a bit of truth out there”. Such as boiling water, or not eating pork, We know now why those are correct, but back in 500BC, how did the clerics of the Jews know,,, Simple observation and deduction; then twist in a bit of starry eyed reverence and make it Taboo for relgious reasons,,, Yeah, I might be putting some bias in my thinking since I hold little regard for organized religions.
More wars, death and misery have come from the various religions over time. Will again if things continue along certain paths,,,, The Crusades were never ‘finallized’ ya-know,,,,
But let me pass on all of that for a moment. Let me tell ya how I started to ‘come around.’ The whole Quantum Cloud thing started making me formulating my theory that we are “interfaces” or, to parrot a movie “Avatars” of our quantum selves, that we visit this realm for lessons, or vacation, or something, but that, due to the nature of the physical, we can’t bring all of our aspects with us, like our REAL memories. (and that explains some of the stories of very young children having “wierd memories” that they lose very quickly as they gain deeper harmony with the world around them. I know there are ‘memories’ that I have, that ‘aren’t mine’ perse,,, Things that there is no way I could have experenced the events I recall, and details that can’t be ‘explained away’. I won’t go into that here though.)
Now, we have this quantum cloud thing that is slowly being proven as fact, we know that the quantum do not ‘recognize’ time, or space like most particles and atoms, we know and have (mostly) proven and disproven many theories in quantum mechanics,
but there is one aspect that rings true across two places. One is the research itself, the other is the bible. THe deeper we look, the more we find and that rabbit hole looks to be infinitely deep. There is a quote in the bible of “the deeper you look, the more you will find ME.” (and apologies, I do not recall where that quote is ot to whom those words were intended, but I firmly recall hearing/reading them in my past. Maybe someone more learned in such things than myself can enlighten us in comments)
There is also the fact that more and more Quantum scientists, who usually start of as athiest or agnostic, become quite firmly Christian in short order,,, I don’t think that is accidental, or conspiracy, I think they find “Faith” is the ultimate answer at the end of the day,
Why? Because the more they uncover, the less the ‘rules’ work,,, Something directs those particles to do what they do (and why the search for the “God Particle’ is ongoing.) And that time and space are seemingly meaningless to the particles,,, Like Tachyons, that are ALWAYS detected BEFORE a nuclear reactor starts; almost as if it travels backwards in time,,,, There was some discussion in a group of friends about creating a nuclear war sensor using tachyon dectecton. but was shot down fast, since the detection is usually in microseconds,,, thats too short a time frame to be of use against nuclear war,,,,
Let me make a suggestion, totally hypothetical on my part. What if our history that we call ‘our history’ back to such and such a point, isn’t COMPLETE? That there is lost knowledge from long before our written histories, (and there is evidnce of this in some of the Seven wonders of the world) And that those that came before some collapse that didn’t make it thorugh to the pages we know, (like some epic flooding or something,,,) that was MUCH MORE IN TUNE with the quantum realm. Look around for the Circle of Life markings, that show up with regular frequency, all around the world, in archeology.
And what if some of that knowledge DID make it through and became religous teachings,,, such as the Chakras of asiatic medicine. We DO KNOW that the Old Testament is taken from the Torah of Jewish heritage. What we don’t know (but can make the assumption) is how much of that was orginially and STRICTLY oral traditon? and for how long? What was lost in translation? How much was INTENTIONALLY lost in translation because some group didn’t like some aspect?
No one knows. I don’t believe anyone can know because any that would be guilty of such have been dust longer than the tablets and scrolls ‘the word’ was taken from.
Keep the important stuff, cull the dregs,,, except someones definition of dregs might have held something important, that tied other things together, and the rot would spread,,,,,
And I digress,,,
What we know, and this is still growing: muscle memory is real. ‘Gut instincts/gut feelings’ are real. We know that what was thought of how the brain functions is woefully inadequate to explain what it actually does, and that its not just what is held within the cranium, but along much of that path as described in the Chakras. Either the ancients were far better at physical observation than we (YES!) or they were privy to communications with God/Creator/Author/The Cloud, that we are not.
and oh, you have no idea how that “why?” goes through my brainium in the wee darks,,,,,
Let me talk about the person that this day is in honor of, his death to be precise. Died on the cross, laid in a tomb, rose from the dead, appeared before congregations of people (supposedly world-wide by some modern peoples beliefs.) than ascended to heaven.
One thing that keeps coming back is how Christ, was not a solitary individual, but a TRINIITY,,, God, Son and the Holy Ghost. That could be another way of saying “strongly connected to the cloud” in words to convey an idea that didn’t exist at that time. Just my thoughts on that, BUT, that many many witnesses of the events prior, the miracles, then the roll out of events after death,,,, All could be explained by someone that was strongly connected to the quantum realms and able to manipulate the particles that have no respect of time or space, and that make up MATTER,,,, If I had that sort of ability, Yeah, I could make water solid enough to walk on, or ‘create’ food at will, I could see/sense illness and affect the causes of it and CURE the afflicted,,,, I could stall the separation of the quantum chord and my body, so that I could reanimate it. I would imagine the release of energy to do that would be strong enough to alter cloth so that it could form an image,,, (the shroud for those in question)
I can also see how some Groups in Power at the time would not want such word spreading to widely or at all. (the lack of records of a person of Christs’ nature by the Romans who were meticulous records keepers.) And that explains much of why the disciples were “outlaws” and treated as such when caught. And maybe Christ was able to pass on some of his ability/nature/whatever it is, on to his disciples, so that they too, could effect miracles (and were recorded as doing such in a few cases)
Maybe what he taught them was that ‘This reality isn’t real, only your thoughts are,,,,”
And that takes a HEADY amount of faith to transcend into.
So, lets make a small assumption that there is some meat on the bones of my hypothesis,,,, WHAT IS HEAVEN? WHO/WHAT IS GOD? Where does ‘Hell’ fall into this line of thinking? Start with the first one, and that one leads into the second, and THIS IS ALL MY OPINION, but it works for me and keeps my spirit/soul content,,, (faith!)
Heaven is THE CLOUD, a Cloud of Quantum material that is scattered about the universe. Its not ‘visible’, only recently been detectable, and no one knows just how big or dense or, well, nothing much known, and leave it at that. BUT, if that cloud were consolidated thoughts of creatures, than the cloud is US,,,, ALL OF US,,, some more complicated than others, some less, some more intune with things, some fast, some slow: and when I say “US”, I mean every single human, furrie, fish, plant, and rock. EVEN THE EARTH (though I have yet to figure out how that would work,,,,but Gaia does ‘vibrate’ and show long movements as if alive so to speak.) “Heaven” would then be that cloud where we combine with the group, share our experiances, whiz about the universe and do different things as different sorts of beings.
So WHO/WHAT is GOD? We are,,, even here, where we are but a miniscule part of our real selves, we make up a part of that thing called Heaven and Heaven IS God,,,, WE were created in his image, and in doing so, we took a part of him as ourselves,,,, TO ABUSE THAT IS THE WORST SIN!!!
Is that blasphemy? Probably to some, but I find peace in it, and I have used it to ‘correct’ some wayward drogues I had the ‘pleasure’ of being in close contact with. Prefacing that idea as “we are all GOD, and we need to act as such” really seemed to hit them sideways with a clue bat. That could be part of that ‘heady amount of faith’ to transcend into.
Now, What the Hell is Hell? Hmm,,,, First off, the whole idea of Hell really was what turned me off from the teachings when I was a kid. For the preacher to say “God is unbridled love” then to follow it up with “but you’ll burn in hell for,,,,,” Let me just say that a 6YO could see the fallacies and discrepencies in the teachings,,,, Now, with that in mind, I do think GOD has some way of punishing us (we punish ourselves really) and that way is, IN SOME INSTANCES, Right here,,,,, On earth,,, we get tortured, torn, destroyed mentally and spiritually, RIGHT HERE< RIGHT NOW, at least some of us do. I can think of one right now, that even though he knows the solution, can not back out of his personal Hell,,,, He may go his entire life in that Hell,,, And as a quantum being, that knows neither time nor space,,, that may seem like an eternity,,, OR even the blink of an eye, and I would imagine the CLOUD has some say in the perception. So, yeah, I think in some ways, Hell is right here, right now, and those of us that seem ‘middlin’ in pain and discomfort are in the Purgatory side of things, Learning some lesson that needs learned for whatever purpose,,,
And IMO, those purposes are to make us ‘closer to God’.
And some of us have a long road ahead to that end. Maybe even multiple trips ‘here’ to do so. (explains the reincarnation side of Eastern philosophies, no?)
I think all religions older than ‘the birth of Christ’ have some merit and are tied together in some way shape or form. Most of those after that fact are either factions of an older one, or some silliness created in a cave by some loser pedophile who was on the run,,,, Most of the modern religions (like evangligcal baptists herebouts) seem twisted to me and really buried in dogma that contradicts the purpose of a religion. My opinion, YMMV.
And I will leave you with those thoughts for the day,
((as for the “Demons” and other agents of evil,,,, All I have to say on that is “They are real” and you only need to look around to find it in action. That aspect is covered by ‘fallen angels’ and such: they are the same as us in fact, but warped maligned and dangerous to the GOOD,,,,))
Thanksgiving day thoughts
Strangely enough, there is plenty to give thanks for during this holiday season. If you are upright and breathing, and preferably, thinking for yourself: three excellent reasons to give thanks.
So why is it that TYRANNY wants to clamp down on the day, limit travel and congregation, even celebration of such an innocuous event.
Simple reason; people talk to people. Meatspace is not controllable so they intend to limit how many meet there. And they KNOW people self censor on public media sites, even in Zoom and other socially distanced meeting vehicles. (Despite one ‘Tard deciding he could jack off during such,,,, but then, he was a member of their ranks and rules don’t apply the same way, do they?)
The Deplorables are agitated, the controllers are aware of it and squelching the noise pattern as much as they can (think they can actually. In all reality, the harder they clamp down, the louder the signal gets. People are upset, and with good reason. And more and more are asking questions and waking up.) This season falls at a very tactically negative (for them) time and they are fully aware of it. Therefore they MUST demand our compliance in fear.
But like the boy who cried wolf, the warning has worn thin and pale, no longer carries the same direness, and many are already awake to the bullshit.
While “the fix is in” it isnt over with. Even now, they have to abide by certain rules and those rules don’t benefit them. If they can get through to the “win”, those rules will be annulled, and they will have full control; but they aren’t there yet. Dec 14th is when the electoral college convenes. Thats over two weeks away, and this glorious Tday means people who are awake will be congregating with people asking questions. The ranks of the awake will grow. Demand for the RINOs to do their damned job PROPERLY will grow, the seeds of discontent are rooted and growing. And the tyrants are well aware of it.
They also know if they miss now, they are going to be on the otherside of the guns. The side they intended to use on us.
Get together, enjoy the day, the food, the spirit of the day. Give thanks for your life despite the Maddog2020 year we have had
And answer the questions that some are asking. Be nice, but be firm: this shit ain’t over by a long shot.
Watching, waiting, anticipating,,,
Anticipation is not always “good”. Maybe you recall anticipating the asswhoopin’ your dad was gonna deliver when he got home from work. That kind of anticipation is where I am at right now.
This shit show we have been subjected to, a blatant mockery of an election process that was designed to minimize the very crap we have seem, is only the tip of what lies ahead. That tip has been subject to historical analysis multiple times over the last 100 years. That analysis has always had the same end result: it doesnt work, its inhumane, and people retaliate eventually.
There is some hope that Trump and his legal team will clear up the controversy. But winning means we lose too. It doesn’t matter which ‘team’ wins this go round, the other side will harp and squawk that the other side cheated or whatever: just like things are going right now.
Did they cheat? I believe so, and have seen lots of investigative aspects done by private individuals showing it. BUT DO I KNOW? Nope, I sure don’t. Gut feelings and history tell me I’m right but that means nothing other than I have zero trust in the system anymore.
I’m quite certain that feeling is commonplace in members on BOTH teams.
What happens when the people of a country lose faith in the government of said country?
History has many, many, MANY examples to bring to the trial we have forthcoming. Where we go from here will be decided for us, what happens to us as a People will be decided by our responses.
Are YOU ready to make the hard choices?
I can tell you, I AM! I was just cruising by some of the sites I usually view, and realized; “this thing is ready to go unhinged” and that my feelings and inner turmoil were GONE. Just like when we were headed into Kuwait in 92. My inner spirit was cold. There is a job coming up that will need done and bitching and whining about it is useless. Will I accomplish the job or expire in the effort? Doesn’t freakin’ matter. I will give all or lose all and there are times where those are one and the same.
What does all that mean Dio?
Like the jeep thing, if I have to explain you wouldnt understand, and if you understand, I don’t have to explain.
To President Trump, may you win this sham of an election and prove that the left is attempting a Coup on the Republic. I can personally vouch that there are people who WILL stand with you, and I am sure you don’t need that reassurance from some piddlin’ blogger with only a handful of readers. My soul is calm and cold, so what comes will be faced with no hesitation. We stand with you, but you MUST be stronger and more willful than you have been these last 4 years. I plead with you to clear the vipers from your office and appoint people of reason and patriotism to help you in your efforts. The crowd you have ran with was obviously entrenched and undermining you. We see it, I can only hope you do as well.
But for now, I will enjoy the fruits of freedom: sit around a fire with friends, share a sip or two of some finely made sippin whiskey and keep the spirit inside honed for what comes. When I need the memories of what I fight for, these nights will be there.
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