Ho’oponopono  

Goofy sounding name (to non-Hawaiian’s) but,,,

so damned simple

“I’m Sorry, Forgive me, Thank you, I Love You”    thats it!

Last night, I jumped into this feet first, and started with people in my past; people I have not seen in thirty or forty years, people that have wronged me, I have wronged in some way, or just fell away from for whatever reasons.   Ex-girlfriends, parents, arch-enemies in high school, you name it: just go through the list of persons and started with this mantra above or some variation on it, with the core being as listed.

Start with a face in memory and saying ‘I’m sorry I was ignorant of how this world actually works, I’m sorry that my delusions created this friction between us.  Please forgive this ignorant spirit for any wrongs done or neglects created.   I thank you for your tolerance of me, and I love you for that patience and bearing and for your very existence”

Now, I must explain one thing I don’t share out much.   I meditate, not strange in itself, but I have a trick for it that I don’t recall hearing anywhere else.   You know how, when you close your eyes in a dark room, you will see patterns moving on your eyelids? (not really, there is a physical means behind it, and I will explain)   Those patterns are my focii for my meditations; rather like those trippy fractal screens from the sixties.   Actually what those patterns are, is the blood flowing through your retinal capillaries. fresh O2 giving the rods and cones a little spark, and with no actual photon excitement, the new O2 triggers them.   Its an illusion of chemistry in a sense. 

Well, last night, I was doing this, meditating using the patterns on my eyelids, chanting this mantra in my head while internally visuallizing people in my past, even going so far as visualizing a crowd of faceless people, to cover all those that I may have perturbed in some way without knowing firsthand,,,,

and then something WYRD happened,,,

Those patterns on the backside of my eyelids,,,  They took a shape, not etheral shape, but a fine lined, SHARP Image!   It was like a spiderweb, slowly spinning, but it wasn’t flat like an Orb spiders web, it had depth, and more than,,,  More like I could see height, width and depth, but also TIME, in both directions,,,

And where the lines crossed were sparks, bright points, all connected by these fine webs, some brighter than others, some really long and weak, others short and bright like a neon tube,,, and the whole was spinning and rolling slowly around a void.   But I could tell that void wasn’t empty, it just wasn’t ‘lit up’ like the web around it.

And my eyelids popped open, and I said “That was REAL!”  not some hallucination,,,   I had just seen something, something I have suspected for years, but NOW,,,

I don’t even know where to go with this,  I don’t want to make y’all think I have gone all woo-woo on ya, but dammit, there it was, visual proof given to me, of what I have thought, others have stated, even quantum phycisists have stated;  WE ARE ALL ENTANGLED AND ONE.  

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I shared this with BOM last evening,  I’ll share it with all of you now.   Make of it what you will, And for the nay-sayer Bible pounding types,  he references Yeashua (Jesus) near the end,  so don’t go blowing this off as heebie-jeebie new age crap!  Give it a listen and a think first.

And then give it a try,,,

Keep on lovin’!

this is not a Memorial Day post; that comes tomorrow.

The Conundrum:  Forgiveness.  Just how far is ‘enough’?    Forgiveness is NOT JUST a Christian aspect; its embodied in most all religions and philosophies (excepting Islam, though they suggest ‘forgiveness’ of allies; at least enough to regroup,,,)

slight lane shift here: I ask that y’all forgive me for my discombobulated state these days.    I am feeling VERY distracted and off center, not because of world events, but Mamakat,,,   She is preggers, full of hormones and CLINGY AS ALL GET OUT,,,   I haven’t had a moments peace at home in two weeks, and finding solace here has been,,, ‘Taxed’,,,   This, from an 8# kat that shouldn’t be able to get pregnant.  NOTE: after these kittens are weaned, shes going to get ‘fixed’,, PERIOD, end of discussion!   The Boys and I had a long heart to heart about it and decided that we can’t handle the psychotic episodes anymore.  Once these kittens are free of Mama’s influence and need of her as support, she gets spayed.  Settle these hormonal cocktails of insanity down to just kitteh narcissism,,,,(to give you an idea of how bad it has been: Mama ‘ambushed’ Grizzy one afternoon: she was all loveydovey for about 15 seconds, giving him a bath and head strops,  then, with no warning, tore into him like he was the demons incarnate.  Tore his ear and opened a hole on his chest.   Poor boy is walking on eggshells now, scared of every twitch, ping, and thump.   

Her Psychosis is entangling all of us boys here at the ‘Stead.  Even Voo has been acting ‘off’,,,,

NO MORE GIRL KATZ!!!  (and in a round-bout way, reinforces why I am single: Don’t need the dramas, don’t WANT the dramas.)

Digression complete, back to my conundrum,,,,,Forgiveness,,,,,

Let me start somewhere concrete: My Cuz neighbor and his Ol’lady,,,   Both have stolen from me: not recently, but in the past,  I want to say I have forgiven them, but I still maintain a HUGE distance from them,,,  The Question then becomes, ‘Have I forgiven them?’ if I won’t allow them access to my immediate ‘world’?    We don’t talk at all.   Not even a hand wave in passing.  I ignore them, they ignore me.

or is this a case of

(I know they think I am strange, they even stated as much in the past: to me and others.  And I accept that moniker since I am not ‘locally raised’, I can see that I am a strange one in their perception. (not just the fact that I am a reader, have no main feed from the world programming (TV) and a serious thinker/doer:   I don’t fit their world view,,,)

Where does forgiveness begin? Where does it end?   Forgiveness, but not forgetfullness?   Does one need to ‘forget’ the transgressions?    Take for example the break-up of Ex and myself: I have forgiven her of her impropiety, thats past, means nothing today.   But I have never forgotten the lessons learned.   So in that case, have I truly forgiven her?   I know if she were to walk back in my life, for whatever reason, I would welcome her as a friend, treat with her as one, BUT would never open my heart to her as I once did.   Is that forgiveness?

Socially awkward I am, always have been, likely always will be.   Much like my Grandfather in that sense (though NOT to the extent he was, needing grandma as his intermediary in all things social.)

Small lane shift, same road.   If one is able to forgive, without forgetting, is one able to live in the NOW?    Isn’t that a paradox or contradiction?   Or is that just simple wisdom gained by bloodied spirit.

And maybe I need to learn to forgive myself FIRST,,,,   I am my own worst critic,,,,

Yeah, I am that scatter-brained right now,,, Can’t think, and when I start getting a coherent thought, here comes the Mamakat to get in my face, on my book, of the tablet, whatever I am using, demanding ” ‘TENTIONS! NReOW!!!”    And I know its the hormones getting her all flustered, scared, etc.   She doesn’t understand this and the hormones are wandering all over the place, from Maternal instincts to blissful and back to MUST PROTECT!!!     It’s not her fault and it’s not like she has any logic circuits in her greymatter,,,,

this too shall pass 

ooooohhhhhhhmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exhale.

It’s domestics day, or I could wait till the morrow for it, since tomorrow is an off day/holiday.   I have my little routine for Memorial Day, something quite personal for the few that I knew “who gave all”, and extended out to those I didn’t know personally.  

I wrap out todays thinks (here) with a tune about forgiveness.  keep on livin’

A VERY interesting spot here,,, About 100′ offshore is a shoal or something, and the waves stand TALL and break.

Is also a high traffic area with only the sea-doos being absent.  May have something to do with that shoal, dunno,,,(and that’s fine by me,,  no like sea-doos,,,)

Anywhoos, just sittin’, chillin’, and letting me thinks settle to the sounds of water, wind, and waves.

More later

Keep on livin’

Buffalo is getting new shoes today.  Of course, mid afternoon, busy shop, Memorial day weekend dead ahead,,,

Sigh ,,,

Waiting rooms suck,,,  

But tires are one of those things that, while I could do it redneck-like; MUCH prefer someone else get their front feet dirty doing,  and with the tools to do it RIGHT.   And willing to pay the little bit extra for.

Only true bonus at this place: ZERO diversity hires in site.  All bearded rednecks with grimy nails and that wrench knowledgeable twinkle in the eye.  That twinkle might also be from some elicit ‘partaking’,  but I would bet these guys used old bearing races as teething rings in their diaper days.   Buff is good hands, IMO.

Yeah,  pay was that good this week, that I decided to just go for it on all four corners of Buffy.    Not too bad,  bought three, and the fourth ‘free’  ((TANSTAAFL!!!))

And I won’t be regretting the choice come Twosday when I return to the J.O.B.  

LONG holiday weekend,  short week upcoming, then LAKETIME WITH KAYAK-Y KREW!!!!  

Feelin’ just a touch anxious for that, ready for the company of Brudda B n Fam, Lil Bubs smilin’ face (who ISNT so Little anylonger,,,) and the Gi-normous horses the B calls his dawgs,,, Sasha n Riggs.

So’s, come the afternoon this upcoming turdsday,,,,,

More laters

Y’all ‘member Peanut

Wellssss,,,  her name is now (for now) Nellie,  and she recently took an airplane ride to Paducah KY.  She is now in a pittie rescue, IS getting the surgery she needs (amputation from a broke leg she picked up after I took her back to work.  She found out what happens when you catch the car 😞) 

https://www.facebook.com/share/p/nRywEtgy4sDaeat5/?mibextid=xfxF2i

The lil’girl has lots of love in her, and would have been MORE THAN welcome to join the tribe at the J.O.B., only she was VERY aggressive to outsiders,   like Garbage men and the UPS guy,,, 

From what Son of Bossman was telling me,  she completely won over the hearts of the people at BOTH shelters,   enough to get a donated plane ride clear across the state of  KY, literally corner to corner of the state. That ain’t cheap!!! (And the look on her face in the window of that plane,,, Oh lord! I’m in for it now!!!!  lol.  )   (says much about her demeanor that they put her in that plane FREE,  not in a crate, she is that cool about things, that trusting of those she meets. (cepting garbage doods and UPS,,,,)

So she’ll become a tripod doggie, and probably get even more loving as she grows into her new world.  

I wish the furries ALL the best, and she is getting hers: a forever home, somewhere.

Oh, not that I didn’t DO anything,,,,    Only spent all day under what felt like a very MEAN Big orange ball, with nary any shade to hide in (we had ONE maple tree in the area we are at and that is where we were taking our breaks.   Down in a dip in the ground so breezes,,, whasdat?  yeah,,, one-o-dem days,,,)

worn out.  

State job, must be to spec, has inspectors dropping at random so no short cuts,,,   and the plan calls for DEEP holes.   36″ deep holes.  Thats WAY overkill IMO, but hey, they’s paying the bill, we dig the holes.   (not just 36″ deep, but must be 12″ dia for the lines, and 18″ dia for the corner/ends.   THATS a lot of concrete needed,,,,)  

So, nothin’ to talk about, concerning the world at large, dunno whats goin’ on out there, just know I have some fresh sunburned arms (needed that, will be browned by AM)  and it took 20 minutes in the shower to get all the grunk of lime dust, sweat, and what ever the hell else settled on my sweat soaked body, OFF.  

and tomorrow we do it all again.   several stretchs of line poles that still need planted.  

Woof!!!  this kitteh/dawg dood is ready to fall into bed.

keep on livin’

Not even going to try speculating how “Iranian Prez and other staff” dead in Helo crash, is going to pan out.   Timing is everything.   I do know, the Iranian people were celebrating,,,   Says much about the actual situation there, no?  Usually a President is Mourned and Honored, at least if the people like them even a little bit.   The People of Iran were shooting off Fireworks and CELEBRATING,,, No, no lost love in the firey crash of a helo in the mountains.

But how that is gonna play out with the the whole ME travesty we have seen playing out since last October,,, Dunno, not a clue, other than, there are going to be some shifts in vector of current politics in the region: good, bad, same old same old, no clue.

Been doing more Mental Gaming of things mentioned in that vid I linked the other day, the one where the ‘earth flips’,,,

Obviously, I am no Geological expert: I am a blue collar Skilled Tradesman, with way too many tongs in the fires of knowledge.   So, take what I am about to ‘explain’ with a grain of salt and know that its about as dumbed down as it can get (which is pretty far actually).  

Watching it again, the host talks about how when the poles flip orientation, the mantle will shift on its axis as well, even though he planetary whole will maintain its current spin on a tilt relative to its orbit around the sun.   He flat states that the energy released by a certain level of CME is going to ‘break the mantle loose’ and it will float into a new orientation, 90 degrees from its current one. (he also states that this happens every 12000 years or so.)

PROBLEM.   Dude,,, The mantle ALREADY is floating over cores.   Its why we have techtonic activity, like earthquakes and volcanoes and hot springs/geysers.    Things DO shift around, and yes, sometimes they can do so quite dramatically (ask any one from California or Japan,,,   OR watch the eruption of Mt St Helen again.)    To get an entire continent to shift as he is suggesting (stating) would require ENORMOUS amounts of energy, and to be quite honest, said amounts would destroy everything on the surface long before the tsunamis ‘returned’ .

IMO, dude spent WAY TOO MUCH TIME investigating how Hollywierd made the movie 2012 so damned plausible (its called Willing suspension of disbelief, and GOOD writers and directors can call it up at will)

So, my take away?   IF/WHEN the poles flip, they will likely do so quite quickly, and stabilize,,, its the middle ground where things get wonky for us fast moving humans.   If you ever look at the magnetic force lines of a magnet, you will see the problem: look at the focii of the poles,,,, the protection comes between them, and everything else gets pushed to the poles.  That means that when the North (magnetic) pole is triapsing down through Russia towards Bengladesh, there are going to be LARGE  amounts of Stellar energy being pulled down to the surface. and the collapsing energy waves are going to wreck all sorts of shit in waves outward from there.    (energy doesn’t ‘die’ it transforms.   EM waves become radio waves,,, radio waves passing through conductors become EM waves.  Yes, there is some efficiency loss, usually in heat, but the energy does NOT die, it just becomes another form.   Not enough focus in me to go into all the ‘particles are waves are particles’ stuff here,,, Utoob the double slit experiment if you really want to dive into this rabbit hole.)   

AND there is a REAL possibility of Multiple poles,,,   Talk about screwing up navigation in real time,, what if there were (recorded, up to 6!) sets of north/south poles, or even 3 or 4 north, and 7 or 8 south,,,,    all scatttered will-he nil-he about the globe.  Think about all of the Solar wind particles able to wiggle through the  Van Allen belt to hit targets on the surface,,,,    As an analogy, it would be like making a bullet proof vest with a bolt of cheese cloth.   Might stop a bullet, likely won’t.

So, on that note, I am going to throw out a caveat here.   MAYBE, sometime in the far far past, somesuch event did take place where the crust of the earth rotated 90 off axis.    We do know that there were super-continents like Pangea and a couple of others at one time or another, so yes, the Crust DOES move,,,

BUT

I would speculate that such an event happened very early on our planets history when there was WAY more energy in the system as a whole.   Things have settled down quite a bit since then.

And I ain’t gonna worry a single grey hair over it.   The only reason I am even bringing it up was my mind refused to let it go, much like a pitbull on a porterhouse steak.   It tasted something nummy to chew on and went to town. 

  And you shouldn’t worry about it either,  Chances are, this event(the pole flip) is a century or more in the future.   AND, even it happens in the next 10 years, There ain’t a damned thing you or anyone else can do to stop it.    IF you have been a prepper, you are already 30 steps ahead of the rest of the world, and if you aren’t; WHY NOT?!?!  

Biggest thing I can offer,,, Remember the rule of 72 hours.   When the shit hits the fan, you have 72 hours before people completely lose thier collective shit.   If you are in a place where that would lead to ‘really really bad’, (first off, why are you still there NOW?) you have (roughly) a 24 hour window to MOVE IT, and after that, things start to get real murky.  If you miss that window and the 72 drops in your lap; May God have mercy on you and guide you through where angels will fear to tread. (no, not trying to play the DoomPron game on ya.  Just wanting people to think about things. ) (and thats where you want a different BOB in your plans,,, Not the Big Orange Ball, but The Bug OUT Bag.  Just remember this, Refugees are unrealized victims walking,,,   Don’t be that guy is my best advice.)

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Long day today,   more coming.  State job, sons I’m gonna be a bit grumpy after hours.   Hatez wearing hardhats and reflective vests that get caught in EVERYTHING,  but thats the gig and that’s what we do,,