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So much so fast,,,,

And I think they set a new world record: 16 days of presidency before the opposition filed Impeachment charges,,,,   LOL   I’m dyin’ over that,,,,

4 years of dementia ridden puppet covering for Oblammy’s basement tour,

crickets,,,,

or “your just a conspiracy theorist,,,”

Ho-boy though, cut the neck of their golden goose (USAID, which has very little if anything to do with AID) and man do the sirens start a-wailin’ and the screeching reaches crescendo,,,,

Too much too fast, and honestly, I think taking a day off is needed.   Let the brainiacs of DOGE mainline the coffee machines and do their thing; “follow the money”,,,,

The good thing I can say,  We know now, without any doubt, those that need primaried out come next selection cycle.   

Anywhoos, night off from the feeds, gonna crank up some Kansas, Boston, Rush, and some of the other great PRog Rock of the late 70’s and 80’s.   Bottle of Knob at elbow, and the batteries in the house are up to a few hours of Overwattage splendor in sounds.   (and I really want to play with a new set of mid-drivers, but right now, the tunes will suffice for my mindsear.(I remember more than I actually hear anymore,,, )

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Some lessons must be learned the hard way.(with update below,,,)

And there is a lessonin’ afoot.    I saw one article today (last night???  its gettin blurred with the speed of things right now .) that was harping on one of the ‘investigators of DOGE’ being only 17yo, and fresh out of highschool with no degree,,,,

Um,,,, Yeah,,, Elon put out word for ANYONE with the SKILLS and interest to apply,,,, NOTE,,, not a damned thing about degrees,,,, He also had a TweetX about ‘Show us your code, can you do the work?’  

This kid has probably been coding since he was toddlin’,,,,,    Who better to go through the code of all the systems in USAID’s department?  He’d spot an irregularity from the break room and be on it like a pitbull on a porterhouse steak.

And then I read this From El Gato Malo

Pullquote for ya as a teaser,,,,

they have never seen what 10 of these guys and 3 pots of coffee can achieve.

I have

Mountains get relocated.

Lord above I danged near threw a disc in my neck I was nodding agreement so hard, while reading that article.  Do, go read it if  you haven’t.  

DC has no CLUE what they are getting hit with,,,,  

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BTW, I am not claiming to be “high functioning autist”   I have worked around enough of them though.   the people that Bad Cattitude is talking about make me look like a neanderthal with brain damage,,,,  

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE

You know you are over the target when the flak increases tempo!!!

I present the following for consideration.

DoGE isn’t a real agency,,,,

WRONG.   It was enacted by EO DAY ONE!!! Has no budget so needed ZERO approval of CONgress, has no deepstaters running its show, and DOES have a finite mission directive and timeline.   ALL of its employees are volunteers with NO compensation.    I heard there was an offer but it was going to come from Musk himself, not some budget line item approved by some agency in the halls.  Basically, the offer I heard was a percentage of the ‘money saved’ through due dilligent detective work would be paid BY MUSK to the detectives, but I don’t know how ‘real’ that offer was,,, could have only been rumor, AND, likely is, to keep the DoGE within the rules of the Constitution and off the scope of SCOTUS.  

And that last is EXACTLY what Screw-em-more is trying to get kicked in: He has no clue how to deal with this other than lawfare and propaganda  He is trying to get his army of useful idiots to scream and cry enough to get SCOTUS involved. IMO, it ain’t gonna work: Trump and Musk had time enough to figure out the loopholes (hence, no budget, finite mission and timeline.)  His gravytrain is under attack and he ain’t likin’ the looks of his future.   

GOOD!!!   Get scared Chucky, get VERY SCARED.    We are getting EXACTLY what we voted for and the reaction is GLORIOUS!!!!    ALL of the Rats are squealing and hissing and showing us what needs attacked next.  

End update.

Audiophile files,,,,

Always loved sound.   Didn’t know that until I was playing once and found out I made more money mixing than I did playing (and I hate stage life, all those faces looking at me,,, Butterflies doesn’t even begin to describe my reaction,,,)

And of course, having lived that life, (even though I blew most of my hearing out in the process,,,) I LOVE hearing good music and the better the ‘reproduction’ the more I love it.

Found a ‘new’ type of speaker being touted on out there in the matrix.   I had heard rumors of it while touring, but no one really knew much about it, except the REAL sound engineers (the guys that made the line arrays that I was playing with at the time.  Truly incredible sound design in those things,,, more on that in some other post.)  And I didn’t really run in those circles.    I will NEVER lay claim to being a sound engineer,,, I was at best ‘tech’, making sure the tools all worked and then mixing the signals the band sent me into something that didn’t make your ears bleed.  (Sorry Wayne Brady,,, Learning curve bro!!!    yet another story for another post,,,,,)

The build and testing (of different components and surfaces)   Hella good vid edits in this one, and if you have exterior speakers, you WILL hear differences.

I’m tempted to make a pair myself.   I have a killer amplifier system that incorporates a 400w Subwoofer with satellite speaker hookups: and the desktop monitors I have ‘kindasus’ ,,,,  Scratch that, DEF SUS.    They make noize, fill background up, but for listening pleasure,,, 

Fail

When I was a wee brat, we had a full system at home,  Marantz component system, with these montsrous tower speakers, and I (when no one was home of course) would try my damnedest to blow the voice coils in those towers.     My favorite at the time was BOSTON, anything BOSTON, (Rush would come later but with the same results)  And, so I had been told, you could hear that system a half mile away, CLEARLY….

Wonder why I got into live sound, where 50000watts was commonplace (even more on some tours)   Toss in those line Arrays,,,,, Hoo-boy was I in heaven,,,,   (Me being me, I live for challenges, and when I was chickenwinged into MONitor world, I found NEW challenges and found I prefer being backstage with a much smaller audience: The Band!   Different world, but the sound, IMO, way better and more personal.)

Oh, the days of THIS

as my office are long gone, but the memories remain.    I just need more dB to enjoy the same way I did then.  (and yes, I REALLY do know what all the knobs and buttons do,,,    Thats a pic of a Midas XL4-52 12 buss FOH console.    I used one as a monitor desk for 3 tours.   Much prefer the loggy faders of Midas over the linear faders of Yamaha.)

Little story about Midas desks.   Remember this guy?

He lived(s) in Indian Hill Ohio,,, thats just outside Cincy proper,,,,    Way up on a hill overlooking the river.     He had built a home studio in his basement and bought a Monster Midas Desk through the company I worked for.   We went to deliver it and couldn’t.  We had to hire a 80′ crane to come in, and hoist the desk OVER the house to the back doors to get it inside.   Craziest install job I had ever been involved in.

Anywhoossss,,,,

DML system,,, 180degree projection, Proper placement should (!) eliminate cancelation effects you get with ‘piston’ type voicecoils.   Balance the crossover of sub/mids,,,,,  (they suggest using a tweeter for the 6k+ range,,,, I can barely hear those anymore anyway,   If I make a system loud enough that I can hear those freqs, it sounds screechy/peircing to others,,,,) (THIS is why I no longer mix for a living, not that I wouldn’t if I could,,,)

I’m feeling some of my old groove coming back,,,,,    May even wanna pick up a bass again….  LOL   (like I have any callouses left to play for darned,,,,)

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Moon and man

Slo start muhnday

Just a meme

X1000

R’Member that SCOTUS says accepting a pardon is an admission of guilt,,,,

Revoke their privledges, limit their access,

Primary the hell out of ’em

More later

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This year is already wyrd,,,

And I ain’ta talkin’bout the poli-ticks,,,, (though more on that towards the end.)

Its early February, and we are already experiencing a ‘spring snap’,,,   Temps are supposed to be in the mid 60’s low 70’s for the next week and half,   

This is roughly 3 weeks early in these parts.    Me thinks, the ‘snaps’ are going to be longer than usual, and the drops inbetween are going to be colder than usual with sudden release: much like these past two weeks have been.

This is the sort of weather that gets people killed.   Sickness the usual culprit, but in other ways as well.    We have already had TWO kayak deaths here’bouts thanks to ‘springlike weather’ calling the unprepared and naive to water.     ME: I KNOW WELL what cold water can do to a body: I have gear for it.    I don’t go out in ‘just above freezing’ water with 60 degree air temps without dressing for that water temperature.   No sweatshirt’n’jeans cowboy antics from yours truly.    I know that the intial plunge is going to SHOCK you into an inhale that usually does you in on the first go-round.   IF that doesn’t get ya, the sudden cramps as your body pulls warm blood from appendages to the core, will.

Near as I can tell from reports, the two deaths are due to exposure/hypothermia, because they weren’t prepared: either in the head nor in the gear.    My condolances to the families, but I can only hope thier loss will help others be better informed further down the road.  (I DO try to educate people when I am asked about ‘off season’ boating.   I can tell, only a small percentage listen,,,,)

NOW, on to the shenanigans of falling aircraft, fire blooms in mid-air and in street intersections.    The one that happened in DC,,,  All I can say on that one is “sumpin’ stinks”,,,  What? I can’t say.   Too many possibles of incompetence that have a taint of “Deepstate interference” in them.   

As for the one that went down in Philly,,, I think that one has a more ‘natural cause’:   In the one video with sound, you can hear the turbines screaming, all the way into impact.    My take is that something happened to plane or pilot, and what we witnessed was a full-Throttle Dead-stick ‘landing’.   Considering they were in take-off mode, reaching for cruising altitude, the full throttle thing makes sense,   Then something went wrong.   Pilot dead at stick? controls failed to respond?  Ice on wings?    Ice in hydraulic fluids (that control the surfaces)?    One pilot in comments somewhere ruled out the icy wing thing, and seeing how they never made it over 1300′ with ambient temps in the mid forties, I would concur.   BUT, the other items could still play a role.  

Plus, there is  a record of that company with another incident involving that, or similar plane,,,, There may be underlying circumstances.    And this situation IS where FAA gets to shine a bit and earn their pay.   (Question for others in the know: Can a black box survive a direct hit to concrete at 400mph, followed by a firestorm of spilled fuel?    Guess we will find out eh?)

Nominee hearings?    My take: If you hadn’t seen the masks fall from their faces before, I certainly hope you can see it now.     The attempts to corner the nominees into traps of “yes/no” answers when the circumstances are grey like the fogs on the Thames in October,,,,   And the nominees returning fire with allegations of corruption,,,, Sweet pup of DOG, the kabuki is running STRONG,,,,,,

and so are the liberal tears,,,,,

and its only been TWO FRELLIN’ WEEKS!!!!   

and for those naysayers that wanna harp on OrangeMan BAD

That last,,,, ‘Take a blowtorch to this whole diseased temple of thieves, traitors, & pedos, burn it to the ground and piss on the ashes

FUCKIN’ OORAH!!!!!!    When I read about some DC appartachik complaining about needing to commute for 1.5hrs because they are no longer allowed to work from home, and then wail about ‘DIE’ is dead, our entire department is DIE!”      

man, the goosebumps of pleasure just can’t be tamed!!!!

Gonna be strange year, but one that I think is going to carry forward into

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In a better place today

Apologies to all: Last eve was a catharsis I was in need of and had no idea.    Pulled ALL of the scabs off old (REALLY old) wounds and let some pressures off.   Admittedly, most of those old wounds were self-inflicted, and the ones that weren’t directly “muzzle to big toe” self inflicted, were due to actions I started (here, have gun, shoot me! sorts )

And even with a fifth of rye down the gullet, I awoke NOT HUNG OVER,,,  

and in a much better frame of mind about my current position in space-time.

Lonely?    Yah,a little bit,,,,   been 16 frillin years since I lived with anyone else, other than furry buddies.    Won’t lie about it, sometimes the walls aren’t your best friends when the dark nights get longer.   Add in some silly glitch in the matrix that brings up hauntings and ghosts of the past,,,

yah, bad night.

Much better mornin’

Went to the lake today.   Even had Lyssa on the water for a short spell.   TOO DAMNED COLD.   That wind cutting across a mile of open water was sharp like razors and what little mist was up was hitting like a full auto pellet gun.   Shit hurt!!!   Ducked back to shore FAST and called it good.    Even with proper gear, there is still exposed skin, and by the time I hit land, my exposed skin looked bright pink, like I had been smacking it repeatedly.  

And that cold ass water hitting the open nerve endings on my exposed digit end,,,,,,,   PURE TORTURE.   

Masochistic, I am not. (ok, somewhat, but not to THAT level,,,,,)

Even thought about, what with the weather being what it is, ‘may be time to put the boats up for a couple months,,,’    Problem with that,,, I’m lazy.   If at least one isn’t ready to go, on Buffalo, I won’t go when there is that perfect window of oppurtunity.     Fact is, I may even ADD a boat to the Buffalo since there may be white water days with Brudda B n crew.  THOSE happen in literal spaces of hours, not days, and if y’ain’taready,,,, MISS.   

But right now, its build fire in stove (even though its in the Forties outside) and get my chilled old bones warmed up a bit.    T’ain’t 20 sumpin anymore and I feel the cold deeper and longer than those long gone days of yore

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A melancholy time trip

Drinkin’ now,,,

HARD!!!!

DON’T go back in time,,,   DON’T DO IT!!!

DON’T!!!

Apologies,,,,   Let me explain where I am at, so you can have a sense of what went wrong.

I had an email from “Classmates” saying someone had tagged my yearbook picture.    Dunno who, and at this point, ignorance IS bliss.  

I made the mistake of following the link and saw THREE pictures

My first Real Girlfriend (and if it means somethin’, I still have a ‘love letter’ from her: forty flippin years and several long term relationships and a failed marriage later, I still have it.)

My FIRST and I ain’t talkin’ GF, though that too

And the Girl I have always had a crush on, whom was also my best friend in the tightest of ways, totally platonic, though I have often wished otherwise.

(I was gonna post pics, and probably could since they are in the public domain already, but, NO, I only post pics when I have been able to ask permission, never otherwise.,,,sorry; y’all gotta use your imagination this time out.)

You can’t go Home again, IT AIN’T THERE!!!

Forty years agone, so many stories to tell them,,,,

and I probably never will.   Of all the people in that school, those three were the only ones I would wish to meet again, but there is so much water passed under this bridge I stand on.  I can argue that my perceptions of ‘then’ and their perceptions of the same, are NOT the same as mine.   Memories fade, discolor like the old kodachrome paper, and emotions ‘evolve’ with time.  

I could always spin a yarn, I could captivate with stories; but I was Never serious enough, about any one thing, to pursue,,,,

her

hence the drinkin’

I thought I had forgotten,,,,

      dusty in here,,,,

and they say women are romantics,,,, HA!!!   Women are pragmatic; its the dudes that get all mushy with the ideas of romance and chivalry, duty, honor,,,, In a round’bout sorta way, we all wanted to be that Shining Knight,,,,  No,,, NO round’bout about it,,, we all did; some just hid it better.

Sometimes, and I strongly feel this to be the case here, its best to leave the past, in the PAST.   If one of those three Femmes from my history were one that tagged me,,,, Probably best that we maintain that gulf of time.   I have changed beyond what I was then, many times over.   Those changes may be for the better,  but I would rather the memories I have, not be tainted by a new meeting and possible disharmony between souls.

We LIVE ( and eventually die)

We LEARN (and forget what we learned)

We LOVE (and lose sometimes)

We LAUGH (and often cry,,,)

And We keep on LOADIN’, prayin’ its for naught. 

The PATH  remains, always.

((later date,,,   Talk about a self-fulfilling prophecy,,,, Leave the past in the past,,, better for all involved…)))