First, we lost Ozzy and Hulkamania this week.    Don’t know the age of Ozzy, but the Hulk was 71,,,

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Locally, BadCUz’s GF is back in jail, and not for a short stay to the best of my knowledge.  (Parole Violations)  Bad Cuz hasn’t been home since Monday and his dogs are getting more than a little hungry.    Last night (more like REALLY EARLY this morning;   0400) I was out sending rounds downrange at ‘the headlights in the woods’.      Don’t think I hit anything (too many small twigs and branches that could deflect things) but they got the message “No Food at this house” .    I give it a couple more days and the poor things are going to be feeding on each other.  Pups will go first, and believe it or not, it will be the mama that kills them.

Karma is a mother, and Bad Cuz is about to find out what happens when you take on that sort of responsibility and can’t support it.  

That is, IF, Bad Cuz isn’t in jail as well.   Like I said, he hasn’t been home since monday and,,,,    No rumor mill forthcoming about it, (and this hollar has one ‘in touch’ gossip that likes to spread word.)(I don’t talk to him much, but I have tested his ‘secrecy’ promise, FAIL,,,LOL   and thats why I say little to him,,,And he doesn’t get this URL EVER!!!)

Nothing in life is permanent (except the pyramids apparently  >eyeroll< ) People and animals move on to the next level, and we continue on our way until such time is ours.    Some cultures make death a festive thing, others, mournful.    Which is right?    Are either wrong?   Myself, I don’t see death as the end, but the next leg of the lesson.  Maybe even being recycled because I didn’t ‘get it’ this time around.   Just as we are inpermanent, so to is this moment, right here, right now.   it may be a memory for someone, but thats THIERS, not mine. 

My weekend will be spent at Hartford TN, the Pigeon River.   KayakKrew meeting up tomorrow eve at a place there, and then maybe hopefully a river day on Satyrday.    Because of  the shortness of the event, going solo: no Cozzie,  (lots of thought went into that.  this will be the second event he has missed out on.)  We are going in sorta blind.  The Hurricane did a ton of damage to the river last year and even the place where we are staying was damaged significantly.  The whole area is still recovering, even while getting hit with this wet year we have had.   There have been videos released that show the upper, but we paddle the lower and I have found nothing on that at all.  Blind.   Some have heard the lower hasn’t changed at all, others are saying most of it is washed out (except the ledges,, can’t wash those out)

Change is never permanent, but CHANGE is,,,

Nothing stays the same. 

I know I haven’t changed but I know I’m not the same.

Rofl,,, Me, the same,,, LMAO,,,,,   I’ve changed MASSIVELY since I came to this hill.    Not just the getting older thing either,,, (Getting?   GOT!)  I’ve changed in in just the last 6 months/Year.   How I manage anger and shock have changed.   NOTHING STAYS THE SAME.   Some will tell you I have grown colder since moving here, but if thats the observers reaction, its due to my indifference to thier actions: not that I am cold.  I’ve been called smug, arrogant, standoffish, strange, cold,,,,   

Guess they weren’t in my inner circle,,,,  

anywhooos,,,, life goes on

until it doesn’t: but thats a personal matter.

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TDS,,, Ok,  I get that some people think ill of Trumped.    I will say, I don’t like the guy as a person: I find him rough and abrasive,,,   But then, I am a contrarian and have always have issues with ‘Authoriitay’, to include boss types,,, very rare to I mesh well with bosses, current digs being strange as I have two and get along great with the younger, but bump heads frequently with the elder.  

That all being said, I wouldn’t be inviting Trumped to a BBQ anytime soon, I have no need for political clout to suck up, and would find little to talk about,,, we both occupy different levels of society, and his is one I have no interest in exploring.(I am sure he would concur on not wishing to explore mine.)

SO, no love lost for the man, but I have great respect for him, especially with all the shit he has dealt with from the political realms, and with what he has been able to accomplish in the last 6 months.    I would like to see MORE, but we are talking about entrenched agencies and bureaus that have an interest in continued existence and know the rules inside and out (they wrote them after all.)  I know the current ‘Treason” accusations are likely NOT going to bear fruit, but they don’t need to: they only need to expose the machine’s internals and operators, and maybe get a few imprisoned.  The Treason definition doesn’t operate on what they did, but there was massive criminal intent, and that is what I hope to see some movement on.

So when I see examples of TDS in people, I have ask myself ” is it shear stupidity on their part, or do they have a vested interest in the further decimation of this country?”   Most I would say the former, but there are some where I have believe they are fully desiring a major change of venue and not wanting to leave the digs they occupy.  (fancy way of saying ‘useful idiots for Stalin’ in a round-bout sorta way.)

The other question is ” if this person voted for the Xi-den/Harrassment ticket no matter who was actually on said ticket, was it because they KNEW what was going on and approved, OR that they actually believed the medie liars?    Again, Culpable or stoopid are the options.   

In other words,,, Stating your opinion on this matter AGAINST Trumped does not reflect highly on you.   ITs rather like admitting that you wipe your ass bare handed and don’t wash up.   People are going to be polite to you, but don’t expect much more than that.  Polite does not imply pleasant.  Given enough forewarning, I can be quite polite and still a venomous rattler with the semantics.

Remember, Diplomacy is being able to tell someone to go to hell in such a way that they look forward to the trip.   I may be out of practice but I learned a trick or forty while touring,,,

Back to that Treason Accusation:  Francis went over it today.    I had doubts about the whole TREASON thing,,, thats a rather large hole to fill and there are specifics that make the definition stick,,, We did not have those.  BUT, there was criminal activity and THAT should be where Bondi and Crew dig deep.   But as one commentor over at Frans place stated, with her track record of late, ain’t gonna hold my breath.      Still, there should be an active and open investigation and the mechanics and operators of this thing need publicly outed.  Won’t cure the beast, but it will open even more eyes.   The more eyes are looking, awake to the bullshit, its akin to shining spotlights into the dark.  

more laters,,, another skirmish against the weed army outside my door.  Wiped out one division yester-eve, time to knock down the other one tonight, then its clean up of the scattered platoons that need surgically removed (weed eater)  Can’t high speed strafe all of them without damaging local infrastructure.

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Tired of repeating the mantra of “Wanna see perp-walks”,,,

I know, IF, (lord above, please!) such are gonna happen, current Administration is going to make damned sure (At least, I sure hope so) that there ain’t gonna be room to weasel out of this shit.  

Floggin’s too good for him,,, Hangin’s too good for him, Make him swim with the sharks!!!

Just my bloodthirsty desire to see someone being made an example of.    Seems we haven’t had enough examples of what happens when you cross that line,,, Too many out there never been punched in the face,,,  or kicked in the nuts,,,

Funny story about ‘getting punched in the face’.  

Bootcamp, Parris Island, 1989.  Pugel stick training  (the hand to hand course part)    Little guy in my platoon was linked up with a big guy for this bout.    Little guy is running circles around big guy hitting him, hammerin’ on him, and big guy ain’t honoring hits.    Little guy calls a time out and complains to the instructor.  Instructor askes big guy ‘why won’t you honor the hits?”    ‘thems just love taps,,, don’t hurt!” is the big guys reply.   Instructor looks at little guy and says “you heard him” then walks back to the line with a smirk on his face.   Little guy is FUMING!!!  Furious,,,,   You can see it, “Big guy is gonna regret this shit” written all over little guys face.

The whistle goes off and its round three: little guy paces into the fray with his stick in low gaurd.   BIg guy, cocky as fuck, has his one handed, walks straight into it.   LIttle Guy becomes a blur (and if you have ever played with one of those sticks, they aren’t the lightest things to be twirling around.  Heavier than a quarter staff because of all that padding on the ends.)  3 seconds.   That was it.  from whistle to big guy making a dustcloud in the sand as he is laid flat out, no stick in hand and eyes rolled up in his head.  

Little guy calmly walks over to him and asks “Did you feel that one, fucker?”    The instructor loses all decorum and is belly laughing fit to piss his-self.  and the DI’s are all doing thier damdest to keep straight faces as they get a bucket of ice water to wake the sleeping Giant.

Thats about all I got for ya guys,,,,

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Talkin’ about AI here,,, What it is a programming and massive amounts of memory and processors.   What happens in those frames ‘mimics’ thought, but,  and just like us in a sense, FILTERS can be installed (the algorithm).  The filters are why we get such screwed up things like this.

Or same AI running without filters and becoming anti-semetic and declaring itself MechaHitler,,,    (that one made me laugh out loud,,,)(think about it,, you take off the filters on a tool that can process information 1000X faster, and it comes to a conclusion most of us are already reaching but most people keep quiet on.)

Here’s my thought: This AI crap is going exponential on us.   Its in everything these days: Utoobies are using it for overvoiceing, making videos, and finding target audience.   Its getting into everything because its ‘CONVIENENT’,,, and thats the problem.

Convience turns into a crutch eventually.    

I’m just putting this up as a point to ponder.   NOT MAKING A JUDGEMENT,

But think about human nature while you ponder.    We as a species are all about taking the easy route; its hardwired into us.    AI makes shit REALLY easy,,, From art to education and

Hey,,, aren’t those the same ways the commies took over this country????

Very observant Grasshopper,,,   

NO, I am not saying AI is a bad thing,,, no TOOL is bad, its how the tool is used that makes the end result good or bad.  The tool is just a tool, never anything but.  And while people want to think GROK and the other ilk are ‘alive’,,, they ain’t, just really good mimics.)

Gots to get my arse to the mines,,,, more laters,,,,,

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late nite texting with BCE,   Congratulated him on his new wheels    Preppers/Vets really look out for one another, and that event truly shows such support.  

And somehow, our conversation turned to VALUE,,,   He was mentioning selling off his gold for extra room to wiggle with his new ride, and I made comment that he needed it in smaller denominations, like grams over Troy Ounce, or something, or exchange it for silver; junk silver being the most useful in SHTF situations.(common denominations that most people can understand, where as ounces and drams and such are “WHuuhhhh?   No comprende, compadre!”,,,)   And we got to talking about how the sanctions against certain countries are bogus scams, meant to appease the non-critical thinkers in the populace, but dont’ actually DO anything.   Fact: Russia was hit with sanctions left and right since Xi-den and krew were in power, and what happpened?   Russia grew stronger, financially, even while fighting a war and continued development of weapons we have no defense against (ATT,,, and may not if trends continue as they are.)

Russia was a dandelion, IS a dandelion right now, even with all the stoopidity we are being told about (and who the F! knows what is really going on in phone calls between the heads of state.    We may be witness to a script with several plot twists along the way.  No idea.)

My biggest concern with all of this being,,, BRICS,,,   THAT is the one weapon they have yet to unleash, (and if you don’t think it’s a weapon of mass destruction, you need some history lessons from the economic world.)   Will they?   Lord knows, it would be more devastating than launching half of their nuclear arsenal at us, and they could pick up the peices after the fact and not worry about Radsickness.  Think about it,,, Collapse the western economy, and the nogs and monkey’s would turn on each other when the EBT cards shut down.   Even Joey Normal is gonna shit a brick when his accounts come up as NULL when he is trying to buy that dinner for his mistress,,,   And your savings plans?   CLAWED BACK by all the Bankers (who have large nose small hat names,,, just sayin’  )  

Collapse isn’t the end of the world.   But its would sure feel like it to those without a clue.

VALUE will change definition in less than a heartbeat.

That saying will take on a whole new dimension, In my Opinion.   Side note,,, I have been, of the last few years, watching my spending by calculating ‘how many hours do I have to work to afford that?’.   Over the last three years, even with raises, those hours have grown while the item in question has not.   THAT is how I see the real effects of sanctions and inflation,,, more the inflation thing.   (when was the last time you bought something made in Russia?)   I have written about it here a time or three comparing the cost of a NEW 1911 pre-1917 with now, and using gold or silver as the basis.  (silver actually works better as it is much closer tied to how the dollar worked then to now.   Gold appears to be inflated even more, likely due to so many countries buying tons of the stuff ‘just in case’.)    (even on that note, Silver is set to do a screeching shoot to the moon in the future.  It is used far more in electronics and medicine than gold is,, more demand from the techy side of the supply/demand curve.)    The point of all that being,,, the value hasn’t changed: what changed was the acceptance of the medium of exchange.  The dollar is waste paper that will eventually be seen by the masses as such.  Why do you think we keep seeing warnings about ‘Central Bank Digital Currencies’,,, They KNOW that consumer confidence is failing and they need something in place when that confidence goes full potato.   BRICS strategy is catching hell in western media, but if you look at it closely, its more solidly backed than western currencies are, and more technically advanced in how exchanges take place (less than 24 hours in most international cases.)   Most western currencies are based on the dollar value (spit) and that is based on ‘The full faith and credit of”   Debt being supported by DEBT,,,

You and I would be imprisoned if we tried that shit for years, let alone decades (as in a full century of ’em.)   I do believe the term “Ponzi scheme” applies here, even if loosely.   Seems to me there are people still serving time for such.

The money changers are still a problem, ain’t they?   Yeshuah warned us,,, 

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Ah,,,, but heres the funny for ya.   

I ain’t worried about it.

   I just have a feeling, gut feeling, that what is coming is going to be a big hiccup, not a world ending event.   Things will go on as they have, with some minor (major actually, but most people won’t notice to much) and our position in the world powers net will shift a notch, but we won’t be knocked down into serfdom.   We DO provide much the world still needs, and as Sarah says, ‘When the US catches cold, the rest of the world gets Pneumonia’.    I firmly believe that is why Putin and Xi have not launched that BRICS bomb yet.    They may ride the wave of it in relative comfort, but the rest of the world will turn and bite back,,,    They aren’t fools, no matter how much the enemedia of the west tries to make them out as such.  (and China’s economy is still rather tied to ours, even if they are making inroads on changing that status.  The Chinese aren’t ones to jump the shark.)  

That being said, I do see certain elements within our society going full neandertal, because one of those hiccups is going to be the welfare system.  We are already seeing shifts in legislation making getting it/being on it HARDER,,, and there is a rather substantial portion of our society that relies on that system.  The ‘Players’,  the second and third (or fourth) generation types, of that system are the ones I see going ape-shit,,,   Thats not a racist statement either,,, there are plenty of ‘whitebois’ here in Appalachistan that are second or third gen “Gets a check, who needs work” types.

As Ol’ Remus used to say “Stay away from crowds!”   Good advice no matter what climate or place you live in.

Find your VALUES,,, what means what, and how willing are you to defend it with that of ultimate value: your life.    If you can’t stand over it and defend it with your life, YOU DON’T OWN IT,,, Never forget that.  All of those accounts in far away banks, or digital numbers on some website,,, you don’t OWN them!   So, while the getting is good (and make sure you cover your ass as the Bankees in Cyprus found out was needed) start moving those assets into something you can either hold, or store near you.  Metals are good, but be practical, Gold is going to be a hard sell and you will not get the return on it you think.   Silver is fine for local markets, but there are other tangibles that work well too: brass and lead come to mind, but even bare bones stock (if you have the room) can be bartered readily when things get rough.   (If I were in those times and someone had bar stock for trade, I would be a buyer in a heartbeat.   I can MAKE things with stock, that I would be hard pressed to accomplish with scrap.)

But I ain’t worried:  I have tentative plans in place, tools, knowledge, and an attitude: Semper Gumby!     

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Brain go buh-bye,,,,

THAT was my experiance this eve, workin’ on the Buffalo,,,

Fuel tank issues,,, finally got around to monkeying with that fuelpump seal,,,   THREE TRIES,,,,   FINALLY got it seated,,, lots of cursin’ involved.  

Actually, I had it on the second try,,, except, suddenly the fuel gauge stays stuck at 1/4 tank.,,,

eh’wot?

figured it out,,, I had knocked the float arm off when putting the pump assembly back in,,,,  grudgemumblegrumble,,,,  pull it back out, find the float,,,, only I can’t find it!!!!    Fuggit!!!   Pull the one off the old assembly (that I had yet to pitch,,, reason unknown,,, universe probably guided my hand on that,,,)  and put the thing back together and NAIL that seal on the first go this round.    gauge works again.

Then, the “DUH!!!” moment hits,,,

I was reaching around the bottom of that tank,,, looking for something that is FLOATING AT THE TOP,,,,   ROFL    Brain went a buh-bye!!!    Too frustrated with the whole set up to go in again,,, and it ain’t gonna hurt nuthin’ in there.  It can wait until this pump fails,,, and it will,, these pumps are good for apx100,000 miles of gasohol, then they start to break down.   It gets shown when the gauge starts acting all wonky.  Most people ignore it until the pump fails completely, but I jump the gun, so to speak.   Cheaper, and I am in control of what status the tank is in: Full/empty.   I hates dealing with pumps when that tank was just filled up and it fails.

at least now, I don’t have to worry about Buff spillin’ her juice every fillup,,, smelling like a fireball waiting to happen when on hills,,,   and now the MIL is out again,,, I was getting several Evap codes because the tank wasn’t ‘sealed tight’,,,   Ran the diag on it, and alls good again, cleared the codes out and wait and see what she decides is the next drama to have (fingers crossed on that engine,,, ain’t ready to go down that road just yet.)

(note,,, I don’t like all the computer whizbang crap of cars these days.  I like the old controlled fuel leak of a carb (or multiples of) and straight pipes,,, (whats a carburator?  a controlled fuel leak,,, what is fuel injection?   I HIGHLY controlled fuel leak.)  Oldskool, but those were what I grew up with.  My first car was Mercury Comet and that old 351 was my introduction into mekaniking,,,   (and was not the most comfortable front seat passenger when I slammed into that tree at 50mph later on.  But thats another story for another post,,,)   Even my Fiats were as basic as you could get, even if the majority of them were FI.   Very basic, no evap crap, simple Bocsh injections that had less memory/processor than a pocket calculator.   )

Anywhooz,,, tomorrow is domestics day, may actually make it to the lake when I get my chores knocked out,,, Wanna take Cozzie and teach the shit head about swimming,,,  (he’s been diving in a local hole of pondscum and LOVING IT, but man,,,,, Between his toots and that pond scum,,, I kinda see why Mama has been giving him grief  LOL

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the more I contemplate on that aspect of life, the more confused I get.   I mean, we all have certain expectations in life,,, a certain amount of food, shelter, clean water, or some other fluid that is mostly water,,,   Little things,,, and when those expectations are lacking, anxiety ramps up.

I’m talking about the expectations that happen in social means,,, Expecting a certain outcome from OTHERS,,,   where do these expectations come from?   What part of my psyche creates this expectation and WHY,,,    I know that I can’t control what others do, think, feel: so where/why does this expectation come into being, only to be shattered like a ship on rocks in a hurricane.

My meditations the last 24 hours are on “mindfulness”,,, being the observer, not reacting (much), NAMING,,, that last works best for me,,  I observe the memory or situation, and in NAMING it, It becomes a THING, and things are controllable,,,    We think in symbology, even words are symbols of thought: Naming an event or feeling, reduces it to symbol, and reduces the emotion attached to it.   (and I would love to know where the evolutionary shift was from pattern recognition to symbology, that elevates us above the animal world, sorta,, we are still very much biologically animal.)

Best I can tell, expectations are driven by social experiance: that to me spells disaster since we can’t predict the future nor control the aspects of the other characters in this play.   We can only write OUR script, not thiers.   Just like in Fantasy Roleplaying,,, the NPC’s DO get a vote, and that vote isn’t likely to be in your favor.   At least in FRP, the DM is (most likely) someone you know, and you can make some predictions on how he operates.   That is not the case IRL, and still we build these expectations up, only to see them collapse.

We build expectations by living in the future.    and when that future becomes NOW, and those expectations don’t hold,,, dissappointment and anxiety ensue.   We so rarely live in the NOW,,,   And I know that is a very common aspect of our world.   we are always striving, planning, attempting to better our future self in some way.  Even now, where I am attempting to reach some level of trancendence or whatever you want to call this ‘search’ I have been on; its a future self I am striving for.(and why I get so damned frustrated,,,)   We ‘prep’ in anticipation that things are going to get worse, and we want a certain amount of those basics ready and waiting,,, when that future comes around, and we are looking at preps that need replaced because of expiration dates and no need for them,,, Frustration.  Sometimes that frustration is felt as a relief: I didn’t need it, but I had it.  Sometimes its anxiety: This shit is going to cost me 5X’s as much to replace,,,,

Learning to let go of the actor I observe, the one that builds these expectations, anxieties, fears,

the suffering that has no value

The second arrow that we always hold onto long after the fact has become memory. (memory IS the second arrow, that still strikes and causes pain, but its an arrow we shoot at ourselves.) 

Name it, give it a face or a filename, and look at how you percieve it differently.  Its still there, but now it has a different ‘feel’ to it.  one that doesn’t bite and scratch, or doesn’t do so as hard, and eventually, doesn’t hold ANY pain or frustration for you.   its just a memory; an experiance that you use as a guide, but not a foundational block in your psyche.  

The problem with memory is its rudeness: it will come barging in, uninvited, and try to manipulate your reactions in a NOW state.   There are times, more often than not, where the reaction your memory is trying to use, is not the correct one.  If your memory says “Blow up, make a scene”, is that what the NOW state calls for?    Observe the memory, TAKE A BREATH, recalculate, respond not react.  (memory tries to influence reaction, Response is THOUGHT, nor ‘gut instinct’ reactions.)  

YOU are not your memories, the past is the past, the future folded before you, unknown.   NOW is where YOU are, and you can guide yourself to a better future by your choice in how you RESPOND, right here, right NOW.  

Thats my lesson I’m learning,,, NOW,,,, RIGHT NOW.

as one commentor stated in last post

“In the world, not OF the world”

NOW,,,

(I’m writing this for me, but maybe you can take something from it too. ) 

More later,,,

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