Nothing to add to what I posted earlier other than that.   Y’all take care of the ol’man if you aren’t the old man, and if you are the old man, treat yourself to something special today.

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SO far,,, lookin’ around the spheres, seems my take that the weekend festivities were tamped down well below the “Fort Sumter” level so many expected.      Things happening overseas are much more involved including dissent within country of Iran, and potential fleeing of the leaders of such to Russian territories for protection.    Hmmm,,, Reverse color revolution in process?   Seeing how our own agencies caused the rise of the Ayatollahs (sp?) and the beginning of all the ME fun and games since,,,, Create the monster, control the narrative, MAINTAIN CONTROL of the system.   They are losing that now.

Killer loose in the northern states: talk about the disease being self destructive.  This is that in real time.   Of course the spin will cover all of that up in time, but seeing it in the light for now, may wake up a few more on this road into the future.

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Full confession: Seriously thinking to shutter this thing I call a blog.   Its a cartharsis, but it hasn’t been fulfilling that role of late.    Part of that is an honesty on my part: there are things I WILL NOT DISCUSS in the public realm, and those are the things that are predominant in my head right now.  I am losing my way and THAT is anethema.   It may be that some of my readers have noted the shift here and there,,, that I used to post multiple times a day on a regular basis, but lately, less posts than days in the week.   And of course there have been more ‘spiritual’ postings as well.  

YES, that is where my thoughts are tending,,, this great big wide world,,, Not so much.  I’ve always been more introspective than most around me, and that introspection is taking DEEP DIVES of late.   Spending far more time looking in, digging under the crud in the corners: Its had 57 years to build up in the corners of this mind and is pretty thick in the lesser traveled parts of it.   (and yes, there is one hallway that is blocked and barricaded with heavy bars and chains.   For good reason.   That one is not getting cleaned, though I will oil the locks and make sure I know where the keys are: gotta keep that beast restrained for now.)

Ok,,, maybe not SHUTTER the blog, Hell, just keep doing what I am doing.  Not gonna lie; there are times where what I write is going to be non-sensical to you because you aren’t living in my head.   Times reading and you read a sentence and scratch your head, askin’ “What the hell did that mean”,,,,   Those will be my tells, so to speak, that I am thinking deeper than what I am sharing.

And you wanna hear a funny?   The deeper I delve, the shallower all of this shit feels.    Mere icing on a cake we call reality, that is really just bubbles of space in empty randomness.   Deep, it ain’t.   Cause/effect, conviction/consequence, peace/turmoil,    No need to go into it all, when a picture will do

I’m tending somewhere on the darker side of late, and I want to be right in the middle, on that division between light and dark.  I ain’t there, and it’s eating at me.    Somewhere over the last 2 months, I dropped off and it feels like I am spinning out of control.    My dark night of the soul even went PooF! into drole existance, day to day muhndanity,,, leaving me feeling greyed out and off balance.   And the imbalance has opened me up to getting sick again.   Two instances, near back to back,

Maybe I’m just feelin’ my age, or my age is making itself known to my still 26 yo mind that refuses to accept the ‘new normal’ ,,,,   sigh

But one thing my introspection has made clear: I need to start getting off my ass and DOING,,,   Far too often the last few months, I come home and occupy a chair, book in hand, or keyboard in lap, and thats the place until its too dark to see or my eyes are leaking down my face in strain.    Even my kayaking has takin’ a hit (and part of that is due to dawgum, but not all, nowhere near all,,,I ain’t blaming him/his existance for my lack of willpower.   I just need to adapt him into things and accept that he is pupper, and that things are going to be ‘exciting’ until he hits adult stage and tones down a bit.)

Which brings up a little sidestory (not a digression, just wanting to share a ‘cute’ instance.)    Yesterday morning, I opened up the house, coffee on, Cozzie off doing Cozzie things,,,,   Me tappin’ away at one of those two posts (which were headaches with faulty keyboard,,, ) Suddenly, Coz is back and wet, head to tail, and excited as heck ‘come see da! Come see!”.   I turn my chair to look out the front door onto the porch and whatzI see?   Another puppie,,, Black and white, one of the newer batch from Cousins place,,,  “OH to the hell NO!,,, No more puppies, ones MORE than enough!”  So I get up, gently scoop up an 8 weekold pup, and start heading towards cousins house.  ONLY,,, Not just one, but THREE,,,,   Cozzie must have been running around the woods, caught their attention and led them home.   They followed the pair of us excitedly (new adventure!) back to cousins house and there I left them, with Couzinz GF, who immediately swatted them on the butts as they ran back to mamadawg.   It was really cute the way Cozzie was excited about ‘new friends’ and that makes me feel sort of bad that he is my only dawg, but to be honest, with my lifestyle, more than one is not happening, and one is likely to much as well.   I’m commited now, and as he gets older and needs less attention to feel secure, I can return to ‘Voodoo days’ and not need to worry.    Right now, he’s a baby, needs that attention and affection for growth: I get that.  Wasn’t ready for it, but I will adapt.

Maybe that’s part and parcel for my current status,,,   BUT, if that’s the case,,, this ain’t goin’way anytime soon or easily.  I won’t abandon my bond or word to any animal I commit to. 

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Those of you that get my stuff in email may have multiple posts of the same post with minor changes in it.   Apologies. I was trying to post ONE vid embed, and got my links messed up because I had two in clipboard.

The second vid is this one

And the reason for it is the last verse,

We all bear witness as history unfolds
Let’s hope tomorrow can deliver on the promise that she holds
Don’t look back in anger,

don’t look ahead in fear
You just keep takin’ her as she comes,

until she comes in clear.

The love you send out returns

to you in time,

The wheel gets turned around by those who try,
For all their lives

(emphasis mine)

For some reason, this hit me right between the eyes today.   I grew up hearing this, one of my favorite albums of that time, and know the lyrics but today, BAM!!!!

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Anywhooozzzzzz    that’s the why of the buggy posts  more later

Seriously, thinking strange thoughts about the “manifestation’ thing that is popular in certain new-agey circles:   Thinking that the only thing holding the world together at all are the manifestations of the smaller creatures,,,  Cows gonna cow, kittehs gonna kitteh, dawgums gonna chase tails and balls and to hell with the stoopid human manifests,,,    Yes, Human Manifestations can destroy the world, but what if the only thing holding it all together is the ideas of existance being held by the smaller brains running around this rock.  The ‘foundation’ of the natural world so to speak.   This idea works if you believe all of this is illusion held together by imaginations that we share,,,,

Yah,,, silly thoughts on a satyrday mornin’,,,

Keyboard issues are giving me fits to boot.    Two year warranty, and I have a new one enroute already, but this one is slowing me down in writing as it adds characters I DID NOT type (like a 7 when I hit t4he G character, or pageup when I type the character A,    The cursor is all over the page and I am in constant edit mode to make things sensible.    If I hunt and peck, it’s no better,,,   Thoughts don’ttplay well under this set up/  

in ohter words, posting may be slow again, until that new keyboard arrives. That thumb tapping thing on screen is  for the birds IMO (or short messages from the feild, not running monologues)

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As for the No Kings protests slated for this weekend,    I think there was enough forwarning around the spheres to make this fizzle out (like the tweets of pallets of bricks being staged,,,  Telegraph much lefties?).   Its early in the day, so remains to be seen what comes of it.  Just the start of the weekend,,, keep heads on swivels, if you can get out without danger, go get some more preps, spiceytimes afoot with the “Fort Sumter” moment here, and the Izzy’s kicking a hornets nest, Kraine Kicking a Bear,   The world as Illusion has many inputs right now, and most of them aren’t exactly sane,,,,

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ALl the theater going on, Iran catching bombs from Israel, Russia going for the gold in the Kraine, stomping all over whats left of Krainefelds troops.(and Note, Casualty lists are NOT being reported,,, Im thinking they are taking more prisoners than killing,,,)

and then you have the fun with China supposedly being rectified with negotiations,,,   Full on currency wars are the new normal now, and ours is tied into the Chinese like siamese twins these days.

Seems like we are poised on that nuke exchange thing, but just enough talking going on to keep the thumbs off the big red buttons,,,,

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Thunderboomer weekend.  Prolly not going to get lake time this week.  Not just because of the weather, but dawgum,,, Little Cozzie is scared of water currently.  If there is a break in the weather, I’m considering taking him to the local watering hole and coaxing him into a swim, (Mostly by walking in myself and leading him in slow.   Don’t want to reinforce bad vibes by a toss in,,,)

All we can do is watch to see what the world does, and while we wait, LIVE our lives as best we can.   Paying bills seems like the most excitement I have these days. (at least, seeing the balance drop gives me a positive feeling,,,)   Work lately has been more a Zen moment than actual work.   Like today, doing a repair job.  Reset poles for a sliding gate, then returned to shop and made a new gate, from scratch, in less than 3 hours.   21′ slider, 3 hours,,,,  both sides complete, ready for install.   Posts will be set up by Muhnday, so I guess I know at least one project I will be working on.   Fact is, I barely recall making the gate,,, zoned out, in my groove, had the tunes going and it wasn’t until bossman sent one of the emps down to ask how much longer that I realized I was almost DONE,,,,   I guess he knows my skill/drive levels better than I do,,,

Watching,,,  

gonna be short summer me thinks,,, 

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There he was, just walkin’ down the road,,, He knew his kin were up ahead somewhere, but they were much faster than he was,,,

Along comes me Da,,,,  

Whus Dio blabberin’bout now? you ask,,,

Da is back in the bird business.    He was coming home from running around and found a fledgling Crow walkin’ along the road.   IN full plumage, but not enough air experiance, so he was walking,,,,    Friendly little cuss too.    Takes food from hand,

And this isn’t the first for dad by any means.   We used to raise crows when we were kids.   Many a fond memory of riding our bikes with a crow on the handlebars, teaching them to fly.   They would get that wind in their face and start spreading wings, flapping, building the muscles up, and usually after a few days of practice, OFF THEY WOULD GO, on thier own.   Some would stick around for a time, most usually returned every year, and they all had unique ways of Cawing that we all could hear.   Crows are VERY smart (and thieves, but thats a feature not a bug.)

This one won’t be around long,,, natural born and raised; Da doesn’t want to impress on it too much.   Just get it strong enough to fly on its own and let it go its merry way.    Wings sure beat the feet thing, so he needs to learn to use’em.

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will get back on things ASAP,,,,   Life is, life does, and life happens,,,    Whatever is goin’ on can wait, or not, as things aren’t ‘up to me’, I just get along as best I can when things get snarky,,,,(and I have a good track record of that,,,,)

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