maybe just burnt out,,,

I have had NO, NONE, desire to dip my toes into the waters of the internet the last couple of days.   Burnt out on the BS?   I’m thinkin’ likely.

I’ve started reading a couple of blog posts by others and ’bout mid-way through, my attention has lagged off and I’m asking ‘whats the point?’,,,    Not that the writing isn’t good, usually several points over the media types if not magnitudes better, but

meh!   

So I sit on the porch, listen to treefrogs, watch Elbs and Cozzie play, Mama curled up next to my foot (too hot for laps) and pray for rain.  We could really use some good blow offs here,,,   As muggy as it is, you would figure it would rain as soon as it even thinks about cooling down.   Nopes,,, not this time of year,,, the muggy is the norm, rain is the outlier.

Big shift in attitude lately too.  Not because of anything external; entirely internal this time.   Started doing this questioning thing.   Thoughts start coming out of the woodwork of the mind and I ask “Is this relevant to now?” and “Who’s life is this supposed to be?”

Bam!!!  Thoughts go flying away for a spell and I can sit in silence in my head.   They come back, they always do, but the questions have started ‘focusing’ them and clarity in thinking is the end result.   And that makes me happy(ier).    Not getting frazzled at the edges, even when driving in Somerset traffic during rush hour (in a big honkin’ dually no less)   Wasn’t perturbed when I found out our “run and gun” to the other side of the state was not the last one.  The client added another 200′ of fence to the plans, but somehow forgot to tell the Bosses: we didn’t have the materials with us.   Future run and gun back across the state, AGAIN!?!?!   yeah,,,, ugh,,, but I wasn’t put out by it.  Even Son of Bossman laughed when I called him and let him in on the joke (of which we are apparently the butt of.)    Had to quell an insurrection amongst the Emps as they WERE pissed off about it.   (They are the ones making money when we have to do this job,  The Bosses are losing it with it being so far away.  Every trip out there eats at the margins,,, big chomps type eating too.)

Its hot,,, I’m gonna go listen to the frogs and watch silly bugger games between the young’uns.

Live

Learn

LAUGH

Love

LOAD

My day started at 0300,  we were on the road at 0400.  On site 1000,  457 miles away and never left the state.

I, me, Myself, little ol’ me, drove BOTH WAYS,,, while the other monkeys got to catch up on Zzzzz’s and relax.  Their biggest gripe is I prefer to roll on through, and bathroom breaks are at my discretion,,,   BUT, I accomadated as needed since we do had two older guys with smaller bladders and other issues,,,,

900 miles, 16 hour day from start to stop, and I am hitting full STOP right now

more tomorrow

mehbe

if’n I can get some ketch-n-up on reading material done,,,

L,L,L,L,L!

And for sumpin’ a leeltle diff’ent

This was the cabin one of the krew rented for the weekend.   $139/nite +a $30 housekeeping fee.  DIRT CHEEP for what it was: hotels within 20 minutes of this place are comparable in price and nowhere near as nice.

And a’yup!!! Dio wussed out and slept on the couch both nites 😁😁😁

If you are in the area, desiring a relaxing weekend with access to some relatively sedate adventure, give this place some love. Foxfire Campgrounds.  No affiliation,  no kickbacks to me: just a desire to keep one if my favorite river scenes alive and well.  Plenty of rafting places are back up and running strong, despite the river changes.  The river can still goose your adrenaline, and we DID have a good float and new learning curves thrown at us.   The last rapid has changed completely, but was still challenging.

All in all, a weekend I NEEDED.

More laters

Don’t feel like starting a new post, so will just expand on this’un.

There are a lot I could say about things I saw down in Hartford, but it’s been less than a year, half of that was under the tyro time where NO ONE could get anything done there, and things are still sort of wonky for all of that.    It IS making a comeback from Intensive care, I can only hope the growth I witnessed there this weekend continues.    The River has changed, some, and I have heard that the upper is ‘gnarlier’ than it was (and from vids I have seen, a bit easier to access this evolution.)   That could be a thing.

Keeping my nose out of the current run of propaganda swill.   I can see it for what it is, DISTRACTION from the Real Issues,,,,   It may be legit, and there should be criminal prosecutions from it all, but the way its being SPUN, its distraction, pure and simple.   Keep an eye on the little nation on the Med and its fun and games, and that Kokefueled Tyro near the BlackSea,,,   Shits getting STRANGER, and more dangerous.

Time will tell.

Till next post,,,

Live

Learn

LOVE

LAUGH

LOAD

Life changes: so does the world.

Walking the shoreline here at the camp (commercial campsites with hookups type place) and nothing in my mental map matches.   I can see the old shore line where we put in last year, but the river is all of 50′ away and 5′ lower in her bed.  Blue porfory(sp?) stone scattered about the shore: not native stone,  but ballast from 10 miles up stream where the highway had been washed out. Im not talking shoe sized stone either but big cooler sized rock ot larger.  Word has it there are even bigger further downstream: can’t confirm yet but will see with my owm eyes shortly.

Its humbling seeing all of this near a year after the fact: Im certain those that live here were very humbled to see thier world, literally, tempest tossed and washed away. 

There are still businesses not reopened here.  Who can blame them when your investment is reduced to a mud covered concrete slab,,,

Will have more later pics maybe,,,

First, we lost Ozzy and Hulkamania this week.    Don’t know the age of Ozzy, but the Hulk was 71,,,

R

I

P

Dear sirs.

Locally, BadCUz’s GF is back in jail, and not for a short stay to the best of my knowledge.  (Parole Violations)  Bad Cuz hasn’t been home since Monday and his dogs are getting more than a little hungry.    Last night (more like REALLY EARLY this morning;   0400) I was out sending rounds downrange at ‘the headlights in the woods’.      Don’t think I hit anything (too many small twigs and branches that could deflect things) but they got the message “No Food at this house” .    I give it a couple more days and the poor things are going to be feeding on each other.  Pups will go first, and believe it or not, it will be the mama that kills them.

Karma is a mother, and Bad Cuz is about to find out what happens when you take on that sort of responsibility and can’t support it.  

That is, IF, Bad Cuz isn’t in jail as well.   Like I said, he hasn’t been home since monday and,,,,    No rumor mill forthcoming about it, (and this hollar has one ‘in touch’ gossip that likes to spread word.)(I don’t talk to him much, but I have tested his ‘secrecy’ promise, FAIL,,,LOL   and thats why I say little to him,,,And he doesn’t get this URL EVER!!!)

Nothing in life is permanent (except the pyramids apparently  >eyeroll< ) People and animals move on to the next level, and we continue on our way until such time is ours.    Some cultures make death a festive thing, others, mournful.    Which is right?    Are either wrong?   Myself, I don’t see death as the end, but the next leg of the lesson.  Maybe even being recycled because I didn’t ‘get it’ this time around.   Just as we are inpermanent, so to is this moment, right here, right now.   it may be a memory for someone, but thats THIERS, not mine. 

My weekend will be spent at Hartford TN, the Pigeon River.   KayakKrew meeting up tomorrow eve at a place there, and then maybe hopefully a river day on Satyrday.    Because of  the shortness of the event, going solo: no Cozzie,  (lots of thought went into that.  this will be the second event he has missed out on.)  We are going in sorta blind.  The Hurricane did a ton of damage to the river last year and even the place where we are staying was damaged significantly.  The whole area is still recovering, even while getting hit with this wet year we have had.   There have been videos released that show the upper, but we paddle the lower and I have found nothing on that at all.  Blind.   Some have heard the lower hasn’t changed at all, others are saying most of it is washed out (except the ledges,, can’t wash those out)

Change is never permanent, but CHANGE is,,,

Nothing stays the same. 

I know I haven’t changed but I know I’m not the same.

Rofl,,, Me, the same,,, LMAO,,,,,   I’ve changed MASSIVELY since I came to this hill.    Not just the getting older thing either,,, (Getting?   GOT!)  I’ve changed in in just the last 6 months/Year.   How I manage anger and shock have changed.   NOTHING STAYS THE SAME.   Some will tell you I have grown colder since moving here, but if thats the observers reaction, its due to my indifference to thier actions: not that I am cold.  I’ve been called smug, arrogant, standoffish, strange, cold,,,,   

Guess they weren’t in my inner circle,,,,  

anywhooos,,,, life goes on

until it doesn’t: but thats a personal matter.

LIVE

Learn

LAUGH

LOVE

LOAD

TDS,,, Ok,  I get that some people think ill of Trumped.    I will say, I don’t like the guy as a person: I find him rough and abrasive,,,   But then, I am a contrarian and have always have issues with ‘Authoriitay’, to include boss types,,, very rare to I mesh well with bosses, current digs being strange as I have two and get along great with the younger, but bump heads frequently with the elder.  

That all being said, I wouldn’t be inviting Trumped to a BBQ anytime soon, I have no need for political clout to suck up, and would find little to talk about,,, we both occupy different levels of society, and his is one I have no interest in exploring.(I am sure he would concur on not wishing to explore mine.)

SO, no love lost for the man, but I have great respect for him, especially with all the shit he has dealt with from the political realms, and with what he has been able to accomplish in the last 6 months.    I would like to see MORE, but we are talking about entrenched agencies and bureaus that have an interest in continued existence and know the rules inside and out (they wrote them after all.)  I know the current ‘Treason” accusations are likely NOT going to bear fruit, but they don’t need to: they only need to expose the machine’s internals and operators, and maybe get a few imprisoned.  The Treason definition doesn’t operate on what they did, but there was massive criminal intent, and that is what I hope to see some movement on.

So when I see examples of TDS in people, I have ask myself ” is it shear stupidity on their part, or do they have a vested interest in the further decimation of this country?”   Most I would say the former, but there are some where I have believe they are fully desiring a major change of venue and not wanting to leave the digs they occupy.  (fancy way of saying ‘useful idiots for Stalin’ in a round-bout sorta way.)

The other question is ” if this person voted for the Xi-den/Harrassment ticket no matter who was actually on said ticket, was it because they KNEW what was going on and approved, OR that they actually believed the medie liars?    Again, Culpable or stoopid are the options.   

In other words,,, Stating your opinion on this matter AGAINST Trumped does not reflect highly on you.   ITs rather like admitting that you wipe your ass bare handed and don’t wash up.   People are going to be polite to you, but don’t expect much more than that.  Polite does not imply pleasant.  Given enough forewarning, I can be quite polite and still a venomous rattler with the semantics.

Remember, Diplomacy is being able to tell someone to go to hell in such a way that they look forward to the trip.   I may be out of practice but I learned a trick or forty while touring,,,

Back to that Treason Accusation:  Francis went over it today.    I had doubts about the whole TREASON thing,,, thats a rather large hole to fill and there are specifics that make the definition stick,,, We did not have those.  BUT, there was criminal activity and THAT should be where Bondi and Crew dig deep.   But as one commentor over at Frans place stated, with her track record of late, ain’t gonna hold my breath.      Still, there should be an active and open investigation and the mechanics and operators of this thing need publicly outed.  Won’t cure the beast, but it will open even more eyes.   The more eyes are looking, awake to the bullshit, its akin to shining spotlights into the dark.  

more laters,,, another skirmish against the weed army outside my door.  Wiped out one division yester-eve, time to knock down the other one tonight, then its clean up of the scattered platoons that need surgically removed (weed eater)  Can’t high speed strafe all of them without damaging local infrastructure.

LLLLL

Tired of repeating the mantra of “Wanna see perp-walks”,,,

I know, IF, (lord above, please!) such are gonna happen, current Administration is going to make damned sure (At least, I sure hope so) that there ain’t gonna be room to weasel out of this shit.  

Floggin’s too good for him,,, Hangin’s too good for him, Make him swim with the sharks!!!

Just my bloodthirsty desire to see someone being made an example of.    Seems we haven’t had enough examples of what happens when you cross that line,,, Too many out there never been punched in the face,,,  or kicked in the nuts,,,

Funny story about ‘getting punched in the face’.  

Bootcamp, Parris Island, 1989.  Pugel stick training  (the hand to hand course part)    Little guy in my platoon was linked up with a big guy for this bout.    Little guy is running circles around big guy hitting him, hammerin’ on him, and big guy ain’t honoring hits.    Little guy calls a time out and complains to the instructor.  Instructor askes big guy ‘why won’t you honor the hits?”    ‘thems just love taps,,, don’t hurt!” is the big guys reply.   Instructor looks at little guy and says “you heard him” then walks back to the line with a smirk on his face.   Little guy is FUMING!!!  Furious,,,,   You can see it, “Big guy is gonna regret this shit” written all over little guys face.

The whistle goes off and its round three: little guy paces into the fray with his stick in low gaurd.   BIg guy, cocky as fuck, has his one handed, walks straight into it.   LIttle Guy becomes a blur (and if you have ever played with one of those sticks, they aren’t the lightest things to be twirling around.  Heavier than a quarter staff because of all that padding on the ends.)  3 seconds.   That was it.  from whistle to big guy making a dustcloud in the sand as he is laid flat out, no stick in hand and eyes rolled up in his head.  

Little guy calmly walks over to him and asks “Did you feel that one, fucker?”    The instructor loses all decorum and is belly laughing fit to piss his-self.  and the DI’s are all doing thier damdest to keep straight faces as they get a bucket of ice water to wake the sleeping Giant.

Thats about all I got for ya guys,,,,

Live

LOve

LAUGH

Learn

LOAD