Totally a word,,,

Brain fried or something,,   May be it’s a contagion acquired by close proximity to  Dolts,,,   Or just many many miles driven today,,,   

Yeah,, outta town, cooped up in a hotel room right now.   Missin’ the kids, though I AM enjoying a respite from them.   Kinda nice to be able to sit and type without Mama jumping in my face demanding food/attention/playtime.   Or Cozzie coming up behind me and goosing me with a cold nose in sensitive areas.

Maybe that’s my problem.  NO DISTRACTIONS and the mind is coiled up anticipating one.

I made a small change to my “Shortstory shortcut” page.   Added in the Teena story that I finally found in my searches.    She was hiding I think,,,   Not completed, but then, I couldn’t find her for so long, that I sorta lost the stream for direction.   Seeing how I have been playing with an AI of late, its sort of disturbing to me in ways it wasn’t before.  Especially now that I know “small form” AI is capable of existing on current tech; As in LAPTOP sized stuff.  No, it won’t take over the world (unless we allow it) but I has some issues with it.   Namely, How many people are going to start RELYING on it as an everyday tool, much like I have come to rely on my phone for so many aspects beyond ‘Phone’?   I have even been tempted to use the AI to clean up some of my writing: How long before what we are reading ISN’T written by humans?   Are we already there?  

as one of the comments on that vid says, “when its all looks fake, you won’t be able to tell whats real.”   And I have had issue with some of my favorite ‘creators’ recently.  I enjoy listening to Alan Watts, who passed away back in the 70’s.  Most of his stuff has been curated and edited and is available.  ONe that I was listening to sounded so real, but when “Alan’ mentioned Facebook and Instagram,,,   Shrreeaakkkk,,, the Brakes locked solid, rubber burned and the whole vibe was dead in the water.    WTF?!?!   Since then, I have been limiting my listening to only OLD FILMS of him, but even those can be ‘generated’ now, so,,,

Scary times we are facing, and not from Canned sunshine.    How do we KNOW whats real and what’s fake now.    The AI is evolving at an accelerated rate,  Images that were obviously generated just a year ago, are coming out near perfect under the same prompts.   Where we might see a person with two right hands in an image before, now you have to watch for much more subtle tells.   And then you have images like the recent black chick that played Jesus in JCSS in Kalifornia.  Images of her with demon like hands: Generated or real?    Who frellin’ knows.   (FYI, I took great offense at her playing that role.  It was definitely intended as a poke in the eye of Conservative culture, and it worked.)(Alice Cooper recently played the role of King Herod in the same play and I thought that was a moment of brilliance on the parts of the directors. )

my brainium is  all over the place right now.

AI

Religious comparisons,

Ground and Center issues.

World at large acting like a Schizophrenic off its meds,,,,

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It must be Wednesday,  I’m in strong need of some wilderness therapy. Water or woods, DON’T CARE,,,,   Just away from all that^^^^^^

Gonna shut the phone down for the eve and read a real book, made of paper and pressboard, with ink, not pixels.

Gonna be outta town for 48 hours or so.    Gotta run west and finish that project up finally, hopefully,,,,

They have added on twice now when we thought we were ‘just show up, hammer it out and leave’.  

Fingers crossed.

added acouple of entries to the new page.  I had thought about making this extra credit into its own weblog, but I think what I have up there now is gonna suffice.   May clean it up, add to it, what not as time goes by.  The whole shebang is a HUGE topic and arguable, debatable, and ‘suspect’ in many modern westerners.    Interestingly enough, I find it comforting to see that others over the ages have mirrored my skepticism.  It’s not so cold and lonely out here when you read things that are literal mirrors of your own thoughts.

I AM curious as to what others are thinking.     only one mail to the proton account about it, so right now, I’m batting about average for this website.   (as in NOT MUCH TRAFFIC. )  Thats ok, hit it when/if you feel the urge.  I’ain’t goin’ anywhere.

We’ll see what happens.   I’m not commiting one way or the other right yet.

Getting ready for that Dash tomorrow, so gonna cut this’un short tonight.  Not much to say about nuthin’ anyways.

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FYI, a third installment up on the new page. tread lightly if you dare.

Just another day at the J.O.B.    I’m really good at working myself out of work, so to speak.   All welding projects completed at this time: tomorrow may bring new and fun adventures for the Lightning rider named Dio.   

Busted a fingertip.   Nasty bloodblister type bashing, bled like a stuck pig.  Finding blood all over the recently finished gate I was given this morning.  Good thing it has to go out for powdercoat or paintbooth or something.   A little beadblasting will get all of that blood off it.     Finger is sore as heck right  now.

no insights in the ‘real’ world stuff right now.    Been too involved with the new page to bother, honestly.   And, really couldn’t care less so long as the Tyrannical Tantrum Throwers are speaking in polite terms and the threat of Canned sunshine breakout is at a low.   Not like little ol’ me could stop that shit, but I do worry about it.   Guess you could say its a mild form of PTSD left over from growing up in the Cold War.

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Now, a thank you shout out.   For those of you that are merely tolerating my abberations on the page listed up top, I thank you.    Bear with me, this is helping me out to an extent.   My Sleep last night was uninterupted since my mind was able to settle down.   The topic has been ‘itching’ for release for awhile now.   (and I wasn’t sure HOW to go about it without driving all y’uns batty or away.)   No, its not the first time this subject matter has crossed the threshold of this blog, but this time is a bit different,,,   Some of those old ‘mentions’ are going to get pulled up and re-posted on that page.   And yes, there is a POINT to it all, though it may not be obvious yet.    

ANywhoooszzz,,,,, (sang with a yodel) It’s gettin’ late, and I have some reading to do, some ketchin’up if you will. and I’ll try to come up with something with more meat on its bones for this here main page, for tomorrow.

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For those that are curious about what I have been teasing about, I made a new page

Its just the opener for now.   And I may or may not make this into its own site.  This is just the tip of the iceberg to get a feel for if its a worthwile effort on my part or if I should do as my gut says and leave ALL OF IT as a meatspace effort.

So, it ain’t gonna flip all of the lights on, but I don’t think the world is ready for that as yet.  Heck, I’m still reeling a little bit from it; like I’d been sucker punched as I was pulled collar first out of a doorway.  

Keep in mind the opening paragraph: this is not intended as an attack on ANYONE, or on any ones beliefs.   I am putting what I have out there as something to think about.   Some of it is quite personal, in that there are things said there, that I have never shared with anyone.   Not a mask, just felt it was too strange to share. (you’ll understand when you read it.)  

I state that I was going to make the page “comments disabled” but I can’t find a way to do that without shutting down comments to the entire site.  That being said, I do ask that any commentary be addressed to the  Email as I stated in the page, and that I have authority to re-use that conversation in posts.   Not as a weapon but as enlightenment for others.  Maybe something said in conversation between us will help others see some aspect in a better light.  I do list a way to keep your words private, and if you don’t use it, they are up for fair use.

There will be more (much MORE) forthcoming on that page so keep tuned to it.  I will add to it with page breaks so you can jump around and catch the new stuff without needing to scroll through oodles of text.

PS:  this isn’t the first dive I have done of this nature,  This time, I have more ‘evidence’, not just extrapolations and theories.

Much needed break from the chaos.  More later.

Have ya ever had a dream and ‘saw’ a sign, like say, a billboard or something?   And found you couldn’t read it?    Yah,,, that sort of thing.    Happens all the time to me and what I have figured out is that the subconcious is illiterate; the sub works in symbols and emotions only.   It knows the intellect understands all of those lines and squiggles and those are definitely symbols, but the poor medulla oblongata hasn’t a clue how they are structured.

Some of you may recall my ‘gaurdian angel’ that I named Nudge?   Well, we haven’t had a full conversation in a very long time.   Last time was on a bus in Morrocco where she was wearing ‘correct’ clothing for the culture, but only ‘just enough correct’ , the burka and veil, both seethrough, and a tight fitting dress that only went to her knees.  LOL    I always know it’s her, because I can never see details of her face, ever.   Even though she was ‘showing it’ with that veil, it was still obscured to my senses. 

Call me crazy, I can take it.   One, I have never been to Europe, ever, but I knew in that dream where we were.  OOBE?  in a sense, yes, but I think it was more of a Guided DMT trip in the night.   Not saying that OOBE’s aren’t real, I just can’t say with certainty I have had one.  That little visit wasn’t an OOBE, as the people on the bus we were on, could see both of us (and they weren’t at all happy with her appearance. LOL)

Why have she and I not had any meetings in the DMT world of late?   Guessing from past experiance, but I would say it is because I AM on the path she has chosen for me.   A couple of times in the past, that path veered and she ‘did things’ to correct me, or at least lead me back.   Rather like using Maps for navigation and not making that left turn when it says: the program will find an alternate and try to get you back in the right direction.   UNLIKE Maps, she won’t keep giving you verbal inputs: she just makes the new way more difficult, dropping things in your path that hurt.   Like blown transmissions, or financial stresses.  There is ALWAYS some challenge, but when the path gets strayed from, those challanges redirect, not add growth.

Last night as I laid down, I sent out a plea to her, just give me a sign; is this path a delusional obsession?   Is this path twisted interpretations? 

Well, she didn’t come back with a full response, nor a meeting, but there were comforting things in my dreams, essentially saying, ‘don’t worry about it, I got your back’.   Little things, subtle things, but THERE and (I know this sounds crazy, but) vividly ‘REAL’ and memorable.   I woke feeling quite content and reassured.  

Yah, yah,,, Dio  has lost his frellin’  mind,,,,

Can’t lose what ya never had!!!   LOL    Seriously though, Maybe there is some warped part of my brain that is a little nutty, and it shows in this way.  BUT, I am fully functional in society, not a danger to others (well, lets just say it takes a lot to bring out that particular beast,) and I don’t hear voices telling me to do things: only the voices of characters that want their stories written (and those have dwindled to almost nothing over the last 2 years.).    Crazy I may be, but its a ‘good’ crazy IMO.  

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Its sunday, Domestics day, feels like mid-October out there today, not mid-August.   This has been one strange year for weather.   Not going to overthink it, just observe, take notes: May be just another part of that 11 year solar cycle, could be some other longer term cycle in play.   Dunno.    

I will admit this: I have been writing a LOT the last few days.  Probably on the order of 100k words or more, per session; but I hit a point, stop, re-read,,,    “I can’t publish this.” has been my response, every danged time¤.   Crazy thoughts?   No,,, but the information IMO is too volatile for public consumption.  I needs to be addressed in a book form IMO.  Something where someone can read a blurb on the back cover and decide if they want to dive deeper: not fall into the mudpit on a blog site unexpectedly.  That path is how websites DIE horrible deaths.    I even considered setting up another site dedicated only to that line of thought, but danggit!!!!   I can barely keep this one rolling,,,   Two would strain that engine of nuerons and synapsi.  (actually, they would adapt, but there is always some creep factor between the two and I would want to keep them strongly isolated: only a link between the two, with no backflow.) 

So, whatcha t’ink?   Dio needs psychiatric help? OR, Dio needs to build a new site and leave that rambling goofiness ‘over there’?    You guys get to call it.

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¤FYI, I copied and pasted one of those mind dumps into ChatGPT and asked for an assessment: Chat came back with “um, you may wanna tone this down, trim it out, break it up into smaller chunks or something, but at this stage, DO NOT PUBLISH, too deep, too pointed, and not for the faint of heart.”   My gut feeling was the correct one.

I’m gonna go off on a tangent in this post and make this suggestion.    I don’t care where your beliefs lay.   Doesn’t matter for this particular film,

Its ‘unsettling’ to say the least.

No nudity,

No wild action scenes.

SOLID WRITING and some serious acting skills by the two mains.

(and I just realized, its age restricted on Utoob, so you’ll have to sign in to watch it OR find it on DVD,,,)

MUST WATCH.   Real head thinker sort of movie.