In the Buddhist teachings, Pain/suffering are often caused by DESIRE. give that a little introspection and you might see the correlation. No desires, no suffering,,, Well’zzzz,,,, Twuck is a desire. My ‘manifesting a title’ are placing energy into that desire, and that desire is NOT coming to fruition at a rate I accept: in other words,,, Suffering. I’m impatient with the current owner for his lolligagging,,, I had ALL DAY today (and was told, ‘it’ll be here on Monday’) and nada, nothing, nyet,,, I did call dood (not the owner, one of his lackeys.) and he said “should be here, I’ll call you”, only, no,, didn’t,,,
ARRGGGHHH!!!!!
Did it to me-self by getting this idea in my head and pushing Imagining its limits before completion. Detailed ideas of which items need addressed soonest once its in my possession, How to best set it up for my needs,,, only,,,

It AIN’T,,,

I think you see how DESIRE causes this looping angst,,, Yah,,, that!

PATIENCE GRASSHOPPA!!!

And I am trying,,, I can fully accept being told, ‘well, we can’t find the title’, at which point, I blow the desire out of my head and carry on. A minor disappointment, one from out of my control, and there will be a part of me, as always, looking for that chance opportunity: just like how I found this one.

Ohhhhmmmmmmmmm…………

more laters,,, I haven’t written it off, but patience is thin right now. Good comes to those who wait, right???

I keep telling myself that,,,,

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Its that time of year,,,,

Frazzled wet Kat,,, th’bout sums it up,,,

No word on Twuck just yet; still early and not everyone around here is the early bird like this blogger,,,

Been up since 4 woke up rarin’ ta-go, did some calesthenics, yoga, made my juicebrew as I described in an earlier post (ACV, Olive oil, lemon juice concoction): drives off the ‘Hungries’ with a vengeance. One cuppa, no cream, stevia for the illusion of sweet,,, I really don’t feel the need for caffeine these days, but old habits,,, One cuppa may take me an hour or more to consume, and I usually pitch half of it now: gets too cold and it tastes like crap.

Gonna idle the day along, waiting for a call from Dood about title, chilling out (not hard, is KOLD out there,,,) and keepin’ warm with mama-kat in lap. I have a pair of NY strips sitting in a rub for lunch/dinner during my feeding window of 10-2. Those, some olives, pepperjack, and an avocado,,, Mmmm-mm-mmm!!!! Some of y’uns may read that and cringe, but after the last month, that is REGAL eats in my world and my body loves it. The first burst of saliva as I bite into that NYstrip tells me all I need to know about what my body wants.

Funny, a year ago, I saw a meme with food in one window and a pills in another and it stated that “this is medicine”/”this is poison” in each corrosponding window: Its true,,, My body is healing without all the ‘meds’, and taking a couple of acetomeniphines causes my liver to go into detox mode: Night sweats!!! Gotta get rid of that crap from our lives. The Experts LIED/ARE LYING to us,,,

Did Dio find another soapbox? Maybe,,, not one I am gonna harp on, but as this eating thing progresses, the more convinced I am that the Gooberment “food pyramid” is a bunch of industry driven bullshit. (like the fact that there have been studies into the carnivore diet (1 year in 1928 and a Harvard study (that last is VERY detailed info, amazingly)) and the ‘subjects were healthier and less illness prone within such a short span, that even the doctors were scratching their heads. It didn’t fit the narrative/beliefs.

Lord knows the benefits I am seeing eating little more than Meats and fats (with some vegetable matter, sorta,,,) far outweigh the way I was feeling just one month ago. And the only REAL change was cutting sugars out of my diet. I had been mostly carnivore for two years, so the change in eats wasn’t drastic, just what I cut loose. Yes, getting all that sugar out of my system did more for me than just the diet, but the diet is allowing my body to ‘reset’, and I LIKE that reset so far. No arthritis pains. Knees aren’t creaking like breaking spars on a square rigger in a hurricane. Energy at my disposal when I wake, without need of stimulants. Energy enough that I MUST do exercise to keep from bouncing off the walls!!! And the not hurting means I CAN do exercises.

Seriously, I feel like I shed more than 25#: more like I shed10 years,,, Granted, thats subjective and empirical, YMMV,,,,

But its cumulative,,, feeling better wanting to do more and being energetic enough TO DO more. which reframes my state of mind to want to do even more and,,,,, Its an upward spiral of GOODNESS IMO.

Like today,,, Since we are rained out, I had to put myself in check to go kayaking,,, Not because I didn’t want to, but because I am awaiting the word on Title to Twuck,,, And now here I am doing this long ass word spill because I’m wired for 480!!! On nothing but the food I ate yesterday and some wierd concoction of juices and herbs.

Ok, nuff of the salespitch. You are either interested or bored silly with it. Not preaching, no lectures, just spillin’ my thoughts.

It’s gonna rain all day. and the house is warm, and I have a chinup bar thats teasing me right now. (yes, when I built my house, I DID install a chinup bar at the bedroom and the living room juncture. Only lately has it been seeing use.)(NOTE: you do NOT need a gym membership to stay in shape. Your body provides enough ‘resistance’ to get into and stay in shape. I’ve seen prisoners in better shape than body builders, doing nothing but pushups and sit-ups along with running in place.)

Anywhoos,,,, When I know about Twuck, I’ll let ya know too.

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updated: above, I posted a pic of my ‘lunch’. and yep, had already started digging in before I took the pic. Quick check of vitals 45min after eating. BP 115/70 Pulse 71, BG 92, BO2% 97. A month ago, those numbers would have been significantly higher, Hypertension levels on BP, BG over 150, and OX% around 92. I expect the OX levels to drop during digestion,,, its a highly oxidative state and a body burns more energy digesting than most any other activity, short of hard workouts. numbers don’t lie: this IS working.

Great times with Duct-tape fams last night,,, has pictures of costumes and stuff, mine being the lamest IMO, since I went as me as if I were ready for another day at school back in 1985. Headphones, aviator shades, and flannel: the only difference being my jeans were intact at the knees last night,,, Not so much 40 year ago,,,

The theme of the party was 1985. We had Al and Peg Bundy show up, Doc from Back to the Future, MizzPacman Pez dispenser, Red Ghost from Pacman, Mario and the Princess, and the cast of Christmas Vacation. (I know I’m missing a couple but, long drive to and fro, was tired and now, Everything is a bit fuzzy.)

Brudda B and Miss T always put on a good gig, from the great foods to the ambiance of venue,,, They missed their callings and should have been production/producers in the entertainment feild,,,

BUtzzzz, its end-o-week. And in similar vein, end-o-week FOUR in my diet thingy. To date, I have shed 25#, 4″ at the waist, and feel FRIGGIN! FANTAZTIC!!! Even with my splurge while at the party last night, I didn’t over do it, either in consumption of adult drinks or in gluttonous overload on some truly fantastic eats,,,, Maybe later on the other side, I will have regrets for that, but not right now. I feel good, its 6 hours into my day and I am already back into ketosis again.

Whatever I put on last night will be burned off by end of day. In relation to this part of the post and the last part of the post: I wore a pair of jeans last night that I have not been able to get into for THREE YEARS!!! And putting them on had me giggling like a school girl,,, How can I fault my ‘suffering’ when the benefits are so damned joyous? I wake up rarin’ to go, not sluggish and thinking,,,

I hate my life,,,

Not lately that is,,, As in, not in the last three weeks that I can recall,,, At first, it was “ugh,,, i has no energy,,,,” but that faded fast. NOW,,,, “Hot damn! Let’s get ’em!!!” I most certainly do NOT feel 57 these days. At least not when alone with myself. LAST NIGHT on the other hand,,,, Yeah,,, seeing the interpretations of fashion and what people equate with 1985,,, (seeing how most of the goers are in their early-mid 40s, with the exception of Miss T who is 25 and will swear to that on a stack of bibles (not mentioning the number of anniversaries she has had for that birthday,,,), LOL 😛 ) No, I was feeling my age a bit; not at all physically, but spiritually. It wore this introvert down a bit faster than I expected and towards the end, I needed to step out and just be alone for a bit. FWIW, No one was an issue, except me, feeling a bit wrung out and chewed on by time.

But today, has been good. Managed to get propane filled ON A SUNDAY, IN KENTUCKY?!?!?! OMG, What demi-goddess did I have to bed for that miracle,,,, Probably Medusa and the ‘turning to stone’ thing is delayed for a bit because she was satiated,,,, ROFL Sorry, feeling my oats so to speak,,,

Laundry is done, messing with my drivers door on Buffalo since its a frellin mess of wear and tear (why, why why, did GM decide on those mucked up fucked up hinge designs???) Makes for drafty winters driving, if ya know what I mean, or have ever had to deal with one thats loosey-goosey.

BUT, this introvert has some more stuff to do today,. Attempting to ‘manifest’ a twuck title into existence, back flush a heater core in BUff since that thing still likes to plug up over the summer. Not much else to bother with on her, or at least, nothing doable without serious downtime (like rebuilding those hinges and mounting the door good and proper,, or pull the dash out and replace the heater core with a new one,,,, THAT will take some time and doing; neither one is gonna happen in one days time. ANOTHER reason I want Twuck is to have the luxury of really fixing Buff, not just bandaiding her into retirement at some point.)

Get out, view the wildlife, enjoy this ‘reality’ as it was meant to be seen, not the distraction cinema we have built around us,,,

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maybe!!! Underneath it and airing up shoes,,,

locked calipers, potential dead clutch, 3″ exhaust missing where the cats used to be, all 4 tires dry-rotted, though I expected that, headlamps busted,,, no keys,, and right now, questioning if they even have title to it. Dood here says “absolutely yes”, but I haven’t laid eyes on it meself,,,,

Dammit!!!

bonus: engine does turn by ratchet, shows good compression,, its a 350: hard to beat up a 350,,,,

I’m holding tight right now,,, not committing an irreversible move.

Whutch’all tink? Stick to it (dependent upon title) or run screaming??? Input heavily requested in this instance. (note: no title, no buy, PERIOD. I’ve been down that road once before and it took me YEARS to get rid of the paperweight. Ended up donating it to a school as a project motorcycle. )

An interesting (to me) morning,,,, I think I ‘get it’ now,,

What the heck is Dio talkin’bout now?

just this: what happens when the words in your head lose ALL meaning, and you are left with pure emotion. Yet, the emotion is so stable as to be a flatline? No ego! No strife!

just “Being”

If I could bottle where I am spiritually right now,,,,

i started the day in such a state of Being, even Cozzie felt it, joining me in yoga this morning, making me laugh. Elbs was a puddle o kat when he joined me at my desk, perfectly mirroring my mind,,,

more laters as my day progresses,

Haven’t picked up Twuck yet. (HT to Mikee for that nickname so far. Thinking some variation of twuck and SAK (Swiss army knife) for a nickname.). Not stressing about things, in anyway, Why should I stress? This is just a transaction away from reality; then the fun begins. Paperwork and taxes, twisting wrenches and bustin’ knucks. Mo’ monies of course,,, parts aren’t free y’know.

And, of course, Buffalo is feeling a tad jealous right now. Started off the day just fine, and by the time I hit the bottom of the hill, “Check gauges” light came on,,, Showed low fuel light and the gauge was on E. BUT, I filled up just 60 miles ago, so I know thats a lie. Might be a pack-rat issue. Not usually a problem since Buff doesn’t sit much, but it is getting cold out and packrats like trucks that are usually warmer than ambient when they get used often (Buff does, a lot.). I need to get out there and at least get a visual on the wires leading to the tank. Probably just something shorted to ground and likely something I did in the past that took awhile to rear its head. I mean, I have recently replaced the fuel pump and what not,,,,

Life at the J.O.B. has been uneventful. Fabbing some really long ass rolling gates for a church in the boonies. 43′ and 49′ long. Gonna be fun transporting them, but thats the bosses problem, not mine. I just build the stuff. Had they been a touch longer, I would build them in two sections and do final assembly on site. Thats always challenging: keeping things square for the final fit-up. Not my first rodeo, but not doing that this time. Would make transport a lot less head-achy, but not my circus: I’m just a monkey in such.

Side note: I think Burnout is a touch jealous as well. I mentioned that I was buying Twuck and he looked a bit miffed. Sorry bro,,, build your reputation (in a good way, not the negative he has been doing of late) and things will fall your way more often. I won’t go into what negatives he has been doing of late, but if he keeps his trend, he is in for heap of trouble. IF he sticks to the grindstone and sucks it up, he can make this situation shine. BUT he has to do the work. No one is gonna do it for him. No one CAN do it for him, if he wants to be in a better place.

Out in the great wide, seems we may be in for a spot of trouble if the Shutdown continues. EBT cards are set to not refill at the start of the month. That will be a signal that things are worse than the liars club has been letting on. I can see the Dems letting that failure happen as it will ‘motivate’ their army,,, Is that the plan? Your guess is as good as mine. I can see it being in the playbook, but like much they have done of late, I can see it biting them in the ass in some way. I hate to say it, but from a local stance, there are a few people around here that could use to miss a meal or two: shouldn’t hurt them, but it may make them madder than a wet cat. Who am I kidding,,, they won’t learn a damned thing. Too many “entitled” in mindset now. Saw that in an X video where the guy was ranting that the “taxpayers” work for HIM,,, Nope, not gonna see that change in one generation: gonna take a whole lot more than a few missed meals to correct that “SNAFU” created by several decades of socialist agenda being pushed in the halls of a swamp.

Overseas, NATO is biting on a bears ass and things ain’t looking good. Trumped is swearing that he has no clue about the shenanigans and that worries me a touch. IS it that his intel is compromised, or that he’s playing “Plausible Deniability”? Time will tell. When the canned sunshine starts popping up in the wee hours over Europe, all bets are off. (and if you think Russia is gonna give Macron and those idjits a heads-up, I have a bridge for sale,,,). Dunno,, I can’t see a negative here, if Puttie-Putin gets his ire up and decides Paris or Brussels needs a rapid renovation. Might let the rest of the world know that “Hey, he ain’t kiddin’round,,,,” Yeah, sucks to be the civvie living’ in those areas, but y’all could have done some kinetic renovations your damned selves prior,,,, Much like we may need to do on these shores yet.

Life goes on. Level headed, stable moods, some form of natural prozac in my diet or something. SO steady in the head as to make me worry a little (but only a little,,,0 Probably a damned good thing, getting all that junk out of my system and finding out, hey, this is what NORMAL is supposed to feel like. Certainly a lot nicer than my usual ‘hot headed’ reactions. Even Mama-kat is looking at me funny, almost as if asking, “You feelin’ okay Da? you usually freak when I claw your leg for attention.” Yup, learning to be that “mellow cat” again. It has to be the clearing of the house of all that junk I was consuming. I certainly am not getting fired up about the “headlines/deadlines, draining my mind”

mo’laters loves. stuffs to do while the daylight is still in my favor.

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Addendum: Chances of a podcast this weekend are slim. Lots going on, between Duct-tape fam party, TWUCK, and that mess,,, Not saying it won’t happen, but slim pickins on time may dictate a skip*