Stepping away from the blogging thing for a spell.   Dunno when I will return.

I have me reasons,,,

Y’all stay livin’

as if “Odd” were a new feeling for me,,, Have always felt odd around ‘normal’ people.

Just feel like my mind/spirit is going through some sort of transition, and things are ‘out of sorts’ for me.    I watch and read the same things, but I am seeing things with different perspectives now,

and I can’t say why,,,,

Like watching a clip of Putin saying he ‘endorses’ Slo-Jo,,,    I was reading the words (subtitled, his spoken words in Russian) but I could hear the truth in his spoken word though I have not one divot of Russian in my dialogues. (other than nyet, and a couple of other simple phrases)   What I was hearing: He would prefer Jo to stay in the White house so that he and Xi have another four years to consolidate thier hold on the remainder of the rest of the world through the financial systems they are building.   I think they fear Trump getting in and the Deep State enacting the Debt Bomb early and collapsing everything too soon.   They are getting close, but they haven’t grabbed enough of the western world’s attention: IE, they don’t have the Euro or the Dollar in a chokehold, yet.

How is it that I can HEAR that in his spoken word, yet his translated words don’t convey that detailed message.  I’m not psychic, but I can detect those meanings from body language and tones, and those are the messages I was picking up. (And sometimes what is NOT said, speaks volumes more than what is said. )

Odd

Feeling odd

feeling like I can see things not readily visible.   Like the fact that this world is in a major war, but one that is not likely to go full on kinetic, but one of the MIND/SPIRIT of the inhabitants.  

Feel like I may be losing my mind in some moments. (and know I am not alone there,,, this is one seriously fucked up world right now.)

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Very short week this week.  Long four day weekend upcoming, though my time with friends is slotted for next weekend, not this’un.

Water time?   Depends on if that part arrives or not.   Last I looked, it was in Knoxville UPS DC getting loaded up.   It SHOULD be here tomorrow,,,,   If so, I dig into Buffalo again, take my sweet ass time and get this shit right.  She’s been running good, very mild whine on decel, and tire noise is actually louder, but, Still, I worry: Been screwed up more than once over the last year and half by a goofy differential setup.

But yah, water time is in order, and might visit a lake I have not been on much (covered maybe 2 miles of shore line on it,,,)   Will see.   

Y’all keep livin’ out there,,,

Spent all day out in the sun, and feeling a little parbroiled,,,   And that daggum pool we are working around was looking mighty enticing towards the end,,,,

One more day there, I hope anyways,,, the stuff we are putting up moves fast once you get going, its the initial set up of things that takes some time, and has to be right  or the whole thing looks ‘off’.

just a quick Jog through the nets, lots of seemingly positive things happening around the world as well as the not Positive things taking place.   I still have a lot of trepidation that what is going on, on these shores, is contrived from deep places and totally scripted,,, but then I see the populism sweeps taking place in other countries and, well,,,,

Maybe there is some grit left in this country still,,,,

I know there is, but much of what I see is a manipulated public,,, Social media sites are RIFE with it, even Tucker has pointed out how that whole thing works,,,(that I can’t find now, figures,,,)

Still, I watch the goings ons, and there is more than a little bit of cyncism in my thinking,,,   Oh, How I would love to see the Leftoid mentallity crumble into the dust bin where (IMO) it belongs.   

But I know there are many many many people out here in the great wide world that cling to wanting regulation to dictate how they live breath operate function,,,,,    And that doesn’t just ‘fix’ itself overnight,,,

You gotta trust people,, thats the first rule,,,  IF you have no trust that (most) people will do the right thing, then you end up with tyrants.   May not happen fast, but the end is always the same.  Your distrust and “there aughtabealaw” mindset leads there.     When regulations grow to high, then there must be enforcement, and that enforcement is never at the individual level, and that breeds the interdependence, loss of individuallity, and devolution of society into what we see now.   Eleets that only want more and more control, those that want to be told what to do, and the rest that JUST WANNA BE LEFT ALONE.

sorry for the rambles, my mind is sun-fried today,,,

Have a cute kat video instead of my monologue of doom.

More than a little grey out there this AM,,,   Calling for Thunderboomers later in the day, and with the humidity at SCUBA levels, I can feel that happening.

Totally ignoring the webz the last 24 hours.   Only actions have been banking things, payin’ bills, shuffling digital book entries around so it looks like I am actually paying things.   Funny how little we actually handle cash these days,

I’m just waiting on the last of my parts to arrive before I dig into Buffalo again.   I could do it now, I do have a crush sleeve to replace whats in there, but I really don’t want to fart around with trying to crush that sleeve down to its proper setting.   I feel thats a large part of why I am getting noize now.   (IE I didn’t get it properly crushed down, and the bloody thing has been sloppin’round in there.) 

New bearing and race, new CSE on its way, a tube of Jaundiced yellow oil paint (yes Virginia, that is what that test pattern stuff really is, that every autoparts place asks mad money for.) a new pinion seal just because, and oodles of patience.    I know I will likely have to pull things apart a few times AGAIN to get it right, and I WILL get it right this time.   I know NOW the areas I did not do so well, or ass-backwards, and I have better ways of checking my work as I go.   Even bought a torque adapter that reads in/lbs to make sure I am not guessing on pre-loads.

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Gonna admit it, the last week has pushed me into a “dark night of the soul” period.   Can’t run away from this shit though,,, its all inside me, and running always brings me back to the mirror where I have to face the problemchild.

I know that things are not as they seem, I know that 99% will play along and I don’t get it.   Sometimes I feel like the wandering homeless have the right of it,,, just drop out of society as a whole and go their merry way.  

Problem with that,,,,,, Kats and tools. 

and books,,,, Loves me books.   those things require a home, to store, to house, to protect,

So no runnin’way, eh?   Yeah,,, I know, besides, I run, I am just staying one foot in front of the real issue that is located right behind my eyes and 2″ behind my sternum.

Let it go!    You can’t fix stoopid and the way this world is ran, IS stoopid.   Like that money thing,,,  A resource that everyone needs to some extent (because barter only gets you so far) and yet its become a tool, one that has been weaponized.    And abused,,,  Look at how the FEDRES came into being and how it has manipulated things since.   Income tax was supposed to be voluntary and now,,,,   and who knows what the actual tax laws are,,, its seem capricious in application, worded in such a way it can mean anything, but the ones defining it are the ones in control.   Thats a dangerous situation with many many ways to corruption (hey, like what we have been seeing, no?)

I’m tired of the games, and part of me just wants that wanderlust back, but the costs to me are too high currently.   Maybe one day I will just say ‘fuck it’, find Mama and Zoomie a new home, load a kayak or a backpack and just dissappear over the horizon.   

Maybe.  

maybe not.

probably not,,,, I like my toys tools,,,,   More importantly, I am old enough that I like a comfortable bed on the regular,,,  Camping can be comfortable, but more often than not is a compromise of factors, leading to not so comfortable. (just ask Mark E how well he slept when his pad picked up a leak.)

Ok, enough of the ruminations of nothing in particular,,,, I has duties that need attended today, including a jeans repair where I ripped a hole  in the hind quarters area.  (embarrassing)  Danged odd-ball bolt sticking out, caught my ass, Literally.    Might make it to the lake and do some paddling in the rain (if not booming out,,, no like the thunderboomers.) and try to seek some solace to this dark night of the Soul I am feeling.  

Gotta find a purpose that has longer goals than just paying the bills and getting through to the next pay period.

Keep on livin’  

FIrst point in order,,, Someone in the CNN hiearchy was given orders to stop covering,,, That much seems quite obvious with the 180 Degree shift from just 24 hours lead-up to the debate,,,

Second point in order,,, SCOTUS drops two rather heavy decisions into the fray the very next day.  Decisions that give Ammo to a POTUS that would like to streamline a FedGov,,,,   THIS IS NOT ACCIDENTAL,, This is all scripted,,,  I would bet there were two options on both counts depending on how that debate went down.

And then the dead cat bounce thing in the markets,,,

Watching it all, seeing how the usual talking heads are handling things, the hoopla over ‘who replaces the Corpse in Chief’, How the hell is the DNC going to pull a switch so close to the (S)election cycle and make their choice onto state ballots (recall, there has been a bit of stink over the timing of the convention and cut offs in certain states)

We’re being played people,,,   Things are not as they seem.   BCE nails it in his assessement that JFK was the LAST actual Presidential Choice this country has seen.  The rest have all been cardboard cutouts to give the illusion of choice to keep the charade going.

I would like to think that A change in the Gaurd at the Executive level will quiet the mess going on in Europe, and we can stop the madness that is escalating into WW3 with a quickness,,, 

But I can’t: the actual War is ongoing, its not being fought with bullets and bombs, but Memes and propaganda, Societal brainwashing, and money.    The Kinetic stuff that is taking place is part of the game, but is not the game itself,,, “We have always been at war with Eurasia”  

And that model is failing,,, its hard to see, but the cracks are there.  Decentralized everything is gaining,,, Home educators are growing, and that builds the foundation for the rest.    The old gaurd; the boomers, and yes, us Gen-X to some extent, are on the way out.

I’m gonna stop here,,, the black pill is strong today,   

Gawdalmightee,,, $9 carburator, Feels like a friggin $300 BRAND NEW mower,,,,

35 minutes later, Yard is (mostly) done,,,   No boggy rpm’s on the hill,,, Rolled right over the HayFeild out side my door and never balked.     The war on weeds is back on, in full, and I’m winning again.   

Now, I am sitting here typing this out, dripping all over everything even after my cold shower to wash the sweat and weedclippngs off, and its

BEER THIRTY!!!!

It’s amazing how when things work well, the job is not intimidating,,,

And now the Da won’t be on my ass about it (as much,,, We’re talking Da here,,,)

Apolitical commentary forthcoming,,, Not interested in tapping that out in this heat at present,,,,    AND, My take is not giong to line up exactly with the stuff I am seeing on the webs,,,,   More curmudgeonly, maybe even conspiracy theorist level, or could be defined that way.

more laters,,, hot, want beer, and mama-kat wants Kow, which I forgot to get on the way home,,,,

Ok, not the whole danged thing, but enough to see

1: Joe is not capable. Mumblmumblmumblmubbl

2: this was a scripted SET UP,  but not th way I expected (more on that in a minute)

3: my original thought of ‘plans are already in motion ‘ by actors we never see, still holds

I watched up to when Tapper told Trump  ‘then you can do whatever you want to’.  These were words from the controllers behind the scenes to Trumped: ‘play along now’   That was part of the script and one that reinforced what I have been thinking: they are gonna let him win,  but he won’t  get to play like he keeps saying he will.  It’s gonna be another stonewalled administration for more of the same old same old; just like his first 4 years.  All to keep the plebes placated and quiet .   

Epstiens list will remain top secret, Hunters laptop will fade away again, no one will be investigated for anything and the border will remain open. 

Change my mind,  

I have a J.O.B. to do,  a truck that needs wrenched on, and kayaks that want to play,

In otherwords, A LIFE TO LIVE

And this shit,,,,,

More later