Dunno’bout y’all, but this week has been kray-kray from the word go.    And not on the J.O.B. front, or home front, but out in the wilds of the world.   

Not even going to speculate on how things are being driven, and hoo-boy, if you think the antics abound aren’t being driven, than you might to do some hard core deep dive into C.S. Lewis and Spooner for some lessoning.  Toss in some Bernays for flavor and thickening.

Honestly, the more I meditate on things; and I am doing LOTS of meditating lately, the more I come to the conclusion that this is all the final thrust of a world that has been built on lies since before Yeashuah was crucified.   I’m not going to go into it all here, too deep a rabbit hole and I would need to make a  map for your first.  NOR would I expect you to see things the same way I came to,,, to many variables and you might find things I missed or see them under a different light for a different perspective.   I can only say, the more I dig, applying what I DO KNOW of human nature and giving it that Occams Razor approach,,,  

There ain’t nuthin’ new under the sun, and people might change with technology, but the core ingredients have not evolved one iota in two thousand years.   There will always be those that desire power over others, and those that just want to be left alone, and those that are so damned gullible ‘For justice’, the first group can manipulate them at will.  

To quote Heinlein; “There Ain’t No Justice”    (TANJ was a swear word of a sort, used in several of his novels.)

and another “TANSTAAFL”   There Ain’t No Such Thing As A Free Lunch   (straight outta The Moon is a Harsh Mistress, that’un is.)

But there will always be the squishy headed that think Utopia is right around the corner, and there will always be those that desire power and are more than happy to use whatever means available, to include the squishy minded types, to get it.

And that leaves the rest of us,,, The Sigmas, a term I keep coming across, and finally dug into ‘WTF is this crap about?’,,,, Yeah, I live under rocks most times and trendy shit takes a bit to find  me and leak under the rocks.   Just another name for those that understand “DON’T TREAD ON ME” at the spiritual level, IMO,,,,

But all of this Kray-Kray seems to be building to something,,,, And NO ONE seems to have a clue how its going to blow, how strong the blow will be, or in which direction the blow is aimed.    The dirtbags in DC that are so obviously out of control right now, (at war within is the gist I am catching), who knows what orders are going to get passed down, to either start some shit so they can cancel the (S)elections cycle, or kick of the Jihaddi factions (a can of worms they have ZERO clue about, and once opened,,,,) or

hell, I don’t know,,, I can’t see any sanity, but I am seeing much hubris and delusional actions from being so disconnected from the people,,,,  That shit happens when you live in an echo chamber and feed on your own waste products for generations.

The only thing  I keep coming back to, is that this shit-show is going to blow up, not IF, just WHEN,,,, and HOW of course, but thats why we prep, right, for the unknown-unknowns,,,,   The surprise party that you didn’t expect when Mama–Gaia has had enough, or the societal collapse when the grid fails, or, or, or,,,,,

yeah,,, that.   You do NOT have enough ammo,,,,   Thats the only truth I see these days. 

I’m just glad as hell that a former KGB agent is showing so much better restraint than our current unknown ‘leadershit’ heirarchy,,,   It’s good to know there is at least one adult (power hungery he may be,,,,) at the helm, somewhere.

And part of me is falling for the shit-show.  How many of you have any idea what is going on in the KrainianKokedupKlownKar?  Or whats going on in Gaza (I Know Knutjob is visiting Mara-lago, after being snubbed by the corpse in chief, and others. but whats goin’ on at site of his ‘issues’?)   Dunno,,, of course, the medias, are to enraptured by the Political funzies of DC to, I don’t know, like actually keep tabs on things?   Keep people informed”   

I am taking the low road on this note though,,, I have been increasingly lazy when it comes to ‘keeping up’ on that shit because in no small way, I have seen through it and see it for what it is.

COMPLETE BULLSHIT

Complete bullshit we keep buying into and letting those who claim to be our betters, rape us of our hard-earned wages, so they can grift and money-launder their way to wealth and more power.  

yeah,,, feeling that black pill coursing through my veins tonight,,,  

Telly’all what,,, double shots on me, but you gotta pour your own,,, whatsayya?

keep on livin’, laughin’ and loadin’    The world is not as fucked up as those in power want us to believe.

a warning?

Think Kurt Vonnegut,,,,,

another of those timebombs planted deep in my brain.

Shit out there is getting crazy, with the whole wondering if Slo-Joe is even alive or not (has he been alive for the last 4 years?   Lots of thinks that what we have seen are a series of body-doubles,,, Not goin’ down that rabbit-hole as there are far too many moving parts and too many that would ‘leak’,,,,  I think this’un’s too far out there, and would require WAY MORE competence.)

Thunderboomers rollin’ around my hills here in Appalachistan,,, more water than  these hills and trees know what to do with, and probably some good white water in some creeks,   Not going there right now: gotta DirtyBird run this weekend coming up with Friends and Duct-tape Fams,,, Taking Rio with.  and am considering taking the ARC to put up for sale,,,,   Sell her there or lug her back, doesn’t matter much to me.   She’s been hanging out there since the last DirtyBird run and I sorta feel guilty about that.  

Fact is, I am so much more confident in Rio, that I can do things, even if on flat water currently, that I wouldn’t even attempt in the ARC.  I feel ‘as one’ with the boat; like we are attached at the hip (we are in a sense if you count the seat and skirt) and she responds quick as thought to me.  

Anywhoosits,,, its a Muhnday, was a Muhnday right out of the gate and its hot, DAMP (94% humidity here current) and the kidz are all skitzoid with the T-boomers,,,

keep on livin’

but the recent Kabuki theater shenanigans prompted me to get my voice out and on record,,,,

My take of Xi-den renouncing his re-election bid,,,,

This is Doc Jills big F! You! to the Dems, and Slo-Jo has little to do with the decision (other than his physical/mental state being a factor)  Nopes! this is ‘Doc’ Jill telling Barry Seotoro to go get fucked, and setting it up so the DNC MUST accept Joe’s ‘endorsement’ of that creature they so loath; Knee-pads Harris. 

I have no idea of the internal infighting going on right now, but I can imagine that the name calling is at levels not seen since Barry and Killary had a improved meeting on the Tarmac in Arizona (wherafter, she politely pulled out of THAT presidential bid, and was quickly ensconced as SecState when the ‘lightbringer’ was elevated to power. Nope, no deal making going on in that private jet, no way,,,,>sarc off<)

With an incumbents endorsement, the party (usually) is burdened with carrying out the orders of the encumbent.    I would say that there is a whole lot of Mafioso manuevering going on behind the scenes and some are trying to re-write the rules on the fly.   

And if they can’t do that, they will shutter the whole damned show in some way.  

Mr Trump, watch your back,,,  NO, MORE than ever now,,,   They tried once, they WILL try again, and the mistakes they made won’t be done twice (too many watching now.)  Seriously, watch your back and Double vet any that are assigned to you.

Mr Kennedy,,, You are not far behind on that watch your back list.   Especially if they get to DJT first,,,,      

And I have serious doubts that the (s)election will even happen.    Shit will be done, even if it means an EMP or major Cyber-attack (with tons of fingerpointing at Russia,,, yeah we’ve heard that one more than once,,, the jokes old guys.) or who knows what the desperate will pull,,,, There are 4 months (3 1/2 closer) till Nov 5th and another 2 months they can delay and obstruct the wishes of the people,,,, and God only knows what sort of damage can be done via EO’s with the signiture of a corpse on them (and if you think Biden will survive 3 months after leaving office???   Too many knives and grudges on that side of the aisle.   And lots of dirt,,,  I wouldn’t expect Jill nor Hunter to last 6 months even with protective services  (think Epstein in jail,,,,,,)  )

so there’s my two cents, adjusted for inflation, worth about the wrapper on your Double Mint chewing gum,,,,,

(warning: this post was written over several days, no real point up front.)

Y’all know my take on the quantum realms interacting with the physical realms that most people happily call reality it (it ain’t, but)  

I’ve been known to, in private conversation, to talk about ‘The Collective” and I am not going all Marxist in my thinking when I discuss this.   That “Big C” in my book is more akin to a God or some higher power,,,    And in my theory, is composed of particles of each of us, every single swinging richard that sucks atmo on this water covered rock that circles a two-bit star in an outer arm of this particular galaxy (one of many galaxies),,,   Parts of each and everyone of us makes up the collective.   We have no control over what that part does,,, well, not directly that is: we do have some control over it: by how we live and what we believe, but where it goes from there is not ours to decide.  

and with the collective being made up from peices from everyone else as well,,, what you get is a homogenized mess of thinking,,,

NOW,,, watching some videos from all the different factions that are making talking points in this krazed fucked up world we live in, I can see why my thinking is so damned fucked up right now.    I watch one, and the guy is going on and on about “the lies that they wouldn’t call out” and he wasn’t talking about Biden,,,, 

I hear the same thing from both sides.   THE EXACT SAME THING and yet no one is willing to sit the fuck down, and TALK,,,  they want thier point of view broadcast as widely as possible and no discussion  or debate (REAL debate, not those shams that the MSM put out and call debates.)  

Divorce seems inevitable.

Last night, while coming up through lucidity, Horrors came to the front.   Dunno if its just my Sub trying to figure out a “What if” or was precognitive/predicitve.    I was in a building, not anywhere familiar, when a shock wave rocked the ground and tossed the contents of the building.   MUCH bigger than conventional HE type booms, and definitely not naturallly seismic in origin,,, and then the atmospheric shock wave hit and it was obvious that we had been nuked.

Apologies for the digressions,,, lots of thinks, getting spread out over days, and my world and mind (same thing,,,) are not exactly coherent right now.

That collective mentality,,,, Look around you, how many people do you see on the day to day, that ‘ain’t quite right in the head’.   How many people are wandering around our little planet on psychotropics?  or mood stabilizing drugs?  Why is one of the number one prescribed meds in this country Xanex?   If you think you are feeling off, maybe its because ‘the Collective Mind’ is  drugged up and confused as well.   

as well as mal-educated in most of the younger versions.    Can’t say how many ‘public educated’ grads I bump into that have ZERO clue about some of the most mundane things.  And many can’t read cursive writing after graduation,,,,   Additionally, most act as drones: can’t do a damned thing without being told what, how, when, and need babysat through the whole process,,, How did we get here?

Human Nature.     Humans always want to take the path of least resistence,,, Hell, electricity wants to do the same thing so I can’t say human nature is ‘unnatural’,,,,   Laws of Entropy apply, even on societies.

We’ve gotten lazy,

no,,, let me  restate that

We’ve gotten LAZIER,,,,   and its always someone elses problem to deal with.   We absconded our duties to each other in pursuit of self interest.   There was a time, in this country, where we self policed our streets.   A criminal caught, would be held for judgment by the elders and may be pillaried or put into stocks(or worse) in the public square.   The example made for all to see.   The example that the parent could show the child.   We hide our criminals behind walls now, and they are glorified in art these days.    (leaving the fact that Trumped is now considered a felon, seeing that most of the charges are bogus and misrepresented, or even based on laws so fresh, the ink hadn’t dried on them, being applied as if there were no statute of limitations,,,   That whole situation was so blatantly “Weaponized Politics” it would make Hitler blush.)  

Ethics aren’t taught in schools (or they are, but the ones being taught now are warped and twisted and just ‘wrong’ on so many levels,,,)  Most parents have left education to the teachers, but have no idea what the kids are being taught; and no, that is not a new trend, but has become an evolutionary one, as the parents now, their parents were much the same way,,,   As a society, we ‘trusted’ where we should have been on alert.

We got lazier.   Each generation letting go a little more of what we should have held tight,

and its not all our fault.   We were never taught.  Those things stopped being taught when the schooling left the home and went generic.  A little here, a little there and “Progress”,,,,

I get to the point these days, where I just don’t see anything “I” can do,,, I teach as I can: occasionally here, often when I get the ear of someone local,

and yet, more often that nihilistic ‘what does it matter’ keeps rearing its head and want to load the boat with camp gear and head over the horizon. never look back.  

that way lies death.  Death in societal eyes, possibly death in other ways, much more final.

I care

I stick to it, despite the depressions and angst.   

I keep learning, hoping there is some puzzle peice I keep missing, one that locks the whole together and brings unity where there is only division now.(on that note, yeah, I still have liberal leanings, but I also have conservative learnings: that Utopia AIN’T all that.   But I do know that there are ways to live in peace, and that in most all cases in history of such, it was by getting rid of GOVERNMENT.  (Think the Christmas of 1917 with Brits, French and Germans playing soccer together, before returning to the trenches trying to kill one another.  Government was left in the mud that day, and those boys knew a peace, for a moment.)

I see now why Larken Rose has gone quiet over the last few years.

You can preach, and preach and preach, but the choir already knows it, and the congregation ain’t listenin’.(or present in most cases.)

I’m one person.  In the macroscopic level of reality (the one we think of as such) I am a brief spark of energy in a universe infinitely large.   Imagine if you will, the photon of energy projecting from the screen you are reading on, hitting your retina: That brief spark could represent any one of us in the big picture of the Universe.  

Hell, that may be all we are,,, one brief flash of thought in the neurons of God,,,,

So what does it matter that a bullet took off the top of someone’s right ear?   What does it matter that some grand scheme to steal an election, or even outright cancel one, will kick of a civil war in this country?   or that the power mongers hidden behind veils of secrecy are trying to find a way to burn the world, in such a way that they can point the fingers at others in blame: to maintain thier positions, you understand,,,,

Oh, I could keep going,,, my thinks of late are even darker than those written here.   

sigh.

It seems so pointless some days.   I keep getting up to make the donuts, pay the bills and put one foot in front of the other, and yet I feel like I am sliding downhlll into an abyss of despair, pain and loss.

I feel like I am going flat NUTZ some days.    It’s days such as yesterday, when I can get away from all the ‘worldly problems’ and plant my feet on something that was there long before me, and will be there long after I am dust, that I can see just how pointless the games we focus on, are.

“We are all here to learn a lesson or to have fun” and apparently I am here to learn, since I certainly am not having fun.   BUT, what that lesson may be??? not a frillin’ clue.    (or is it “figure out that none of this is real, so go have some fuckin’ fun, dumbass!”)

keep livin’ laughin’ and loadin’.

Nothing at all wrong with the world at large,,, the problem is much more ‘individual’,,,,

That last is from the water of the place I visited,,,,  I could camp there for a week and be content, and believe you me, TEMPTED!!!!!   Through the week the lake is danged near abandoned and I would be quite content just sitting on that little spit of land and doing nothing but get re-acquainted with ‘Mama’,,,,

Been feeling way to isolated and disconnected lately.   And the world events are not helpin’ me any.   And why I keep leaving this danged phone behind me (chose not to this trip since I wanted some pics to remind me later. BUT, once I get home, the thing sits on the desk as I go about my routines, WITHOUT IT!!!

And I have to say, I am KNOW I am not alone in how things are hitting me.    There is a new term running around

“The Great Enshittenment”

says it all, no?

anywhoos,,, Hope you can vicariously enjoy my escape today,,, It was seriously needed on my part,,, and I could have stayed there for days if had planned accordingly*****sigh******   I didn’t, obviously,,,   mehbe next time,,, like around fall when the lake REALLY gets quiet,,,,

ONE!

Phone going off in short order, boat getting loaded as soon as I hit Publish, going to go to the lake and find me an atoll far from the crowds (though not some of the fast movers, but they tend to keep thier distances.)

and DECOMPRESS.

The more I read, the more I see that nothing is what it seems, and that there are forces at work that are playing games for ‘all the cards’

and they are playing both sides of the table so that they can’t lose.

Only losers in this game are US: the tax slaves of the plantation that “THINK” we have choices.

Ugly thoughts in my head, sick and tired of people right now (happens when I am crew lead for too many days,,,) and in need of some ground and center time.

Can’t fix the world to my liking, (and why would I when there are 8Billion other individuals with their ideas of ‘fixed’ ) but I can fix my little corner of the Matrix to fit my comfort zone.

Fact, I just need to adjust the realm between my ears, so that ‘None of that’ swings my moods so sharply.  (taking a hint from BCE here)

Did I mention I am hating other people right now?   yeah,, that ain’t helpin my G&C right now,,,,

More laters,,,

Keep on livin’ laughin’ and loadin’     I’m personally workin’ on that laughin’ part.

thoughts from BCE Read and think about it,

THEN

From C.J. Hopkins

and a little quote from such;

Imagine, if the authorities in charge of a prison instigated a war between two prison gangs, who were actually fighting for dominance in the prison. The gangs are real. The war is real. When it is over, one of the gangs will be dominant among the prison population. However, everyone will still be in prison, probably under a state of lockdown, which is what happens after a prison riot.

Look to the southern border,,,, some of a wall, but not complete yet.

Look to the north, a gaurdian state that is more anti-individual than here.

look to the east and west,,, Protective bodies of water, that also serve as barriers to escape to all but the most intrepid and daring.

then look about the world,,,,   Where would you go anyway?

Dark minded thinks today: working on bringing some lightness and wonder into the brainium of mine,,,

more laters

maybe much laters

keep on livin’ laughin’ and loadin’