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is it conspiracy when statistics line up PERFECTLY?

when you see the exact same  patterns, repeatedly, over and over, in every single cycle across the board?

worth the read.

nothing is what it seems.

Not saying “Don’t vaot”,,,  But WATCH and record what really happens.   When 20000 votes ‘flip’ in real time on CNN, then something ‘ain’t right’.  

How to fix it?  

I truly do not know.  this one is WAY above my paygrade so to speak.

burn it down and rebuild?   but who directs the rebuild?  those that are controlling the voat now? Lord I hope not, but who can say?    It’s enough to make a body want to quit,,,,

and THAT is exactly what they want us to do.  They hate our individuality, our refusal to be that widget they can direct by the push of a button,,,,,    They want CATTLE, not people.

and they are never satiated.  NEVER,,,    Empty souls driven by unsatiated powerlust.   Like a Heroin addict, always needing more more more,,,, 

But I think the bigger problem is in ignorance.   WHO are THEY?   We can wiggle out the ‘where’ these power points are, but the WHO remains elusive.   Soros is a name, but is he the ‘mastermind’ or the puppet for others?   The centers that control the operations,  staffed with real flesh and bloods, but are they the controllers or the controlled/employees?   and there is always that probable deniability thing in play.    Do you think for an instant that Peelousy will admit to being on the recieving end of her success via fraud?   hell no!  No one would.   BUT those patterns are not natural, too consistent from top to bottom, across the spectrum of fields.   From Dogcatcher to president, they all look IDENTICAL.      My Da has never voated in an election,   until recently, never showed any interest in the (S)election cycles.   BUT, I would bet, if I were to look in on voater regs in Ohio, his name is there and he is recorded as ‘voating’ for decades,,,,

I don’t trust the system.    I haven’t trusted the system since I voated for Ron Paul in 2008 (yes I did.   the ‘other options’, weren’t.) and saw how THAT went down.   Yes, I voated for Trumped in the last two, and was actually shocked when he won the first,     That won’t happen again,,,,,   These centers that control the system won’t allow it.  OR if they do, it will  be because a deal was made,,,, the power will NOT surrender its position, but it might negotiate a truce to ‘play the proles’.

There is no democracy  this is a shell game played by an oligarchy hidden behind curtains and curtains of subterfuge.   The Republic has been stolen away.  The idea is strong and valid, the application to it; forgotten,,,,   for now,,,

Illusions.  

just keep clicking that clickbait and you can stay ‘free’, keep paying those taxes and we’ll let you keep breathing, for a few years more.

Don’t forget to voat!

Thanks to Chris Muir and I should hope so, about the anger,,,

——————————– apologies for a downer post,,,    But I have to vent it out or I get all ‘crawl in the hole and pull it in after me’ otherwise.—————————-


I’m off

Buff’s shoes swapped out,

It’s nearly equinox

And the skies are clear.  

Scheduled VENT for 3pm,   had to unload and didn’t wanna blow everyone’s day,  so I slotted it for later.

And now,,,

The water calls,,,,,,,,,,,,,


What a long strange trip its been,,,,

Home from the J.O.B. yesterday, spent it working on Brudda B’s Selkie, putting in that floorboard, or at least getting the boards in place so I can lay some glass over them. Thats taking a wee bit since they are getting fitted between ribs to lay flat. Want a nice smooth surface to keep shoes on feets in the event of a wet exit.

I did some walkin’ in the woods with an aging mutt, THE Voodoo, cracked-glass eyed mutt from Texas. Poor dawggum can’t hear a lick these days, but his eyes are just as sharp as ever. Unless he is distracted, I found. He was busy gnawing back some fresh greenery and I spooked a rabbit; said runny-babbit ran within 2 feet of Dawgum and ,,, NUTHIN’. no jump at the fuzzy, nothing,,, just chew chew chew,,,, LOL. Maybe he did see it and figured, ‘ain’t no way I’m gonna catch THAT!” ; he is an OLD dawg after all(13 years!!!). Dunno.

And I did some ‘walking back in time’ while out in those woods. Y’all have read my posts on growin’ up, but I didn’t mention that I had pulled out my Da’s ol’ Bear Recurve, one of the original Grizzly models. Even has the funky green glass they used and the original copper bear penny in the wood riser. Only 40# pull, but thats plenty for that type of bow. It’s not like I intend on hunting buffalo with the thing. Walking with Voo in the woods, had a couple of field tips with me, and was shooting stumps. First couple of shots, rusty as hell. But I was back in the groove pretty quickly. Found I can still hit a pie plate sized target at 60yds. Not bad for a bow with no sights, and an ‘old dude’ that needs readers to read a book. Voo remembered it as well: as soon as I raised that bow to make the first shot, he was all excited about chasing after whatever I shot. He does the same thing when I am shooting rifles. All “Hell yeah! Lets kill sumpin!!!” Da’s bow is one of those heirlooms that will probably follow me through hell and high waters, until I get like him, and just not able to handle it. Then it will find home with someone highly appreciative, not necessarily family. The bow is made to last generations, and is so simple in function, it would take serious abuse to ruin it. (Like leaving it improperly strung for years,,,, SERIOUS abuse,,,). I do love that old bow, and Da knew it when he passed it on to me.

I would love to get a Hungarian Horse bow. Shorter length with even more snap due to the Saiya’s. I made a couple of PVC versions years back (documented on earlier blog) and had a blast with them, but they weren’t made for longevity. PVC doesn’t age well. The biggest thing about that project was learning how to ‘make do’ using materials out of the box. Learned a lot, not just about ‘making do’ but making bows in particular and how to squeeze every ounce of energy out of them. How to tune the arrows to match the bow, and more importantly, HOW TO SHOOT INTUITIVELY. Not a lost skill; many others are right there too. BUT, it’s not a common skill anymore. Far too many archers using modern compounds with sights and telescopic ones at that, with high tech arrows and mechanical releases. (I still own my TRUball BT gold 4 release from when I was playing with compounds,,, Its great release.). I do appreciate the technology improvements, I just feel more in-tune ‘throwing sticks’ with minimal fuss and equipment.

But I have been doing that whole ‘Where have I been, what have I learned’ thing this week, and Dunno how it came to be. Not perturbed by it; I think I needed it to be honest. May be that it was something I am in need of in Grounding and Centering my spirit in these turbulent times: sorta kinda like reminding myself that I DO have the skills to make my way when things go all teats up. Skills enough to support others if need be, especially if they are willing to learn,,, I won’t say that I am “Tom Brown Jr” levels of survival skills, but I wouldn’t be in danger if I only had a knife and the clothes on my back. And I do keep an old M65 field jacket with couple of pockets filled with simple survival tools; things like a Lifestraw, Morakniv, spare bowstring, and some fishhooks. Little shit that might be the difference between “well that sucked’ or “this is gonna hurt, A LOT’. (Why a spare bow string? Because I can come up with a bow from just about anything, but that string can be the linchpin to success. AND, its an 11 strand continuous wrap string that I made using 75# test braided fishing line(spyderwire brand). There is 44′ of fishing line in there, if thats what is needed over a bow; whether it be fishing or trapping.)(yes, if you haven’t read my old blog, I do know how to make bowstrings, and not just the Flemish twist types.)

It’s been one hell of a trip, these last 50 some odd years. Things I picked up along the way, skills that are cross compatible and lucrative (potentially) but seemingly trivial in modern life. I occasionally preach about picking up skills and PRACTICING THEM whenever able. And I guess that was one of the things I was doing while out walking Voo,,,, putting my words into practice. Survival is actually easy, so long as you know some basic things. Fact is, we have EXACTLY the same resources today that Mungo the Cro-magnon had back before Capitol H history began. (lower case history is what they dig out of the ground, Capitol H history is what was recorded for posterity.). We just have to realize the details of those resources.
And the biggest detail is that animals make grass and other inedible (to us) things taste good!!! Ya just need to know how to get that animal into your hands to make it work. And how to make a fire even when the weather (especially when) is against you. How to make a shelter that keeps you warm even when the fires die. how to get water that is safe to drink (because the modern waters are full of bugs that can make you violently ill, even when they look and smell perfectly clean,,,) Sounds complicated, it ain’t, not really,,,, The biggest difference between us and Mungo: we know WHY clean water and such are important, no myths or horror-show guesses.

sigh,,,, So much stuff crammed into this wee cranium,,, I surprise myself somedays with the shit I can recall, and Dog only knows what there is in the back channels that I haven’t recalled,,,,It’ll come out with need, I am sure: thats how I am always getting surprised.
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It’s Satyrday, kayak-y day and I am headed out soon. One thing I must do before I get rolling and that’s to put Buffalo’s summer shoes back on her. The winter ones are pretty much shot through, (one has a busted belt, making her ‘wobble’. One of the joys of living on a drive that a rutted mess. ) and need replaced. It’s nice having spare rims for easy swaps like this. And I can take her winter shoes to have new put on, and NOT need to leave her at that shop all day.
But, I am going to get WATER TIME in, finally. Looked on my tracking app and the last time I was on water was Feb3 of this year. TOO LONG,,,, granted, fighting the Crud held me back, but that doesn’t appease the spirit of the wild in me,,,,

more laters


Some more thoughts of #waybackawhen,,,,

Sis and I grew up, mostly, in a single parent home.  Da was the breadwinner and stanchion that held our lives together.(still is in many ways.)  Eldest sis sorta took on the role of ‘mom’, especially in my case, since I was still very much in school, and she had more time to be able to deal with said school and my punk ass ways, where Da was busy busy busy trying to keep us under roof, bellies full and in clothing. (no mean feat that last as I went through several growth spurts; cloths not even worn out but didn’t fit anymore.)

And I had D&D, or AD&D as I progressed,,,,     Local bookstore was able to keep me in books and I would work as stocker for them to pay for my addiction.   All before legal working age but who was snitchin’?

Phones tethered so tightly to the walls, or limited by range of reception for those swank enough to have a wireless type.   We would run the neighborhood until the street lights came on and NO ONE KNEW A THING about the happenings,,,,  We, at quite young ages, were our own supervisors, and as long as no one died, or was maimed beyond easy bactine and bandaid repair, no one cared!!! and it was BLISS!!!   No bike helmets, no shinguards or elbow pads, no shoes in most cases, runnin’round barefoot in cut offs and filthy, head to toe, and BY GOD!!! ALIVE!!!!  We were so ALIVE then,,,,

The D&D thing allowed me to explore the world, history, social orders, tactics DIPLOMACY, and not get beat up for some faux pas.    It taught me about (true) fair play and how to LEAD,,,(I was always the DM,,, never getting to be a PC, but getting to play ALL of the NPC’s)      And I never saw it until years later.  (due to the DM nature of my fun, many thought for certain that I was going to go into acting.   HA!   Not this introvert that has chronic stage fright.)

Playing with imaginary monsters taught be how to be HUMAN,,,,   And how to spot the real monsters in hooman form.

Then came Video games,,,,

not the Arcades,,, the ones in homes,,,,   Things started turning inward then.  

And MTV,,,,

And GURLS!!!!!! oh, so wonderful and soft and pretty,,,,   Enough to make a boy forget EVERYTHING except her,,,,,    We found Eve and fell from Eden at that time.

All the ‘wargaming’ I did, did NOT prepare me for the Girls,,,, Not even a little bit.     Just a little elbow rubbin’ and my brain would be tied in knots, usually my tongue as well.   (later, it was eaiser, but at first,,,  LOL)  

Time operated MUCH slower then, I swear to it.    Unlike now where a year is gone in the blink of an eye and we look back 20 years and ask “where’d it go?!?!?”   Summers of three months lasted as long as they needed to, and the nine months in school felt like an eternity: we had no clue that was just an illusion.   

Well, its a short day here at the homestead: rain out, though I managed more hours than the rest,,, Installer thing , had to go back out and diag a autogate.  High winds muck with BIG gates, nothing to do but be patient, but that doesn’t fly with Customers,,,   SO, Self and Son of Bossman are crunching ideas,,, we’ll get together again on muhnday to discuss.

Feeling good, breath is coming back on line, FINALLY (only been two months of the Cruds) and tomorrow is looking like Hella kayak-y day,,,, Thinks I won’t be out there?  Is to laugh,,,,    I need my church time,,, time to look more inside, not just backwards in time like I have been doing the last twenty-four.

Hope y’all enjoyed these little trips backwards,,,, I think there is something back there, not to recover perse, but to INSPIRE as we move forward.  

Keep on livin’


What I grew up with

and WHY I laugh and laugh (and sometmes cry when it gets to be a bit much) at those that are EEEeeeeekkkkK!!!!!!  we gotta,,,,,,

George Carlin,,,,

The last and greatest (IMO) voice from my past,,,,(I can almost hear him in his grave hollarin’ “I FUCKIN’ TOLD YA SO!!!!”)

Should write a book using him as ‘my mentor’ on how to be an Optimistic Cynic,,,  

I look back on things and realize just how GREAT my childhood and formative years were.  Carlin for social critiques,  Peart (Rush) for some of the best damned lyrics and Musical influences of all time. 

  SRV that took Hendrix and RAN with it, made it his own and then some.  

And thats just scratching the surface of ‘What made me what I am’    Feelin’ a little nostalgic and BLESSED with my past.

More later today,,,,


MUCH more relaxed!

Great payperiod,   Didn’t hit that golden forty, but damned close, and,,,,,,,,,

Now all the bills for the remainder of the month have been paid, overpaid, or nullified and the Buffalo is legal for another year of road life.

Even managaged to drop some into the savings and still have enough to get through to the next paycheck and have some cash in pocket.  I like holding a certain amount of cash: it may not be much, but something for those mid-day drink runs while out working is nice.

Wooofffff! Dio says, as he lets out that breath he had been holding,,,,,

If only all problems were as simple to adjust.

Da was asking me about Tik-Tok today.    Well, I have to admit a certain amount of ignorance on my part.   I have never had it as an app on my phone, and while I do occasionally see clips from it on UTooB, It was never something I thought would interest me.  (seems like it programs people for short attention spans and destroys critical thinking processes,,,, Just my Opinion, I think,,,)   That, and knowing it was owned by the PRCC, nah, not interested,,,,   

Well, that being said, seems that suddenly our grand illustrious leaders pretend (gag, coff coff,,, give me that bottle of bourbon so I can gargle and wash this shit out of my mouth.) are saying its a “National Security Problem”,,,,   Un-HUH!   And a non-existent border with Mexico isn’t?    And I could keep going and going on tehstoopid ways we have been shafted by this shadministration/Burfuckracy.

Now, as mentioned in my opinion, YES, it is a National Security Risk, but then, so is our National Education administration and its CRT/DIE and other bullshit curriculums that do NOTHING but indoctrinate and destroy sanity.   The Chinese are putting out more engineers and hard math science majors IN ONE YEAR, than this country has done in a DECADES.((they also outnumber us by roughly three to one, so,,,  But that doesn’t balance that scale of Maleducation on our shores.)  So, yah, if the intent was to create a generation of spastic short attention span numbskulls, then I must agree its a problem that needs addressed,

BUT WE HAVE SO MANY THAT NEED ATTENTION AS WELL

been saying it, gonna say it again.  CLOSE THE BORDERS.   SHUTTER ALL FOREIGN AID PROGRAMS.  SHUT DOWN ALL NGO SUPPORT THAT DOESN’T DIRECTLY ADDRESS DOMESTIC SHORTFALLS. 

HONEST ELECTIONS WITH PAPER BALLOTS AND PURPLE FINGERS AND ID CHECKS.

and I know, it ain’t gonna happen until the problems are macbre fruit hanging from lamp posts.    Don’t be holdin’ that breath of yourn,,,,

I just know, we will come out the other side better than we are now.   How long that takes, not a flippin’ clue,,,,   And I know that between here and there, shits just gonna get worse and worse,,,

But my bills is paid!!!    THAT makes me smile, seeing how its only halfway into the month and I was sweating bullets the first half!!!


Borders, walls, laundering,

Going to be the IDKB here for a minute, which is out of character for me.   (IDKB, I  don’t know, but,,,)

I have no clue what that bill mentioned reads.  Never heard a word about it until I read that above.   BUT,,,, How dumb can a body be to THINK building a wall in an active war zone, with ARMOR, ARTY, ACTIVE AIRSUPPORT, is even feasible?   Seriously?????  Toss in the backhanded insult of “we won’t secure our border”,,,,, Its shit like this that tells me ‘our leaders pretend’ actively think the AmeriCAN people have an IQ lower than their shoe size.  The real intent, IF TRUE, is to milk MORE taxdollars out of a system BEYOND BROKE to grift it back into private accounts.     This country has been sliding further and further into destitution and yet those 535 on the hill continue to grow bank accounts as if they were petuntias on a manure pile.

    There most definitely IS a manure pile involved here.

And then we have CNN happily cheering the Trumped/Biden showdown for this upcoming (S)election cycle,,,,   Something tells me (what I already felt) that the cheat is well in place,,,  

its early, and I am already dropping into HARD CYNICISM,,,,   

We only wanted to be left alone,,, how hard is that.   Impossible it seems.

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today is the end of my payweek, looking damned good with potential for great.   understand that its already spent for the most part in bills, but there is enough leeway in there already, that comforts aren’t going to be ignored.  Good!   My ‘Broke ass’ Anxiety has been shrank and stuffed back in its box.   Funny that: IF things were to go full potato, and the dollar crashed, said ‘broke ass’ anxiety wouldn’t rear its ugly head.   There woudl be different ones, but being broke wouldn’t be the case.  Mostly because EVERYONE would be in the same boat and we would all be on a new learning curve.    I don’t fear collapse on the large scale so much as individual collapse in ‘normal times’.  Large scale collapse is what my brain has been ‘prepping’ for since 2007: I say it often enough “get the hard shit figured out while you have the luxury of now times”.   Know what potentials are possible, get with those that think outside the box and game the off the wall shit.   Well,,, Having read umpteen gazillion DoomPron scenarios, I  have gamed some pretty hairy situations, tossed more than a few out in group and caught some flat footed.   (like your child taking a bullet to the spleen and ZERO chance of a trauma unit being available,,,,)    

Anywhoos,,, that digression shows just how far over the CYNIC wall I have fallen today,,,,   Good vibes from a good paycheck, but the FUCKS in charge of shit keep muckin’ with my mellow,,,    And they wonder why we hate them so,,,,,