Slight torpidity with a scattering of apathy.

Lots to do, no motivation to do anything.

Parts of me wanting to dive into homestead improvements, and a very real part of me saying ‘why botha? gonna move and sell and have to do it all again,,,’

That little voice is the one winning the war right now. It’s Sonday (Palm Sunday at that, but thats another discourse.) Time on my hands, and

MEH!!!

Part of this is getting it into my head that “THIS IS THE PLACE”,,, With Da moving, my desire to ‘Be-gone!” has taken on new life. Fact that my BadCuz is still suckin’ atmo doesn’t help none either,,, Don’t wanna say too much on that note as I don’t need karma kickin’ in my spiritual doors at 5 am, every night, for years on end. Fuggem! He ain’t worth my time nor thoughts.

Time to fill in some blanks. Da moving: told y’all this part. Da moving to MUCH smaller place (as in, his drive is an RV type domicile. NO, BTDT and I am leaning on him hard towards foundations and set walls.) ISSUE: lots of STUFF that isn’t going to be sent off to goodwillsalvationarmylocalpresbytarianthrfit matkets. Some of it is even mine,,, Tooling, foundry stuff, welding rig,,,

Solution: da is buying the storage building (actually, handing me the cash to buy it, I have to do the hunt and get stuff.) that will be HERE on this property.

And y’all already know about the property thingy on my end. Or at least that its somewhat in question right now.

Yeah,, that,,, See, this is where buying Bloo is really biting me. I went way over the top on her, trying to get her back on road, and my finances are tapped. I am making inroads into knocking them down, but its gonna take time, And here is my beef. Had I not done that, all of this other stuff would be a nothing burger, a small thorn in my bum and thats about it. BUT, since I am eyebrow deep in debt of my own doing, I can’t slip on the work hours or I really start to squeeze other parts of my life. And, most of what I need done is only open working hours during the workweek.

NO, this is not a BLEG. Just airing my thinks.

NOW. There is a solution to all of this. Forget about ‘getting out of here’ and suck it up. DO WHAT IS NEEDED NOW, let Universe decide if there is another direction I will take and let HER decide to smooth the transition later on. Just bide my time now.

Seriously, NOT A BLEG. I just think better when I can see the words in front of me, and not try to organize the symbology in my head mentally. Thats why some of my posts are so damned scatterbrained,,,, it makes sense when you read through, because you are following along with my thought processes as I get them organized IRL. BUT, if you were to try and dive into my head, best have a liferaft, PFD, Drysuit and PLB, cause its freckin’ mess in there.

I did an experiment years back. Kept a notebook with me and would write down what subject my brain was on ‘right now’ and the time. I figured out my brain runs about 63 tracks, non-stop, and only pays attention to the one foremost in the moment, but there is evolution on each track as the day goes by. Its an intuitive thing, or at least appears so externally. Finding solutions to issues at hand in strange ways, not because I am lucky or that strongly ‘the MacGuyver’, but because a couple of those tracks are busy thinking behind the scenes on the problem without my conscious state being aware of it. I just see “problem” and the mind gets busy back there in the archives, dustbins, and databases of ‘where is that part?’ with one track looking for alternative ‘parts’.

in modern parlance, “Thats my superpower”,,, My ‘kryptonite’ is SOCIAL INTERACTION,,,, never do well in groups larger than 5 and lower if I personally know less than that. It took me many years to be able to “Fake it”,,, thanks to the Entertainment stuff I did, I did have to learn to fake it, but it takes a toll. The longer I have to put on that front of ‘extrovert’, the longer my recovery time, and big reason why I live on this hill.

The downside to having so many tracks running ‘autonomously’,,, Sometimes they get bored and start doing strange things,,, Like digging up Thermal Mass stoves, and every iteration that can be thought of along those lines under circumstances less than optimal (since 9 outta 10, my circumstances are far less than optimal.)

Here’s what gets me. Inidividual homes,,, (by the way, this is track change,,, bear with me) The more I research, the more I realize all of our homes here in the FUSA are bad compromises, designed for the benefit of Economic Current. We call it ‘currency’ but the reality is, if exchanges aren’t taking place, our economy collapses on itself. And that is the whole point behind all the “Codes” and “Regulations” in building homes. I found when building mine, since I wasn’t going to tie into the grid, I didn’t need ANY permits, not even for the Septic tank. No permits, no inspections,

Downside being, no insurance will cover me either. The best I get is ‘renters Insurance’ for the contents of my home, not the home itself. I get that: You built it, you own it, your problem not ours.

In hindsight, Had I to do it all over again, I would not be building a stickframe home. There are better alternatives to building, that are more energy efficient, and surprisingly CHEAPER, and have long histories to longevity. Seeing that I wouldn’t need permits or inspections or any of that, WHY NOT?

I ain’t looking at making something for the front of Better Homes and Gardens. I’m a bachelor grumpy cuss curmudgeon hermit with a serious inclination towards frugal to the point of pain,

And I am the lazy bastard that will figure out how to work three times as hard now so I never have to work hard again. Like Thermal mass stoves that run 85-95% efficiency vs the 25% efficiency of a modern wood burner. a 2 hour burn in a TM stove will last 24 hours and burn 1/4 the wood of a steel box stove. Less cutting splitting stacking in the long run, just more work in the now. Add in an earth berm type home with 20″ thick walls that will maintain a 55F temp year round with ZERO effort, and that TM stove gets even more efficient. More effort, less cash, more efficient in long term in all seasons, and less electric needed for the day to day. Why are these NOT being pushed harder?

MONEY

but I already harped on that. Not many companies are going to want to build homes in this way as they make no money on it. Governments won’t be able to get kickbacks from the new regulatory rules and manufacturers of the ‘latest and greatest’ compromise.

Seriously, think about it this way. UP TILL after WWII we had no zoning, no building regs, and in most cases, NO contracting companies to build homes. Most people built thier homes using a majority of the materials located on their property, or bought from a local lumber place (L:ocal Saw mill cutting local timber,) In some places, like the great plains, the only material to be had was sod, and a sod home was good enough that people were able to survive winters where MINUS temps were months in length. Maybe they were primitive and lacking, but, and I have said it and said it here: WE GOT LAZY AND SPOILED.

Since i moved to this place, I have slowly quit most of the toys everyday Joe and Jill take for granted. I have no TV,, No Cable, No Microwave, Very limited amounts of power available for things, and I do pretty daggum good. I tend to run my backup Genny once a year out of Guilt, not need. My biggest expense, energy wise, is my propane. A 30# tank of propane for my stove will last almost a year. 6 months for my water heater (on demand type) and a 100# will last three weeks continuous use for my wall heater. (and I only run continuous when the temps hover near the 40 mark,,, below that I burn wood.) Had I built this house as earthbermed wall, that last number would be closer to 6 weeks.

Hey Dio! Where’d ya get the HippyCrak you been smokin’?

Yea, I get it, this post sounds like something straight outta “mother earth News’ donuT? I get on these kicks. Learn shit-tons of stuff, and file 90% of it to my archives in the back of the brainium. This is why I tend to have answers for stoopid shit when things go wyrd.

Its why I know I will survive when the rest of the world loses its shit as the bottom falls out of the economy and the enclaves turn cannibal no-go zones.

Thats not intended as a bragging point,,,

I sometimes envy Robinson Crusoe,,,, (funfact: many of my favorite books involve lost at sea/desert isle type situations. Like “the Martian”,,, that one sucked me in FAST because the protocols the protaganist had to deal with were so unique to that situation,,,,)(read the book, never seen the movie.)

Ok,,, its Sonday, I’m lolligaggin’ here, spouting at from the hip about nuthin and everything and TOTALLY avoiding what I should be doin’. I beg your forgiveness in this post, (AND NO!!!! DO NOT SEND ME MONEY, THIS IS NOT A BLEG!!!)

Do LEARN though. There are options to our world that TPTwB would rather us forget. Mostly so that we are completely dependent on the system THEY designed and profit from. But I digress

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