Welcome to my brain. It’s messy. It’s interesting. And it’s all connected if you stick around long enough. "Believe Nothing: no matter who said, even if I have said it, except it agree with your own reason and common sense. Siddhartha Guatamo, the Buddha.

The Seeker

Seriously hitting a rough spot this week,,, Little patience for ‘teh stoopid’ that surrounds the workplace.  Not the jobs; any work is good, but there are times,,,,

And Cosmos,,,,     Dammit, I don’t wanna give up on him, he’s just a pupper,, maybe 22 weeks old, give or take,,,   BUT, Yah,, I’m frustrated over the whole new dawgum, old kats mexican stand-off.  I wouldn’t be so frustrated if it weren’t for Zoomies issues.   I like the big lunk, and he used to love Voodoo,,,

Little getaway this weekend.   Usual crew at the park, camping in the rain, other dawgums to socialize with, so I am taking Cozzie with.  Give the kittehs a mental break for a couple nights.   I need the mental break too.  Not sure how I am going to keep Cozz in line, but my thinking, take the climbing rope and give him a run,   The other dawgs are all older and much more sedate (and slobbery,,, Great Danes no less) with only one outlier (Pearl, mushfaced pug with ‘little dog’ syndrome,,,   She isn’t out much though)  Maybe my god-dawgies will teach Cozzie some manners.   Sasha especially as she tends to be the pragmatic, where Riggs tends to be all about having a good time.  I also have that collar that I am so hesitant to use,,,,   Last resort,  (and 20 on the shock?  He didn’t even flinch.   Its up to 30 now.)

BUt I digress,,,,

Frustrated with the world right now, spent 3 hours in lotus this early morn, probing the depths looking for the ‘why’.    Figured it might have been recent historical forays,,, that was not it,   Cosmos,,,, Not it.   Da situation,,,, Not it.

ITs me,,, as usual, feeling the edge of another dark night of the soul, where nothing seems worthwhile or even desirable.   The times where I just want to give ALL of my shit away and become a wandering mendicant buddhist, or something,,,,    I hit these about once a year,,, They always elicit a ‘growth spurt’ in my seeking.   But man are they dark and deep, and getting longer to boot.    I reread some of my Carl Jung books about ‘TDNS’ ( the dark night of the soul) and there is only one way out of them,,, THROUGH,,, just gotta tough it out, let the soul do its metamorphisis and pay attention,,,   Things will improve.    Even Siddhartha had his TDNS moments.  (and he did become the mendicant at one point,,,, )

No worries,,, I ain’t goin’ to give in to the desire,,, I’ll struggle through and when its past, be better off,,,,, Besides, it would cost me 10-20X more, now, to replace what I have if I let it all go.    F! that!    I may be nutz, I am not stupid.

I think part of my problem is how fast time is moving these days.  And yes, I know it doesn’t slow down at all now,,, only accelerates,,, but man,,, its almost half a year in and feels like just yesterday we watched Trumped swearing in,,,,   W?T?F?over,,,,   Call “FIre for effect” and get your’n arse movin’, Marine!!!   THAT sort of hectic frenetic fire as we get older,,, and our bodies don’t take to kindly to the acceleration factor, like we did as kids where a three month vakay felt like forever, even thought it flew by,,,,

Maybe we just stuffed so much living into a short frame, it felt like forever,,, maybe as we slow down the living thing, the clocks accelerate ,,,,,  

It’s all illusions anyway,,,,   time especially, the illusion we try to trap using little mechanical devices called clocks, but we really have no control over how time expands and contracts around us.    Minutes seem like hours, or hours seem like seconds,,, its all relative and illusory in the same thought,,,,

Listen to me blabberin’ away,,,,    Such is what happens when it rains, I have a houseful of bored pets, and a mind that is bordering on TDNS again.

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On the world stage,,, Zelensky opened his kokainekurdeled kranium again, ticked off Shootin’ Putin and got Kyiv bombed again… Big Guy Trumped is thumping his chest saying “I don’t like it”,,,,

and thats the LEAST of the BS flying…. KrainFeld of the KlownKarKokaine express has access to German missile systems, and if he uses them, Putin is going to hit Berlin because, and as he states “Ukraine doesn’t have the means to direct those missiles,, only Berlin.  They hit Moscow, I hit Berlin”

As much as I loved living in the 80’s, I don’t miss the cold war aspects, not one wee little bit, and yet,

here we are,,,,,

FUck,,,,,

nuff of that shit,,, time to go look inside and see what I can see,,,,,y’all take care

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  1. 2steveo's avatar
    2steveo

    Suggestion about the e-collar for Cosmo:

    (why listen to my advice? 20+ years member of a volunteer team training our family pets for search & rescue, we routinely use e-collars training up and then deploying with our working dogs). An e-collar isn’t torture, if you use it well.

    1. Use the ‘beep’ for one thing – I use it as “come here”. Easy to do lots, and quick reward – whatever Cos responds to – often a food treat, may be a quick play time.
    2. Once that’s firm, only use the ‘shock’ to break his focus on whatever he’s doing that you don’t want – and set it high. If Cos yelps and jumps when you shock him, that’s where you want it.
    3. BUT – follow immediately with a beep and reward. In effect, you’re training Cosmo to “stop it, do this instead and get rewarded”.

    This works for us, and is pretty fast to train. Of course, our team knows that “the only thing two dog trainers will ever agree on – is that the third one is doing it wrong!”

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    May 29, 2025 at 4:21 pm

  2. Spud's avatar
    Spud

    As a former associate affiliated the raising of puppies for ” Guide dogs for the blind” we raised several for them through the local 4H program.
    There is a reason they only use certain breeds for service dogs. Breeding is everything, certain types of dogs have traits that are desirable and others have traits which are not acceptable.
    There is a reason that pits in general are never used as a service animal. Instinctual traits can come out under stress which are uncontrollable .
    Of course, the owner of said critter factors heavily,,,

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    May 30, 2025 at 5:03 am