In the Between

sort of a tryppy mornin’

woke in a lucid state, just coming from the dream worlds (Really rilly strange, do not recommend Tex-Mex then going to bed,,,) slowly coming into the real world just starin’ at the insides of my eyelids,,,

Not EXACT images of what I was seeing, but the impressions I recieved seeing them. were the same as looking at Escher’s works.

ONLY, as soon as I tried to ‘take them in’, the image would burst away and leave just some blurry cloud of solid color: reds, blues, some orange-ish not quite brown (I think its called burnt umber,,,,)  Like in quantum states, the observer effects the observed, and sometimes, the observed does the unexpected and changes state: detect a wave, but see a particle.

and then my minds eye recalled THIS,,,

and Escher wasn’t working from nothing there,,,   There is a much older form of that image, one that isn’t completely explained away by contemporary wisdom.    Let me explain what I mean there.  

The image,,,, Called the Flower of Life.

simple enough even if it looks extremely complex.   In reality, its a design any 7 year old with a compass could recreate with some focus and patience.

Whats strange about it is the places it has been found and the the detailed way it was formed in those places.   Some of the finds are quite the enigma of our modern world, appearing to have been laser etched into basalt: yet they are 5000 years old or more.   (and believe me, the Conspiracy theories ABOUND on how they were created.   Those mean little to me; just white noise in the stream of information, to be tucked away until supporting/contradictory information comes along.) 

There is another design that has been ‘haunting’ me of late as well.

This image means lots of things to lots of people, and is so simple, they are all correct.   What it means to me?   The duplicity of life.   Good/Evil, Light/Dark, Life/Death,  etc    And the path through it all is the Between, where the light and dark meet, and that there is a part of the other in each: Even the evil will sometimes do a good thing, and the Good will sometimes do something bad with the best of intentions.

And that path is NEVER a straight line.

Been doing deep dives into Alan Watts, and others and my meditations have started taking on some seriously tryppy bends.    I’ve noted that there are times where I am sitting here at home and suddenly realize, I have been watching a kitten or the runnybabbits playing with ZERO THOUGHTS for over an hour.   

This is NOT like me.   Usually my head is running at 10000rpm, bouncing off the redline, on multiple lines of thought.  But now, my focus isn’t on thought, but NO THOUGHT,

And its working.

This mornings tryppy vision was a reminder; the harder you try to see the path, the harder it is to find.  Let it go, it will find you.    When you are looking in the mirror asking “Who the hell am I?”, say ‘Hi!’ and introduce yourself. (and that  is something I have been doing for years and years and years; The asking ‘who am I?’,,, the introductions have been a more recent thing, but I think it helps.)

But the biggest thing that has been helping is “Forgiveness”.   I mentioned this in a linking post to Ho’oponopono recently.   IN the vid in that post Aarron mentions a bible quote; “Forgive them, for they know not what they do.”   To expand on that, Far too many in this world/reality/illusion of/school for the enlightenment/what ever you wanna call this,,,   Most wander through thier days in a dream state not aware of thier interconnectedness with everyone.  They do things, completely oblivious of downstream consequences, injuries they do to others, scarcities they create in their efforts to ‘stay alive’ in a world full of abundance.    Place rat-poison in a scrub pile to keep the packrats from moving onto your property, kill a neighbors cat when he eats one of those rats, doing what he does: being KAT.   They know nothing of how far reaching thier actions  go: You must forgive them their ignorance and self absorbed nature or you go crazy and they pull you lower down, back into the dream state that is more a nightmare. (yes, I found out what killed my Grizzy,,,)

But mostly, FORGIVENESS of ones self.   You have to let go the things that eat at your soul, the failures you had/did,   Learn from them YES, hold them and coddle them, HELL NO.   To harbor such is to build MORE; like attacts like in this quantum fueled world of illusions.   You want vibrancy, VIBRATE!  You want to keep scraping the dirt looking for gold you will never find: DIG!    Thats where my life is ‘In Between’.   I’m seeing clearer, sharper, but my thoughts are vaguer than ever; its not uncomfortable, but is ‘different’ and taking some getting used to.   Things that bothered me just a month ago aren’t even blips on my radar today.   Things that are bothering me now are seeing others in states that scream “I’m lost in this world” but no one can help them until they put their own feet on the path of help FIRST.    To try and help them only brings bad karma down upon the helper; “No good deed will go unpunished”.  

SO,  I smile, send them a prayer in Ho’oponopono, and go on my way, forgiving myself of being a judgemental shit (I am an INTJ,,, that last is Judgemental)

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