Not gonna talk about my thoughts (much)

Lots goin on in the Brainium today, but nothing ready to share,,,  ‘ Too many questions, no answers’ sort ot thinks today.  

((Heres a hint: 

Created/evolved
Creation implies purpose: if we were, on fact created (or modified stock as Annunaki scripts state) then there is a purpose to our being.   If we evolved as Darwinian thinking implies,   than we must MAKE our purpose,,,
Buddhism follows a blend of both, with us repeating through this life until we unlock our individual purpose

Assuming first order: creation, then we are here as either slave/chattel, or , what?   That’s the hard question no one seems to answer.     )))

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Did make it on water, despite the windy nature of the day; was nowhere near what it was yesterday and the lake was tame in comparison.   Still challenging to hold a straight line in crosswinds.   Yes, the skeg is there for that, but I am trying to learn how to not use it as a crutch, instead using the nature of edging to eliminate or at least alleviate the tendency to weather-cock.

and I spent about an hour sitting under a tree as far from other hoomans as I could get without leaving the planet.    Feeling a bit worn around the edges with certain mentatilties,,,  Leave that right there without expansion,,, y’all know the types I speak of.

Buffalo isn’t helping any on that note.   Not that she is human, but I AM, and the frustrations of keeping her reliable are wearing on me.  Solution in sight, just not in hands, YET.   Stil have to deal with funky smells, keep levels up to snuff and hold faith that things hold together ‘just a bit longer’.   

If only money weren’t the gateway is my problem here.  These things cost, period. And I may have means, but they are quite limited in nature and that results in a very small gateway to success.  In some ways, I feel like I am waiting for the planets to line up ‘just so’,,,, LOL  

Apologies,,, not bitchin’, not wanting to come off as whining, just a little frustration.    Like I said, I see the solution; unfortunately, its mostly a BOUGHT one, and those drive me a little buggers.  (as in; I can’t make the parts I need with my abilities/current set up.  And to buy the machines to do so is prohibitively expensive,,,, just gotta bite the bullet here,,,,)

life goes on, right?

Anywhoosits,,, Day is a wrap, feeling deep in melancholy thinking, but thats not a bad thing (in moderation   EVERYTHING in moderation.) and tomorrow is a new day.   I have hours ahead for letting the Sub do its thing and chew on the crap in my head.  Maybe it will come up with some middle ground,,,,  

Keep on livin’