Really tryin’ hard

I try to be an optimist, in most things:  obviously there are some things where you can’t, usually individuals of some nature,,,

But in the Grand Scheme, I do try to see the silver linings.

been a might dark out there of late

But I am starting to see some things coming out, in strange places and not so obvious.

Like this crap with P-diddy,,,,    Elizebeth  has this to say and while in some ways seems more emotional, there are facts listed as well.   ME, being the INTJ, don’t really like emotional outbursts: I feel like I’ve been vomited on when someone does an emotional dump.  I can take it, but man, five showers later, I still feel ‘icky’,,,   Give me rational discussion and debate any day,,,   (note: about the only time I can handle emotional dumps is when mildly intoxicated,,,  It allows me the barrier breakdown I need to let the empathy work.   Still feel icky, but can handle it better.  Conversely, I can ‘unload personally’ when in my cups,,,  reat of the time, I tend to be the Stoic,,, keep it tight to the chest and bear that cross.  Which is why I write; I can unload without feeling like I am burdening anyone: don’t wanna deal with it, don’t read it.)

The things I am starting to see leaking around the barriers of MSM/Corporate controls, is REALITY: as in, people are well and sick of the bullshit being sold to them.  There is a “coming to the light” trickling out, and some are finding it in religious searches, others, like me, are finding it by looking for ‘evidence’, but the general vibe I am picking up (especially among the younger sources on the net) is one of ‘We know they are lying, now WHAT IS REAL? and how do I get my paws on it?” 

Everything is becoming more and more decentralized and more and more are finding strength from within, not from without, in false Celebs and Hollowed shells of “leaders”.      And I seriously think this is a symptom induced by the lockdowns of just a couple years back.   People were forced apart and found out “hey, I am stronger than I thought, I don’t need J-lo to tell me I am”   The props of the theater are showing how they are made of cardboard and glitter and the people are finding  themselves again.  

God I sure hope so,,,  

But with that said, ‘No man is an island’,,,    We are social creatures, we just need to make sure that we build our own structures, and not rely on shambolic facsimiles built by geeks without a social clue and more than a fair amount of greed.

Today is one of paradox:   I want to go kayaking, but I want people time as well.  not people/work time, but people/no destinations time.    Felt that urge when Mamakat came in earlier and enforced her ‘PET ME!’ and I realized I just wanted to see a face that wasn’t masked completely in fur.  I love the little fur monsters, but mreowr, trills and blerts do NOT make for human conversation,,,,   So I am going to go to the lake, just because,,,   May get some kayaking in (WILL) and hope I bump into some peeps.  Happens sometimes,  usually in warmer weather than we have today (lo 60’s today and breezy,,,) but,,,, don’t go, no meets possible.  gotta buy the ticket to ride,,,,

Time to turn off the data, limit the phone to text or calls ONLY, get my head in the sun, butt in a boat, and paws holding paddle and getting wet; no destination, just get moving and zero the dials again.