The mad scramble

gear in Buff, need to toss some firewood in the bed and I will take care of that here in a minute, but right now, making sure I have all I believe I will need (and then some, just in case) and that nothing has been forgotten.

One quick stop on the way to site for victuals and some not so essential stuff, then two nights and one full day of

PEACE

Da isn’t too happy about it, but I think he gets it. Distractions here, been busting my ass for months with little to no break in the monotony other than paddle days, and those only carry so far (like, one week at best,,,)

and of course holidays,,,, They bring out the worst in my psyche,,, Not angry or anything, just the Meh’s and Blahs that any introvert can understand in just those words. For some people this is the time of year where they glow with Joy. For me, its the walk around under grey clouds (literally and most definitely figuratively.) No need to elaborate on the why’s: I know them and there is little that can be done to fix them, just live with it and deal.

And that is just what I am going to do over the next couple of days.

J.O.B. in the mornin’, hope to be able to cut loose a little early so I am not setting up under headlamps, but if thats to be, then thats to be. We are running ragged at work, and the stress of that and the holidays is starting to crack some seams in people there (and that ain’t a helpin’ my attitude none. THOUGH, I have been the one to point out “you’re being rude, or vindictive, and those guys aren’t the problem,,,” to another or three,,,, I guess its much easier see that shit in others, when you feel the same way but are keeping that ‘rage’ on a tight leash.)

Who knows, maybe something will come through the filters this weekend and I find impetus to write another Christmas story: its been a few years since my last one,,,,

May or may not post, but if I do, it will not be from searching the spheres. I want nothing to do with that mess this weekend, I have to focus internally for a bit: patch up those spots that are showing some high wear patterns, flush some ick off the surfaces that need it, you know, a little house keeping is in order.