tales from the hillside

Not much to talk about, nor that I want to talk about the last couple of days,,, Hence, no post/lite posting. I did start one yesterday while at the J.O.B. but had to save it to draft since I couldn’t finish it there; but when I went back, re-read it,,,, Meh! didn’t ‘feel it’ anymore,,,

Had a new guy start today, and when the day was wrapping up, he was asking who worked there that could help him get to work everyday, swearing he was a great always there employee,,, I looked him dead in the eye and said “No offense intended, but PROVE IT, be here everyday, come hell or highwater, and we will believe you. Been here 12 years off-n-on and heard that shit from damn near every other employee and ain’t seen it yet.” And immediately there were excuses being made about no car, needing rides, etc etc etc. I told him, “plan accordingly and if you have to walk, then start walking. Get a phone (he was borrowing someones to call for a ride home) and USE IT, let us know if there is an issue and it may be that we are headed your way and can get you, but PLAN AHEAD and show us you mean business.,,,”

I get that some of the younger gen, especially in these parts where the whole Ghetto/single mama/ no dada at home shit took off at the start of the century,,, The whole ‘Family is Strength’ thing is still there, but the family has been fractured by welfare rules and more “Legs in Air” parents than I care to think about. See more 20sumpin girls (can’t call ’em ladies if they continue to act like middleschool students) running rampant with three and four kids and obviously by different daddies, flashing that EBT card for stoopid crap or pushing a cart full of frozen dinners and poptarts,,, along with her ‘troupe’. Some of these boys local have the absolute shitte mentors of jail time and criminal morals, and most have monkey’s on thier back to boot. And shaking that can be the Augean Stables,,, (with similar solution, but they have no clue of that parable.) And I have found over time, the ones that ‘play it good’ are usually up to no good, and this one strikes me no different. Looking for that mark in the room full of cons.

They want the easy life, but haven’t figured out the easy life requires WORK first,,,, Easy choices, hard life, Hard Choices easy life.

These little things are why I have stated to my Sisters “when Da is gone, SO AM I!” I want to get somewhere my work ethic and abilities are closer to ‘average’,,, Here I stand out like the proverbial sore thumb and it gets old. It has made me a target in many instances because some of these mental defecients think I am “Rich”. Rich because I have a house, truck, tools, kayaks, and can drop cash for work related things without trouble. I am not RICH financially (I have a wealth of self education that is slowly starting to pay dividends, but,,,) and those cash drop instances are always recouped at the end of the day when I turn in my reciepts. BUT, they don’t see the efforts I went through to ‘get here’, they don’t see the “Delayed Gratification’ I went through to make sure I have a home of my own without strings attached. They don’t see the efforts I go through to find those diamond in the rough kayaks, or the education process I went through to learn to make my own. They only see the end result and think I am super-well-off. ( and around here, I am, in a sense,,, Own my own place outright, no landlord, no major bills, and I have the luxury of missing work if I so choose without creating financial hardship on myself (which is a very rare event). I am not at the point of being able to just ditch the J.O.B. yet, but I am making efforts to that end.) They also don’t see the self imposed sacrifice of being single for 15 flippin’ years. If I had been busy chasing tail, or trying to hold on to one, I can’t say I would be where I am now,,,, And of course, that chasing tail is part of why most of these boys have problems. I know one has a different girlfriend EVERY SINGLE WEEK, and he bounces from one to another like a bloody superball fired from a potato gun. and is ALWAYS broke come Muhnday.(27 still lives with his mama)

I know that I will stick out wherever I end up: I have that ‘BTDT’ thing going,,, along with above average intelligence and willingness to get my hands dirty to learn what I don’t know (which is still way more than I do know.) I get that. What I want is to be around more people that WANT TO STRIVE, not these dead beats that just want the next high or peice of tail to warm the cool nights with no thought at all to the repercussions of ‘instant gratification’.

All right, so I did have something to say,,, It’s all good, I needed to vent a bit there obviously,,,, tanks for listening,,,