end of the drought

Kinda sorta,,,,

Actually, this is about normal for this time of year, wet, monsoon type weather. Some years its just shy of actual monsoons, the next its piddlin’ at best, but June end/beginning of July is ALWAYS wet-fest.

Went in today, after being woke by Grizzy telling me all about those horrid thunderboomers that were F’n up his routine, and that I needed to make them ‘go-way, NOW!’ But I went in, purt much expecting to be told “go home”, all the usual suspects in place since today is THEIR payday, and yup, ‘Go home’ it was,,, Thats all good, I get an hour just for showing up so I ain’t out much,,,

BUT, that got me to thinking about money and time and how just waking up, I am spending money,,, The trick is to balance the expenditure with income, That ain’t happenin’ today though.

How am I spending money? Coffee costs me, breakfast costs me, the clean clothes I am getting dirty cost, etc etc etc,,, I may pay for it before I use it, but if you broke it up into portions and calculated how much a day actually runs you,,, Yeah, spending money,,, May not be DOLLARS worth, but its gonna add up and that nickle and dime crap is what eats at budgets: just like a creek will slowly erode a bank until it collapses.

I ain’t complaining, just observatin’ on things we take for granted and putting a different spin on them. Keeps things fresh in this krazzee life of ours,,,

Went over to BCE’s place and he is talking about wanting to get off this ride (not life, the supposed “republik’ we don’t actually have,,,)

And Sarah posted up how we got here: I like her take ‘Prospiracy, not CONspiracy’, even though we have CON’s out the wazzooo these days.

follow through comments as well, the discussions get highly informattive and often entertaining.

My take? The experiment is over, it just hasn’t fizzzled out all the way yet. We need to take T. Jeffersons “county” idea and run with it. Keep it small, local, and ACCOUNTABLE and we won’t end up with this shit show that we currently have.

Aw, who am I kidding,,, there are ALWAYS power-hungry ass-hats that want power over others and there will always be some shitstain that thinks he/she deserves to be King/Queen/Empirial master of the Universe/something equally stoopid and not real,,, Those that do want that crap (originally wrote carp,,, not much difference,,,) are good at convincing the weak of mind and insecure of spirit. They will always be with us in here and now and in the future and history is littered with the bastards since someone figured out how to keep records.

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I lead crews at work,,, sort of a new hat for me since I started there, but with our dirth of employees, someone had to and I have history of middle management and,,,,

BUT, I will tell you right now, I HATE LEADERSHIP POSITIONS,,, Being in them more than the actual status thing,,, I know that when things are ‘needed doing’ having someone with a gameplan, and the ability to direct, delegate, and DO is essential,,,, BUT I HATE IT BEING ME. Why,,, I am my own worst critic: I ride my own ass for silly mistakes like ShadowKat riding Milo the dog out the driveway. One paw hooked in his neck while digging her hind claws in his back and whacking that poor dogs ear with the spare murdermitten. Looked just like a Cowboy riding an unbroken mustang . (I digress) I am my own worst critic, and drive myself for better at all phases, even after mastering something. I know there is no “Perfect” but there is always room for improvement. The problem arises when I am put in charge of others who follow the philosphy of Mediocrites. “good’nuff”

Is it? When I hear stories from Bossman and Son of Bossman about clients not wanting to pay the bill because of ‘things’ left behind by ‘good’nuff’,,, I have to say no.

And that is how I got stuck with leading crews,,,

And why I hate being the crewleader because there are times where i have to be ‘that tyrant’ to get more than ‘jack shit’ out of some of the crew.

When I was leading in the Entertainment world, I was given my choice of guys to go out with me. I didn’t have to lead because these guys knew their jobs insdie and out, knew the rules of the road “you fuck up, your are going home”, and could fill each others shoes as needed if needed: to include mine. I was able to focus on MY JOB of getting the show to the venues, making sure the trucks were taken care of, and advancing the shows along the road to make certain we didn’t have any surprises that we couldn’t handle. (like blown power supply in Nevada and the closest replacement was 2 days away,,, Show still went on and the new power supply was waiting for us in Utah. The spider-web of extension cords backstage at that show, would have given a fire-marshal an erection for years,,,,)

I don’t have that option in this ‘world’,,,

Is what it is, right? Damn how I hate that saying, but there are more times than I like that its the ONLY thing that holds me together.

Finished up the woodfence job that I ‘fired’ Biblethumper on yesterday. I was at the truck getting a tool when one of the neighbors across the street came over and was telling me ‘you make pretty wood fences’ and then shocked me to my core with ‘and I saw how you handled that boy,,, Good job son, you did your damnedest and I heard his side too; you were in the right,,,,”

I may hate ‘leadership’ but I am good at it,,, and hearing that from some total stranger helped more than you can imagine. It doesn’t make me like it anymore, but I can take pride in being good at what I do, even if its not what I WANT to do.

We need more leaders that DON’T want the job (and no, vehemently NO, I don’t want the job) instead of the CON’s we have ‘running’ the show currently (straight into the ground from Angels 30 with the afterburners on) But how do you get that without getting ‘good talkers’ with a secret agenda? That’s the hang-up, ain’t it?