So many fish

but oh, so much more water in that ocean,,,,

Sorry, not sorry, but things are feeling just a little bit overwhelming right now.   Looking out at the great wide world, and I am feeling the “iota/mote” level of existence:   like sitting in a kayak 10 miles out to sea.  horizons in all directions, you realize just how small you truly are in the greater picture.

Thats not to say a mote can’t have an effect on the world.  Get trapped in a tent with a single mosquito and find out how much influence one small creature can have,,,,

Woke slowly in lucidity this morning, and that feeling has carried with me all through my morning,,, including dealing with GrumpyKat (she’ll be back to Mamakat later, but she, unlike me, is not really that morning sort,,,).  

that mote thing,,,   Is fear of that the driving force behind the EElleeTTeewannabes?   It can be a very fearful thing when you realize just how insignificant you are in the world/universe .  I can tell you, just from seeing the ages of those that have been the leading edge of our current tribulations, that fear of death is part and parcel of thier existence: they fear that reaper.    And that fear has so much to do with faith; more specifically ‘lack of’.    Now, I ain’t gonna go all theological on you this fine (COLD) morning, especially seeing how I am not really all that theological to begin with.  BUT, I do have faith, faith that “THIS” is not all there is, that when we pass this mortal coil, we move on to some higher plane of existence. (the details of which are where the arguments ensue,,) And yet, I think they are so firmly convinced that HERE/NOW is all there is and want to keep the dance going forever, and would love to find that fountain of youth. (with rumors that they may have found it, kinda sorta, and a good story by the way.)

I’ve told y’all about my realization/coming to terms with mortality under smoke laden rain clouds in Kuwait. That was the realization that life is too short for bullshit, more that my acceptance of mortality. It was when I started exploring the quantum stuff that I started theorizing the whole Meat puppet robot, cheezy-like greymatter interface unit guided by the real us “elsewhere’ in the quantum cloud. (And hoo-boy, some of the conversations that theory has promoted, especially with a bible thumper,,, THAT is the sort of shit I live for,,,,)

I digress. THE POINT here: I get the distinct impression that those “things” that drive the world (insane) tribulations, have a distinct lack of faith in an afterlife, of any sort. They want ‘heaven on earth’ “NOW, dammit!!!” which means we get hell on earth for a short time (maybe not in relation to US personally, but in the bigger picture,, yeah, a very short time frame. Auschwitz was an eternity to those in it, but time frame, a few years; a blink in the eyes of history.)

and life will carry on, as before, and as always, until the sun burns itself out/blows to smitereens. it only matters to us right here, right now, and we are such small portions of things so much bigger than what we can ‘see’.

whats the point of this post? Fu-if I know: I just sat down with my coffee and started typing an idea out and let the hind brain play for a little bit.

Enjoy your morning.