Friday eve, solace and solitude

it’s really quiet on my hill lately. I found out GF of Cousin that moved next door is in jail. She was the power house behind ANYTHING getting done on that property and now, not there. It’s slowly falling apart already (she’s been in jail for two weeks,,, I avoid them anyway, and rumor takes time to trickle my way.)

really quiet,,,,

and that improves my time here. My reading time has increased, and that should have told me something was different, but I just applied it to her getting the message that I don’t like evening visitors. I’ll tolerate, even be civil, but don’t expect me to bust out the best wine and an impromptu dinner just because you stop in to say ‘hey’.

Ah, but that brings up something I noted tonight. Still reading ‘everything is f*cked’, will be done with it tonight, but I noted that I am already seeing thought pattern shifts associated with it. Things aren’t hitting me in the same way they would have two weeks ago/two years ago. More rationale involved in things, I am seeing where some choice in words is designed to hit the feeling side of things and not the thinking side.

seriously, if you haven’t, get the book, it may not be ‘life changing’, but it will give your minds eye a different perspective to use in your day to day. Not going to go into it here, you’ll need to read it all to figure it out for yourself. (and thats part of the problem in the world today, IMO: people want the quick answer, not the struggle of learning,,,)

Did not go kayaking today. DID shift things around a bit: Lizzy is now on the porch, in her cradle and BJ is on the truck rack. Camping gear is not loaded, but will be, maybe next week(if tentative plans gel up). If I see a decent day, I am taking BJ out for that spin I talked about this morning. Back up to 30 minutes on the Erg, will start opening that time up a bit soon. Want to make sure I am good to go though. Still feeling a bit wheezy at times, but I am still getting a lot of drainage from the sinus passages. The up down of the weather is NOT helping matters. Yesterday was in the seventies,, today was mid Forties, and tonight is calling for below freezing (and the draft that is sneaking under my door tells me that isn’t all that far off,,,, I need to go close that door fully,,,,)

I am feeling VERY relaxed tonight, no need for a shot to chill the nerves, just this fine sedate level of existence that isn’t calling for any input or expression. I almost didn’t even bust out the keyboard tonight, thinking I would slide it over to tomorrow. If you were to walk in my place right now, you would swear I am a bit tipsy, my mellow mood being felt by proximity. I am not, and I have no desire to be, I am enjoying this as is, straight up, undiluted by chemicals. It feels good. To not be concerned by the world at large,,,, yeah,,,,

I’ll talk at ya all tomorrow, I’m gonna go look at the stars for a bit,,,,