Burdens

in a talk with eldest Sis, we wandered into ‘burdens’ and how we are both going through the things in our lives that would be left behind for our survivors to deal with. Fact is, I am leaving a little legacy that I am not certain how to pass on. Books. Not the physical books on my book shelf, but the Intellectual property types in circulation with my name on them. Side note, it doesn’t help that my daughter has become estranged to the family again,,, Long story there that won’t be delved into here.

But mostly the burdens we need to clean up are all the bric-a-brac that accumulates in ones life that has no value to others, only emotional value to the one that holds it. When you have a storage space to hold all your bric-a-brac that you may only access once a year; its a good sign that you have too much ‘junk’, or as Carlin said ‘Stuff’ and that ‘stuff’ gets stuffed into someone elses life when you are no longer around. It may or may not be a welcome thing, but its fair certain that most of it will NOT have the same emotional attachment that you have to it.

Now, some of it may be worth something much more than emotion, it may have actual value; property, tools, etc. (not counting the investments and physical coinage value stuff here, but those are part and parcel of an estate and arrangements need made BEFORE that time, and that’s another thing we were talking about. And that is something I need to work on with IP concerns, among others.) Debts are another. Just because you are ‘Ded’ doesn’t mean the obligation is. And if there is an estate plan in place, the Debtors get first dibs, After the State gets its cut. (and that brings up a sore spot with me, even though its not BIT yet; that’s just a matter of time. Estate taxes, last I checked, were well over the 50% mark. And how the hell does that get justified? They Tax the hell out of you for decades, then rob your kids blind while they are taxing the hell out of them too. Yeah, Taxation is Legalized theft In my eyes, and no one can tell me different. That opinion is carved into my very bones.) Now, there ARE ways around the taxes, and legal ones, but from all I can tell, the options are only for the uber rich, because you have to have enough to establish a trust, and there are people that need to control that trust and they don’t do it for ‘free’. And there is the Rockefeller plan, and I have looked into that, but same problem, starting capitol to establish the plan. Kinda hard to do when you are at the bottom looking up. (Note, someone pointed out that Xi-Den has TWO Universal Life policies. He is working on that Rockefeller plan for his Crack Addled left-over sperm. Count on it. ) (yes, I started investigating the whole money thing, and how to improve money situations for those left behind long before my mother passed and my dads trials started. It was part of my learning process when I asked those ‘three questions’, four years back.)*

I realize that no one ever knows ‘WHEN’ the clock will stop, and due to that there will ALWAYS be some loose ends that need dealt with. The goal for me is to minimize the loose ends so that my survivors can move on with life sooner than later. I know of one here local that died while mowing his grass, with lots of loose ends. Had a will and all, but apparently hadn’t thought it through too well. The house, once a really nice one, sits, rotting on its foundations 15 years later, because the will is still being contested by his progeny. That is what I would like to avoid. I don’t want my life to continue burdening those left behind, after my fire dies. If anything, I would like for my FIre, to continue producing for my daughter and granbehbies after I am long gone. (but that requires me to get even more busy with this whole writing thing, doesn’t it? LOL)

and lets face it, all of this may be a moot point if things continue along the tightening spiral of the toilet bowl travels that they have been on for so long. The revolutions’ of the bowl are faster and shorter duration and that means we are almost at the peak of the big flush. I personally am not all that curious about whats on the othersde as I have seen third world countries. The Guy I bought my Macbook from is from a third world country (one VERY close to the mess the US just abandoned) and some of the things he has been telling me make even my skin crawl and I HAVE seen such. (Note, This guy really does have a story to tell. He needs a writer that can do it justice, preferably a Christian writer that can add the emphasis I would miss. I am a Scientific Agnostic and don’t feel I could do his ‘rebirth’ the justice it needs. Yes, thats a BLEG.)

How did I get sidelined there? *snerk* Cats, I blame the cats. Daylight arrived and that means “Foooddddiiieeeesss”. Bunch of fuzzy socialists is what they are. ;-P

Burdens. Yeah. ok, back to the line. No one “WANTS” to be a burden. That is what I am fighting with my Da right now. He flat stated that he wishes the Docs had left well enough alone when he had his heart-attack,. He is grumping that his misery the last two weeks is more than he has faced the last twenty years. Now, this hit me like a red hot poker right in the guts, because I felt that we had fucked with the natural order of things, and while yes, its a life changer for the both of us, he isn’t the burden that he thinks he is. I ‘feel’ like I am repaying the debt I incurred with his raising me as a single parent. The roles have flipped, but he isn’t that intrusive; I just had to make some adjustments. I admitted to him, tactfully, that I had similar thoughts, but showed him that there was a reason for his ‘coming back’. Now he gets to clean up any messes that he would have left behind, that would have been the burdens, and we all get to say goodbye in a much more sedate fashion without the trauma of a sudden death. I have much more access to his properties and finances now, and we are taking care of issues now, for when the time comes to transfer from him to us kids. His will is being re-written to include my half-sis, now that its been established she is definitely, 99.9999% genetic certainty, his progeny (We have suspected it for years, but now its a decided fact) As for his property here in SOKY, as soon as he is stable with the Urology things, we are going to take a week or two and head to SC and check on properties there. Get him off this hillside that has so much trouble keeping maintained, and into a smaller home. (I just want a fishing shack on the lake, not some mcmansion!) That move will also be “MY” move, with just with a few more loose ends that need tied off. Fortunately, we both already have buyers for our houses, and they are not in a hurry to close the deal. In my case, its a cousin that wants the house so he has somewhere to stay when he visits his dad. In dads case, its the neighbor across the hollar that wants a house out of the flood range. (he’s been flooded out 5 times since I moved here )

I’m rambling. aren’t I? yeah, I know. its a way to fix the thoughts in MY head. Out of the synapsis and into electrons, and able to be picked apart.

More laters, after I do laundry, mowing (dads yard today, mine was yesterday) and then I have to meet up with a buyer for a kayak trailer and possibly one of my boats. (trailer is definite). (losing some of my ‘burdens’.)

*(NOT blaming my dad for my lack of education financially, he has his ways, and isn’t hurting like my mother was, but his mindset is one of scarcity, not abundance, and that holds him back. Some of my bad habits are actually from my mother, and those are the ones that I am ‘curing’, along with building an Abundance outlook. It does work, and is why I was able to go a full two months with no work, and not be hurting. four years ago, one week would have had me in the hole.)