Anti-authoritarian

Yeah, that’s me. I have noted to myself, on several occasions, that I am so Anti-a, that I even rebel against my own rules. If I put up a note that I need to/must/will do ‘X’, theres a better than even chance, I will procrastinate and dwaddle to do it.

But I have found that if I just set it on a list, with no bindings to time or priority, I will jump right in with both feet and hammer down at earliest convenience. Ni excuses, no bullshit, get outtheway this is getting done right now.

Kinda like my anxiety in kayaking, glass smooth water freaks me out, but I settle right in and relax when the chop starts picking up. The higher the curl, the more relaxed I get. (I’m fair certain there is a limit to that, but I have been in 3′ seas and was fine.)

That Anti-a attitude makes me sorta none hire-able for most corporate places. Small mom n pop places, no prob, but corporate ‘standards’ drive me to rightous anger because most of the ‘standards’ make zero sense, having been written by some seat warmer with no functional experiance. Or worse, some liberally educated idiot that thinks that social norms are the gender-bending woke horseshit,,,

But I digress,

Yes, I even rebel againsr myself and that is where I need the most discipline. LOL, kind of a feedback loop where I need the discipline and rebel in all ways AT the discipline,,,,

Maybe that explains why I live alone, huh?

More later after I break out the harness and whips and DO the shit I set for myself.