Thanks Ohioguy

Currently, I’m sitting on my kayak doing thinking. We came all this way and I sent the others on out, but stayed at the put in. Just ZERO desire to be farting with things. I know I can do this run, I’ve watched several videos of it at several water levels and this isn’t a bad run. Just, nothing, no desire, no motivation,,, nothing inspiring, I know.

Yeah, maybe its all the unsettled coming to roost, and I should do something to break the rut, just not this. Its not a liability thing either, I know my abilities can handle it. Just, an emptiness and a feeling of ‘waiting’.

Hell, maybe my Kayak kraze has burned through me. (Doubt it, I still dream of longboating)

Or maybe its that white water has never really been my calling. Yeah, lots of skills that cross into both WW and longboats, but its the long boats I dream about, not the wild water of rivers.

Maybe if I had brought Serena or Ghost,,, its not like they dont take longs down these rivers,,,

Maybe it was the long ass drive to get here,,,,

But no denying, I just don’t want to paddle a river today, period.

So, y’all get to put up with my greyish mood, apathy and, well, its not quite angst, for a post. Or two,, I have time to read, and write, waiting for their return.