Why I write

It might sound farfetched to some, but it’s quite common for me to tap out 10000 words a night. And some of my readers will ask; So when’s the next book come out? Or Why aren’t you posting more? Note! I didnt say I wrote 10000 GOOD words. Sometimes what I am writing is just me getting thoughts in order and I have evolved to where I can do that faster on a keyboard than with a pen.

Sometimes, I’ll get an idea for something, something thats just burning a hole in my skull trying to get out. Those days, I’ll jot a note or two (read PAGES ) on my phone: rough, bad syntax, grammatical errors and all. Then when Home, start to tapping with my notes open. Sometimes, those notes grow into something cool. Sometimes they fizzle like wet fireworks.

And sometimes, I am just running a scenario through, gameplaying it, looking for gems of ideas.

One of my recent scenarios quickly found flaws while being gameplayed in my head. Things that brought the whole idea to a screeching halt. I don’t have a problem writing outlandish things, but do have a problem writing trash.

(No I don’t: I write A LOT of trash, it just never makes it off my harddrive. )

Ok ok, so I corrected myself there. I do write trash, and that is why you don’t see but a micro percentage of what fills my screens.

But why do I write?

Some people talk, some people paint, draw, etc. Heck, I build things, kayaks, steam engines, my house,,,,

But writing is my catharsis, my vent, my muse, and my curse. The recent foray into being published was/is an ongoing experiment. And yes, I have made a little cash from it, but most definitely NOT enough to quit my day job. Lol. Oh so far from that,,,,,

Being (self)published is not all that. Some of my friends are incredulous at knowing a “published author”, and I smile, thank them and get even more humbled,,,,

But the fact is, just like everything else in this world: I have found that ‘JUST DO IT’ gets you so much further that ‘I’d like to,,,’ Some people used Trumps bankruptcies as a sign he was a crook. I saw them as a sign of a guy that was DOING and had a failure. Failures are only bad if you use them as a reason to quit DOING. My published books are ‘failures’ in the sense they haven’t paid for writing programs I bought to assist me. Two pricey programs to aid in organizing/ formating and in editing. A couple hundred bucks spent, less than a hundred back. I’m in the red so far.l, and that doesn’t include “TIME”: writing takes time, writing well takes even more time. Editing, rewriting, re-edit, etc; TIME.

But I ain’t bitchin’. I have done something so many others dream of and never get past page one.

Its winter, time to get back at it, and those 10000 word nights will become 30000 word nights. And mamakat will glare at the laptop!!!!!